4. Let’s Talk – (30)
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How time passed. I couldn’t think of anything when I looked at the papers packed with letters.
I tried to organize my thoughts as I breathed in the cold night air in the fall, but my head continued to be confused.
As if the cold autumn wind represents my state of mind. It seemed to cover himself with coldness.
“…Lady?”
“Why?”
“Time for dinner.”
“Oh, yes.”
At Eileen’s words, I pushed the papers I was looking at blankly into one place and slowly got up.
And I started moving my body to the restaurant with Aileen.
Asera’s expression hardened very slightly, and she continued to keep an uneasy gaze here and there.
“…”
Did it happen because of my rash actions?
Did he just have to endure it?
How did Ed react like that?
As if thoughts were running through my head over and over again, I kept holding on to myself and wouldn’t let go.
After the afternoon tea time passed, it felt like I wasted the time until the evening without any meaning.
Sabak.
With the sound of light footsteps, I continue to be immersed in contemplation.
ㅡIt doesn’t matter if you say it’s selfish, and it doesn’t matter if you curse at me.
Even so, Ed’s voice kept coming to mind.
A cold voice to hear for the first time.
He seems to have completely erased his emotions because he was numb.
No matter how hard I tried to concentrate on paperwork or work, I couldn’t forget Ed’s image.
It was like seeing someone else.
And the biggest problem is that he overheard the conversation between himself and Chersha. I couldn’t even guess where he was disappointed or where he was hurt.
If you look back at the contents of the conversation, there are not one or two things to point out.
Looking at his honest personality, he’s definitely not someone who would eavesdrop, but I kept wondering how he managed to overhear my conversation with Chersha, but it’s already been overturned. In the end, it didn’t matter now.
Chersha His attitude to distance himself from her and from herself took too much.
Isn’t it like a relationship that can’t be undone forever.
Kikik.
Did you arrive at the restaurant before you knew it?
With the sound of the door opening, my gaze was trying to find him inside.
In the restaurant located inside the mansion, there are various types of tables, and various retainers could be seen there.
A picture of a person taking the food placed on the right side at their discretion and eating.
Everyone had a tense face and seemed to be nervous about the upcoming showdown with the Witchbeast.
“…Ah.”
And passing by those people, I finally saw a blonde knight.
As if the atmosphere has changed completely differently from before, it seems to catch the attention of the people around you.
I still didn’t feel like I was relieved.
“As much as possible…Bring me something light.”
“Yes.”
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Speaking in a small whisper to Eileen, she slowly moved to where he was.
While Ashera was moving her steps, her retainers noticed her and each of them greeted her, but most of her replied with a small nod of her head. .
A blonde woman looking beside him.
The woman, who seemed to straddle the line between girl and woman, kept her eyes on him with blank eyes.
Involuntarily, I swallow the sigh that was about to leak out.
Looking at him, Ed, his attitude hasn’t changed at all since afternoon tea.
A sense of crisis came to my heart to think that this was a more serious situation beyond simply competing for Chersha and Ed.
Looks like you’ve closed your heart.
… Just like that, Chersha reached the table where she sat and slowly knocked on her table.
Then he saw Chersha looking at him with a blank gaze.
“May I sit together? Chersha?”
“…Yes. Are you okay.”
Did he recognize the gaze around him, or did he lose his mind at Ed’s state of being so cold right now? Chersha looked at herself and answered in a voice without any hostility.
Looks different from just a few hours ago.
The moment I got Chersha’s permission and sat down, I subtly glanced at Ed without realizing it.
Indifferent expression.
Even though he came, there was no significant change in his emotions.
Just as if reproducing a flawless knight, he was standing guard as if he were wary of his surroundings with the appearance of an emotionless knight.
“…”
This is how it looks right now…
Is it true that he thought it was OK to accept his heart? He didn’t understand how he could change so far.
After hesitating for a while, he finally opened his mouth.
“Ed… Have you finished your meal?”
“Yes.”
“…”
Even the voice that answered his own words didn’t show much emotion.
It was as if neither he nor Chersha were going to give special treatment.
I was afraid to talk to Ed again, even though I knew I had to. If you continue to treat yourself and show such an emotionless side. It felt like my heart was going to break without even realizing it.
So, in the end, he averted his gaze.
“Chersha…Have you had a conversation?”
“I…Don’t know what to do…”
Looking at himself with a blank stare at my question and trembling his delicate hand. Just looking at it made me feel like my hands were shaking without even realizing it.
Unbeknownst to me, I could understand her feelings.
It reminded me of Chersha, who must have been heartbroken over how to behave with Ed by her side.
If you just stand there with such an indifferent look.
“Would you like to talk to me for a while after dinner?”
“…”
Seeing Chersha nodding her head without saying a word, he let out a small sigh.
And just in time, Eileen came towards him with her little plate.
The food you put down gently like that.
A few pieces of meat with a salad.
As I was about to start eating like that, I looked at Chersha’s table and saw Chersha’s food, which seemed like she hadn’t even touched it.
…Unbeknownst to me, my heart weakened. For some reason, the appearance that I clearly regarded as an enemy and didn’t like one by one seemed even more miserable now.
“Shouldn’t you eat a little more?”
“…I have no appetite.”
“Still, you never know when a crisis situation will erupt. Please eat some.”
“Okay…”
At last, Chersha nodded her head slightly at my words, and she forcibly held up her fork and knife.
…Seeing that, he lifted a spoon himself, but for a moment, he felt that this situation was somehow unfamiliar.
Her Just a few hours ago, she and herself, who had been arguing with each other with her bloody atmosphere, hadn’t even raised knives against each other…
Now we were talking like this, probably with the same feelings and without any resentment.
A situation where you are having a casual conversation as if you were a person with whom your heart is connected.
Her … Did she feel that way? Involuntarily, she raised her eyes toward her, and Chersha’s ruby-like red eyes met her eyes.
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Jerbug.
As the evening deepens, I move towards my room.
Consciousness continued to blur, as if mental fatigue had exceeded its limit.
My body feels heavy.
That Chersha and Lady Ashera are talking again. Even knowing that, he slowly moves towards his room.
I had no intention of eavesdropping on their conversation again or committing the same mistakes as in the afternoon.
No matter how much he was replaced by Chersha as her exclusive escort, all duties were replaced.
It was practically impossible to stand as an escort for 24 hours.
That’s why you can spend your time during the daytime.
At night, the knights trusted by the Gleard family were supposed to escort Chersha.
“…Looks like he was seriously hurt.”
In a daze, such a sound comes out without my knowledge.
Chersha clinging to me looking extremely hurt.
I have been asked to treat myself as usual, and I have been saying various things over and over. He didn’t respond to anything in the end.
There was no point in reacting now.
As much as they were hurt because of him… He thought that he was also being punished.
Something I used to do before killing someone. Because he had been holding on to what killed his heart for several hours now.
I felt like even my body was creaking beyond my mental limits.
But you have to get used to the situation now. You keep pushing yourself like that.
Until the level 2 crisis is over, at least he decided not to give them any emotions.
I was so afraid that they would do something wrong because of me, right now, in a second-class crisis situation.
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In a city surrounded by clouds of war, he shouldn’t disturb the girls’ hearts because of himself.
“…Until this situation is over…Yes, I’m just going to kill you until then.”
As I returned to my room and slowly took off my knight’s uniform while looking in the mirror, I saw a cold, stiff face.