237 – Sour Grapes
Questions directed to Ceylon.
Who is closest to your ideal type right now?
Kasha jokingly brought up the question as if it was nothing, but they were now in a situation where they had honestly confessed their feelings to Ceylon and were waiting for his answer.
I had no choice but to react very sensitively to Ceylon’s answer.
Thanks to this, the spirit of the women waiting for Ceylon’s answer was even fierce.
If you choose someone other than yourself, it feels like Ceylon and that person will be eaten at the same time!
However, the moment Miz’s name was mentioned, their ferocious spirit immediately subsided as if it had never happened before.
‘Miz here… ?’
They were embarrassed.
Because she did not think of Miz as her competition.
It’s not because I’m ignoring Miz.
Rather, they thought that Miz was her same-s*x child and that she was an attractive child in their own eyes.
Kasha and Drin overwhelm their opponents with perfect aura like wild beasts.
Miz couldn’t do that.
Aedrin and Whivien capture the attention of others with their bubbly atmosphere, like monsters.
Miz wasn’t even that good.
However.
Kasha, Dryn, Aedrin, and Hwivien were not as good as Miz.
Adelyn never said it directly to her Miz because it seemed rude to her, but she sometimes felt like he was like the hamster she kept in her childhood.
It’s about making the other person feel comfortable when you’re together.
And the source of that comfort was complete ‘harmlessness’.
This child will never do anything to hurt me.
So, I have to make sure I never hurt this child.
Miz made the people she was with feel that way.
As long as you don’t look at her with a paranoid eye and get caught up in the preconceived notions that she is a ‘bower’, she is a person full of charm as a human being – that’s Miz.
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But what about her charm as the opposite s*x?
“… “
In fact, his charm as the opposite s*x was overflowing.
A dense and delicate atmosphere, like a doll made by a craftsman.
As she faces those clear, emotionless eyes, it seems as if she will pull her cheek or move her arm without realizing it.
If she wasn’t Baurer, many of the men in her academy would have fallen in love with her charm and couldn’t break away from her.
When I thought about it again, I thought she was strange.
Why did she feel embarrassed when Ceylon mentioned Miz as her ideal type?
There is nothing strange about this at all.
‘Ah.’
Finally, they realize the reason.
That was because of Miz’s attitude toward Ceylon.
Looking at Miz’s usual attitude toward Ceylon, Miz seemed to be completely indifferent to her Ceylon.
Even when his friends confessed their true feelings to Ceylon and continued to fight in secret, you can see that he took a step back and looked at the fire across the water.
If he had regarded Ceylon as a partner rather than just a friend, he would not have been impatient and unable to remain still like others.
Ceylon also felt comfortable with Miz among his friends.
He was a person who couldn’t make fun of others, but when he was dealing with Miz, he joked normally.
The girls finally realized why they were embarrassed that Ceylon chose Miz as the person closest to their ideal type.
From a third party’s perspective, their relationship was an ideal friendship.
A relationship in which rational emotions are completely excluded.
That relationship.
Now Ceylon has suddenly woken up.
“Wow, wow, wow…”
Aid Lin covered her mouth with her hand.
The girls looked at the two with excited faces, forgetting that Ceylon had chosen someone else instead of them.
This was possible because it was Miz.
For some reason, it seemed like Miz wouldn’t feel bad if the man took the seat next to him from him.
More than anything, they were curious.
How will Miz react in this situation?
Probably that Miz-
‘Bauler is my ideal type. ‘What a perverted taste.’
Wouldn’t saying the same thing and passing it off in a sly manner embarrass Ceylon?
“Uh…Uh…That…”
However, Miz’s reaction was quite different from what they expected.
The world’s Miz was visibly embarrassed and didn’t know what to do.
“Miss Miz…?”
Ceylon and the girls were taken aback by the uncharacteristic reaction she received.
“…”
Finally, Miz looked at her friends.
Drin.
Kasha.
Hwivien.
Aedrin.
Those people are my friends.
Proud friends whose shoulders and corners of their mouths naturally lift just by thinking that.
And, if you look at them, you will feel blinded by the attractive people.
“…”
Miz then looked at Ceylon.
Her own dearest friend.
And, as far as she knows, she is the most wonderful person in the world.
“Miss Miz…?”
Miz lowered her head.
Then it seemed as if her own image was reflected on the floor.
It was shabby.
Compared to those wonderful people, she was a very shabby person.
It was not a new sentiment, it was a thought I had always had.
She couldn’t believe she was among such wonderful people.
It shouldn’t have been the same in the first place.
It was too much.
Miz always tried to never forget her gratitude to him.
She thoroughly objectified herself to avoid ruining everything by crossing the line with her subject.
That’s why she couldn’t tolerate it.
A wonderful person like Ceylon.
You leave such wonderful people behind and choose yourself.
“Oh, idiot. No way. Making a joke like that in such an important situation. It’s rude to the ladies…?”
Miz tried to maintain her usual self, but she wasn’t doing well.
Her usual emotionless yet bold expression was gone, and her expression was stiff and facing downward.
The usual emotionless yet confident voice was unstable, as if it was being forced out of nowhere.
Miz was anxious.
Are you afraid that her friends will disapprove of you because of this?
‘No…’
She might have been like that if she had been herself back in the day.
However, I am different now that I have experienced changes thanks to Ceylon.
Now she was able to truly accept the kindness her friends showed her.
Therefore, it was not her friends’ reactions that made Miz anxious.
This was Ceylon’s response.
Excited.
Excited.
The moment Ceylon chose Miz as her ideal type, her heart started beating like crazy.
Are you excited?
Are you looking forward to it?
Yes. She would be lying if she said she had no such feelings.
But she was more afraid than that.
What on earth did Ceylon see in himself that made him rate him higher than those wonderful people?
Miz thought about how she was better compared to her amazing people.
‘Where is that…’
She couldn’t come to mind at all.
So Miz thought it was her Ceylon illusion.
An illusion that is bound to be resolved someday.
The moment Miz’s illusion was resolved, she thought about Ceylon’s reaction.
She sees Ceylon disappointed because she does not live up to her expectations.
Awesome!
Even though it’s only my imagination, it hurts this much.
But to what extent will it become a reality?
“…Miss? Miss Miz!?”
Miz barely came to his senses when he heard Ceylon’s voice.
She lifted her head and looked at him properly and tried to speak.
-This position is too much for Bowler, so just take it as you please.
But she couldn’t even raise her head and look at him.
“I, I, I, I-…”
I don’t think I should be here.
That was the one word Miz managed to squeeze out of her.
When Miz came to her senses, she was already running.
Leaving behind the voices of her friends who were desperately calling to her.
***
“Uh…”
Ceylon and her girls looked in confusion in the direction where her Miz had disappeared.
There was an awkward silence in the place for a while.
“Aren’t you going with me?”
The person who discovered it was none other than Whivien.
Hot! She came to her senses and picked up Ceylon.
“Why are you dazed?”
“Ceylon…!
“Ceylon County, hurry-“
The other three came to their senses too late and followed Hwivien and looked at him.
“That-“
But in reality, Ceylon still seemed to have not come to his senses.
He rarely revealed his true feelings.
-I didn’t know it would end up like this.
I felt like I could hear that voice in his expression.
Then the four women’s expressions became serious.
“You, look at me.”
Hwivien made eye contact with Ceylon and said.
“What you just said to Ms. Miz. You meant it, right?”
“…”
Miz’s reaction.
And Ceylon’s original intention.
If it were like the original Ceylon, I would have been unable to come to my senses out of guilt.
However, what Ceylon was feeling right now was not guilt.
Empathy.
Unusually, Ceylon, who was extremely oblivious, immediately understood why Miz had reacted that way just now.
Ceylon saw himself in Miz’s appearance just now.
“…”
Finally, Ceylon nodded his head with a determined look.
“Everyone. There was an answer I had to give you.”
The curtain is lifted.
Ceylon lifted her eyelids, revealing those golden eyes.
To show my true intentions to them.
“…”
Ceylon carefully made eye contact with each and every one of them.
And then she made eye contact with Hwivienne for the last time, and then she closed her eyes and said,
“I’m sorry. I really appreciate your feelings, but I don’t think I can accept it.”
***
Here, there is a fox.
A fox had been watching a tree closely for a long time.
It was a tree bearing ripe, very desirable grapes.
Will I ever see grapes that look so delicious again in my lifetime?
The fox could be sure that such a day would never come.
That’s why I was sad.
At first glance, those grapes were grown so high that no one could dare to covet them.
So the fox tried to withdraw his attention from the grape.
I believe that the grapes are different from what they seem, but they are useful.
Whenever Miz was with Ceylon, she would always think of that story.
Her own situation with Ceylon in front of her was different and similar to that of the fox looking up at the grapes that she could not reach.
Miz liked Ceylon.
To be exact, I admired it.
That was her true intention.
Friend.
Friendship.
With that concept, Miz’s emotions could not be fully expressed.
However, Miz confined her own feelings within the framework of her friends and friendship.
Ceylon. Because he is too wonderful a person to be connected to someone like him.
Because there is no way in his eyes that he is like himself.
So Miz hid her feelings completely.
She treated Ceylon only as her friend.
-I want to become a more precious person to the fool…
She barely managed to shake off the greed that tempted her all the time.
“Ha…”
But I couldn’t even imagine it.
First on the Ceylon side-
I never thought the moment would come when I would say those words to myself.
“I don’t think it’s Bowler… He can’t do anything at an important moment…”
Miz, who has finally regained her original bold appearance, retains her bitter self-deprecation – but she immediately stiffens.
“…”
Why?
Do important moments always come without warning?
Why?
Do you always realize that the moment is important only after the moment has passed?
Miz recalled the situation just now and was filled with regret.
‘She could have done a little better than that…’
I wish I had handled it a little better.
She might have been much easier to deal with later.
Maybe. She may not have needed to settle down.
“…”
No.
Of course not.
That person is, of course, a person who is so precious to something like himself.
“You rarely made the right choice, Baurer. So be a little more proud.”
Miz completely shook off her regrets with her unique joke.
Tears that I didn’t know when had formed flowed down her cheeks.
She has never felt more resentful of herself as an uncool person than she does today.
I wish I knew it would be like this.
She wished she had known that he would pay attention to her in the future.
She should have tried a little harder.
“Anyway, what should I do next…”
Miz didn’t have the courage to face Ceylon for a while.
This happens as soon as we meet again.
I felt like my chest was tight and tight.
“Why did that fool say that to me…”
Then I suddenly began to feel resentful of Ceylon.
In the first place.
Did he really say that to himself?
“…Oh no.”
Miz belatedly recognized one possibility.
Perhaps, Ceylon just said that to himself to ease the situation.
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“Is that what happened…”
It seemed like the empty pieces of the puzzle were being filled.
“Somehow…”
That’s right.
Miz shook her head.
“Yes. This is better.’
Miz assumed that Ceylon did not mean what he said to her, and she began to think about how to repair her relationship with him.
It was much simpler for her to make a plan to repair her relationship than when she had rejected his heart, but what was this bitter feeling?
‘Anyway, what happens there now?’
Has the mood been ruined because of me?
Or maybe they don’t care whether I disappear or not.
If it’s the latter, I’d really feel heartbroken, but-
Nevertheless, I thought it would be better if it was the latter.
Because she didn’t want to make those people feel uncomfortable.
That was the time when Miz was locked in a corner of her academy’s campus, immersed in her agony.
“Miss Miz.”
The voice of Ceylon was heard.
There Encylon stood with his friends.
“…”
Did you follow me?
Miz was happy. She felt ashamed of herself and she felt ashamed of herself for being happy.
Miz lowered her head, but a moment later she lifted it up again.
The usual bold, expressionless girl was there.
“Oh my. As expected of Bowler, I ended up ruining the mood. I’m sorry. What should I do?”
Miz said, trying to ignore her throbbing breasts and trying to act as if nothing had happened.
“I’m sorry.”
However, despite Miz’s efforts, Ceylon spoke to Miz in her serious tone.
“Actually, what I said to Ms. Miz just now was meant to defuse the situation. I thought she would accept it cheerfully.”
“Ah.”
As expected.
Miz lowered her head without realizing it and then quickly raised it again.
-As expected. I knew it would happen. So I was annoyed and gave him some trouble. My acting. How was it?
Just as she was about to say what she had prepared.
“I was scared.”
“…Huh?”
“Something like me gets your attention.”
Miz looked at Ceylon.
It was a strange thing.
In his always sly and relaxed appearance, a side of a person that should never be seen was visible.
It was Miz himself.
“I am not a person that wonderful people like you would like. I happened to be very lucky and gained abilities that exceeded my expectations. I am nothing but a human being.”
He revealed his eyes that were hidden behind his eyelids.
The golden eyes were shaking.
Those were the eyes of an ordinary person, not the true direct lineage master of Harashin, nor the hero who saved the continent.
“So, I was afraid that someday you would realize my true nature and be disappointed. I couldn’t accept your feelings. I tried to avoid the situation by pathetically relying on Ms. Miz.”
A new side of Ceylon I discovered.
His gentle true self hidden behind a relaxed smiling face.
They quietly looked at him.
Ceylon smiled weakly at that.
“As you can see, that guy is such a pathetic guy. For that reason, I’m sorry. I don’t think I’ll be able to accept your feelings.”
That was Ceylon’s pure sincerity.
He was also a man.
The interest of attractive women like them. Of course I was happy.
But. He wasn’t as great of a person as they thought.
So he revealed his true self, not decorated with character acting.
Compared to his usual appearance, he looks completely ordinary and feeble.
So that they take their attention away from themselves.
“…”
They looked at Ceylon.
Ceylon’s sincerity was clearly conveyed to them.
“Fool.”
“Yes, Miss Miz.”
“Thank you for saying that.”
The moment when Ceylon tried to smile helplessly.
“So, I’ll be honest now.”
Ceylon had one mistake.
The weak side of the mischievous man who never loses his composure elicited a completely different emotion from them than contempt.
‘I like it.’
Miz created a bright smile that refreshed everyone who saw it, and at the same time, a mischievous smile that seemed to imitate someone.
The suppressed emotions were released freely.
Moment.
Someone grabbed his head.
Horrifying eyes all turned towards him.
The prey revealed its weakness.
Predators began to run rampant.