238 – Disappeared distance
-Heesilheesil
That stupid impression.
When I looked at it for a moment, it felt fainter than an ember about to go out or even dust that had just begun to accumulate.
No matter how hard I try to remember, it feels like my face will be replaced by a question mark after a while –
A strong, faint presence, as if threatening to make us look down on ourselves.
It was rather impressive because it was so faint.
That is how the first impression of the man named Ceylon was imprinted on them.
What was your impression after that?
Even if I said it well, it wasn’t very good.
By the standards of the aristocratic world, that infinitely light atmosphere was ‘nothing’ to say the least, and to put it bluntly, it was ‘frivolity’ itself.
If that wasn’t enough, that sly yet sinister attitude that seemed to know how to get under people’s skin.
Before I knew it, the vague impression of the man named Ceylon was imprinted in my mind as a concrete impression.
With the impression of an ‘annoying man’.
Really.
He was an annoying man.
He seems like a man without the slightest sense of seriousness.
As he talked, he tended to go down a side road.
When I came to my senses, I had already become the victim of his practical joke.
Does this man not know the aesthetic of seriousness?
I’m sure.
There must be only one thought in this man’s head.
How to pick on the other person!
Who would want to talk to a man like this?
Who would like a man like this!
I was annoyed.
It was disgusting.
I hated seeing it.
But why?
I have been looking forward to meeting him for some time.
He was enjoying meeting him.
Was it possible for the feelings of frustration and joy to coexist?
Why are you having fun in the first place?
I felt pathetic for being happy because of that annoying man.
My pride was hurt.
But I couldn’t deny it.
No matter how much I thought about it, I enjoyed the moment I was with that man, so I kept thinking about it.
Heesilheesil.
In that way, Ceylon’s face took up a lot of space in his mind.
No matter what I thought, I was hit by his foot and it came back to me from time to time.
Then, I began to feel a different kind of irritation than before.
To be precise, it could be said to be closer to frustration.
-Heesil Heesil
It was because of his unique, insincere smile.
It’s not that I don’t like it in itself.
There were times when I thought, ‘Can you stop being so silly?’
Now, if Silon doesn’t make that face when he looks at him, he will feel unbearably disappointed.
To be honest.
I clearly liked the way the man smiled.
But why do I feel frustrated because of that man’s smiling face?
-Heesil Heesil
It’s probably because of greed.
A desire to know a little more about that man.
The desire to get a little closer to that man.
If you are comfortable with maintaining a reasonable distance from him, his wandering impression is perfect entertainment.
But if he cannot settle for a reasonable distance from you and wants to get closer to you.
That vague impression becomes an irreplaceable obstacle.
Humans are said to be social animals and visual animals at the same time.
The most important factor in a person’s judgment when considering another person’s emotions.
That’s just the impression.
-Heesil Heesil
But the man’s impression was always the same.
No matter how kindly the man treats him.
No matter how rudely the man treats him.
That impression always remained the same.
That’s why it felt like the distance between me and the man had not changed.
Suddenly, his narrowed eyes began to feel cruel.
Eyes are mirrors of emotions.
He hid the mirror thoroughly behind his eyelids.
At the same time, I carefully observed other people’s eyes.
Cowardly.
Frustration became dissatisfaction, and dissatisfaction became anxiety.
His impression began to feel like a mask.
An appearance created to hide one’s true appearance from others.
Is he really hiding his true self?
Then why is he hiding it?
Why doesn’t he show his true self?
Because I didn’t feel the reason or value?
Formal and superficial relationship.
Is that all Ceylon wants for herself?
Did Ceylon not feel the desire to become closer like himself?
For Ceylon, is he the only person he can be?
You are not worth showing your true face to him-
Is he perhaps one of the good characters?
The closer I got to Ceylon, the further away I felt.
I was afraid.
It feels like I will never be able to get my hands on him like this.
Then one day, I thought he would suddenly disappear.
Would he change if Ceylon felt contempt for him?
Would he change if Ceylon got annoyed with him?
If we do that, will we be able to see the true face of Ceylon?
He even wondered what it would be like to force his mask off.
But he never put it into practice.
If Ceylon’s real face behind the mask is different from what you know and what you expect.
Because it will most likely be unbearably painful.
Deep in their hearts, they thought of Ceylon as a mysterious person who was difficult to encounter.
That’s what he said.
He said the reason he kept his distance from them until now was because he was afraid.
I am afraid that my shabby appearance will not meet people’s expectations.
So he is afraid that he will be disappointed in himself.
Is this the true face of Ceylon?
The man who is easy-going, sly, mischievous, conniving, mysterious, and difficult to approach in everything he does?
The concept of ‘Gap Moe’ existed in a world they did not know about yet.
The moment I saw the true face of Ceylon.
They understood the concept perfectly.
To the point where I can no longer restrain myself.
***
Poof.
The face of Ceylon, who was facing Miz, is snatched.
It was Hwivien.
“…”
She looked closely at Ceylon’s face in disbelief.
The long-awaited true face of Ceylon was there.
The faint impression that I would be fine even if the sky fell finally collapsed.
More than anything, the pupils that had been completely hidden inside the eyelids were revealed.
It’s beautiful.
Whivien looked into Ceylon’s eyes and felt deep admiration within her.
What shape are Ceylon’s eyes?
I have imagined and expected so much so far.
That expectation grew and grew until it reached a level where it was natural to be betrayed.
Hwivien vowed not to be disappointed even if he got to see Ceylon’s eyes one day.
Perhaps the reason he walks around with his eyes squinted is because he has a complex about his eyes.
It was a pointless worry.
“Why on earth… Why have you been hiding this until now…?”
Now, Hwivien was thinking the exact opposite of what he was worried about.
The reason why this man hid his eyes.
Maybe he did it to avoid the annoying situation of all kinds of people being attracted to him?
The golden eyes were purer and more brilliant than any gold that Hwivien, the daughter of a great family, had ever seen in her life.
Even Drin’s deep blue eyes, which even the daughters of the same great family could not help but admire, felt ordinary compared to Ceylon’s.
Of course, the reason why Hwivien fell in love with Ceylon’s eyes was not simply for external reasons.
“Miss Whivien…?”
The emotions contained within the eyes are so perfect that it even feels foreign.
It was fear.
Ceylon was truly, as he said, afraid of how his true self would be conveyed to the other party.
Gulp.
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Hwivien swallowed his saliva without realizing it.
Eyes twitching unconsciously.
The eyes become blurry.
She moved closer and closer to him, looking straight into Ceylon’s eyes, as if throwing herself into the river.
The two lips touch-
“Where?”
The moment I was about to do it.
Kasha grabbed the back of Hwivien’s neck.
“Come to your senses, you lewd girl. You’re about to rape me.”
“I’m scared…!”
Hwivien was indignant at Kasha’s blatant expression, but could not really refute it.
Even if he thought to himself, what he had just tried to do was not worth it.
Hwivien himself was embarrassed.
I can’t believe you show such a rude appearance in front of that person.
-hahahaha, Miss Hwiun Woman! I guess you fell in love with me back then?
I already felt like my teeth were grinding as I thought about how that person would make fun of me for this.
‘Why did I do that…!?’
I came to my senses and looked at Ceylon again.
“…”
Then I immediately recall the reason.
“…”
Even Kasha couldn’t take her eyes off Ceylon now.
Ceylon took two actions to reveal his true colors.
By revealing her own eyes, she revealed her true feelings.
And, she reaped the power of her acting characteristics that created what she thought was an ‘ideal, narrow-eyed look’ atmosphere.
The veil that made her feel comfortable and dumbfounded was lifted.
The ideal appearance was revealed as if ‘someone had made it by hand’.
On top of that, his innate presence is added as a being born from eating a great person.
Now, they were feeling a similar feeling as when commoners encountered them.
It was a feeling of longing.
“Guys, I feel a little…Embarrassed if you stare at me so silently in this situation…? hahahaha-“
This man.
Are you looking at me now?
You were worried that you would disappoint me?
“Whoa…”
Adeline covered her own mouth, making a sound like a boiling kettle.
“That Ceylon army…”
There was heat in Drin’s calm eyes as he looked at Ceylon.
“…”
Kasha, who made eye contact with Ceylon for a moment, averted her gaze out of embarrassment.
“Phew… Phew…”
In the case of Whivienne, she was having all kinds of delusions and barely holding back the dangerous sounds that were trying to escape.
“…”
I hope that the atmosphere will continue for a while as if predators are roaming around herbivores.
“Ceylon…”
Aid Lin put the index fingers of both her hands together and wriggled.
She looked cautiously at Ceylon with her raised eyes and opened her mouth.
“I’m glad you told me your true feelings… I’m touched that you were thinking like that…”
“Is that so? I’m glad you accepted it that way.”
“hehehe… I’ve felt it for a long time. I think Ceylon speaks really beautifully.”
Ceylon was momentarily taken aback by the sight of Aedrin smiling brightly.
Although she was familiar with Aid Lin’s appearance, she was somehow unfamiliar.
The reason was that the distance Aedrin felt from Ceylon disappeared.
“Ceylon.”
Aedrin looked at Ceylon cautiously from the corner of her eye.
She gazed at Ceylon properly.
She looks up at him with her sparkling eyes and says.
“I don’t think what Ceylon has shown us is pathetic. So, I hope Ceylon doesn’t think that way either. Understood?”
“… I’ve felt this for a long time, but Miss Ade Lin seems to speak very prettily.”
“What are you saying?”
hehehehe.
Aid Lin covered her mouth with her hand.
Nevertheless, I could see the corners of his mouth rising to reach his cheekbones.
“Ceylon, so-“
What now?
Adelyn lowered her head and wiggled her fingers as she muttered cautiously.
“Yes? What now… Nyannyo?”
“You said Ceylon? Ceylon is a pathetic person and won’t be able to accept my heart?”
“It was… Right?”
“Yes, yes, that’s right. That’s why I said, Ceylon is not a pathetic person at all.”
Aid Lin slowly raised her head.
“Then, isn’t there now no reason why you can’t accept my heart?”
hehehe.
Once again she looked up at him with raised eyes, a shy yet mischievous smile on her face.
“Yes? Ah-“
“So, I mean – if that’s the reason why I couldn’t answer what I said today. Just in case, just in case – I was wondering if I could get an answer now…”
Fidgeting. Wiggle.
“…Huh? Ceylon? What do you think of me…?”
Aedrin’s cheeks were colored shyly, but she tried not to look away from Ceylon.
“Miss Aedrin…”
Ceylon spoke without making an effort to avoid looking at her.
“He is a wonderful person.”
“What, what. Is that the end?”
“No way. It’s just that my vocabulary is too poor to fully describe Ms. Aedrine’s charms.”
“Chii. You speak well.”
Pouting.
Aid Lin pouted her mouth.
It was at that time that Ceylon tried to smile softly at that grumpy puppy-like appearance.
“Then-“
Aedrin spoke with a much redder face, but a much softer expression.
“It must be a good thing for Ceylon to receive a confession from such a wonderful person, huh? Right, right?”
As Ade Lin playfully urged Ceylon to respond, she laughed bitterly.
Her laughter was naturally contagious to Ceylon.
The moment he opened his mouth as if he had decided.
“Oh, hey…!”
“Ceylon County!”
“Wait a minute!!!”
The three women shouted at the same time in confusion.
That blocked Ceylon from answering.
Aid Lin pouted her mouth and looked at them resentfully.
“…”
“…”
“…”
Where are you trying to cut in line?
“Hey…”
Of course, when the three ladies glared, the momentum quickly subsided.
When wild beasts appeared, the fox had no choice but to curl his tail.
Aedrin’s hypocrisy is suppressed, and the atmosphere of the place becomes tense again.
A breathtaking battle of wits that has never been seen before.
And consultation.
“You.”
“Ceylon County.”
“Ceylon?”
“Hey.”
They opened their mouths at the same time.
And then we waited for Ceylon’s choice.
“Heh heh…”
Ceylon looks troubled and troubled.
“Hmm?”
Someone pulled Ceylon’s collar.
“I feel sorry for the nice ladies. This guy has slightly perverted tastes.”
It was Miz.
She declared confidently.
“Surprisingly, this man said a woman like Bower is his ideal type.”
Right?
Miz looked up at Ceylon with his characteristic emotionless yet bold expression and said playfully.
“So, the first right to spend time with this man with perverted tastes will be given to the chosen Baurer.”
“…”
The girls were speechless and unable to refute Miz’s sudden behavior.
It was the same in Ceylon.
So, Ceylon and her first date were decided to be Miz.