103 – Chairman
… Her granddaughter was taken to the hospital today.
She made a rope out of towels and hung herself with it.
After making a rope made of towels from a light fixture hanging from the ceiling, he hung her neck from it.
The light could not bear the weight of her granddaughter, so her whole light was pulled out.
Until now, there have been cases of her cutting her wrists with her knife or taking excessive amounts of sleeping pills, so I erased all the cases so that my granddaughter would not act unexpectedly as much as possible.
I put away the knife, and I can’t take sleeping pills without a doctor’s opinion. I thought she was taking care of it so well, but I didn’t expect this to happen today.
… From now on, what will she do to stop her granddaughter from continuing her suicide attempt?
Should I keep the towel to wipe her body tightly? Then what next…? Do you keep getting rid of things in your house?
She could easily picture her granddaughter alone in her empty room. Is that really a good thing to do?
“…”
She put her pen holder, which she had been holding for a while, down on the desk and looked out the window.
A building erected like a matchbox lay beneath her feet.
The number of buildings covered with the ground is uncountable. I suddenly thought that half of them were related to Mirae Group.
Since the war, my grandfather has lived an honest life faster than others, higher than others, and harder than others.
My father, who has long since passed away. The former president was also evaluated for being honest and running forward, and although it is embarrassing to evaluate myself, I have lived a life that did not tarnish the reputation of the two.
I didn’t know at the time, but now that I think about it, what’s around me- what to be careful about.
I didn’t care about that, I ran and ran only to get the sweet fruit in front of my eyes.
Now, all the ills that I ignored and didn’t pay attention to are all exploding and paying a harsh price.
Daughter, and this time granddaughter.
The hell, I couldn’t figure out what to do.
A competitor started to jump into the semiconductor market.
Due to soaring crude oil prices in the Middle East, logistics costs have skyrocketed.
Such a problem could be solved.
Numbers and graphs.
For arithmetic problems, you can generate statistics, and being able to generate statistics means you can find a solution to the problem.
What should I do with this child?
Why, why did her granddaughter have no choice but to act like that, and why did her daughter Ai do that? …At first I couldn’t figure out the cause.
My job is to lead a huge organization. A counselor who elaborately digs into an individual’s psychology – or I’m not a psychologist.
In the face of an unexpected natural disaster, humans were helpless.
Isn’t the life I’ve walked so far wrong?
Isn’t this happening because of my own selfishness, to lighten my burden?
Thinking that way, I had the same thought that the golden road I thought I had been running on had turned into an achromatic muddy road.
My grandfather ran a flour company and a cloth manufacturing company.
My father started making steel, automobiles and home appliances there, and now in our future group, smartphones and TV panels that can be bent at will. Smart car, strong artificial intelligence.
It sounds funny to be honest.
I also don’t know exactly how they work or how they are made.
All I do is adjust wages, set up factory sites, and – also – solve various political issues.
If the business areas of the company were divided in that way, production, transportation, research, and management, if my grandfather was an all-rounder who could do everything from fabric production to transportation and research.
My father was not as good as my grandfather, but he was able to overcome the crisis at the company with his ingenious intelligence.
That’s all. My father had never been involved with a company product like his grandfather.
Thinking about it now, the organization named ‘Future’ has already grown too big for one individual to be active in all fields.
Now that I have risen to the position of chairman, it was too much for an ‘individual’ to take charge of the organization called ‘Future’.
Yes, if you have a lot of work, you can leave it to other people.
It’s a simple fact.
However, it is not at all a simple matter to ‘leave it to’.
At first, I had no choice but to think that way.
Three generations from me.
Like nobles in the Middle Ages got married, numerous government departments, companies that were similar in weight to us in the past, and companies that are still in agreement with us are intertwined like a spider’s web.
In the process, just because I put someone in a certain position, why did I do that? How could you do that to us?
It is impossible to satisfy many people.
In the end, no matter who I choose, there will inevitably be people who have complaints and dissatisfaction. I have to reduce the risk as much as possible as a leader, but I recklessly give the power I have to others..?
They gave away the authority I had. The monarchs of a ruined empire. Kings. And many politicians.
In the end, I had to put someone with the ability to be in the position I wanted while not being harmed as much as possible, and also listen carefully to what I said.
I don’t want to let go of power until I reach my age.
Because I committed countless sins while climbing up to this point – it’s like riding on the back of a tiger.
I calculated in my head that if I were to step down from power now, 3 out of 10 people would want to harm me.
It sounds obvious, but no one wants to die painfully when they die, and I did too.
And my greed ended up ruining everything.
My daughter, like me, was the kind of girl who would rather be in charge of something, lead people and do things—like taking walks, eating delicious food—and playing with her friends.
My desire to be comfortable.
Because of my greed to keep my position, I persecuted and harassed my daughter – and eventually broke it.
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Take a moment to visit the hospital room where her granddaughter is located.
Her granddaughter was sleeping soundly in bed with a calm face.
If it hadn’t been for the oxygen mask that was put over her mouth, wouldn’t she have been taking a nap?
To the extent that it gives you that kind of misunderstanding.
Seeing her granddaughter sleeping with her hands on her stomach, I suddenly thought of her daughter.
It suddenly occurred to me that I had never seen my daughter sleep since she was born.
Even to me, who is far from medicine, her granddaughter’s physical condition was not very good.
The scars on her wrist, like barcodes, the aftermath of her knife, and her hair being crumbly, made her look weak.
Is it a mere illusion that in my eyes the figure looks like it was in her coffin after death?
The granddaughter looked just like her daughter Ai when she was young.
They look similar. Her physique is dwarfed, and her personality is different.
No matter how much a parent-child relationship is, genes are not 100% the same, and personality parts are inherited from the father.
Her height is short compared to her daughter’s child, and the lack of flesh is that she was unable to grow up in a proper nurturing environment from a young age.
Since before, the granddaughter couldn’t eat her meals properly, so it must be that her flesh is not enough.
…She thought she was fine recently because she ate well and slept well.
As the future department store and construction manager submits a separate report,
-These days, the lady eats well, tries to work hard, and her expression is brighter!
When I first heard that – Gina works? At first, I didn’t understand what that meant.
Not too long ago, she was that child who was dying day by day.
I couldn’t help but be surprised that the child who had brought no counselors and doctors to no effect suddenly wanted to do something.
I quietly called someone to check if the words were ‘true’ or ‘false’, and it was true.
I don’t eat much, but I try to eat three full meals unconditionally, and also- I sleep regularly, and I take medicine and alcohol. And self-injury has drastically decreased.
Again- I doubted my ears when I heard that he was in charge of his own work related to improving the treatment of construction workers and safety inspections.
Why is this child behaving like this all of a sudden?
When I was abroad, when I was bored, the child who was taken to the hospital suddenly returns to Korea, so I try to do something little by little..?
Because of endemic disease or gloomy weather, her granddaughter may not have lived like that all this time.
… Jina resembles her own father, so her personality is soft and kind.
Her daughter Ai’s personality is also particularly ferocious, she has a cruel heart – I don’t want to put it that way.
It’s because I raised her wrongly – her daughter was originally timid and fragile like Jin-ah, and – because at that age she had the heart of a girl.
That’s why she could be twisted, broken, and again-broken more easily than anyone else, and that’s why she made such an extreme choice in the end.
She was a good child by nature.
… She used to have a friend who wants to go to high school with me in the future.
I met that friend once and talked about her, and there was a part that was better than I thought.
Because not caring about what people have is very important.
Perhaps mothers and daughters have the same eyes for men.
But from what I heard, her granddaughter didn’t really like her relationship with the boy.
She’s just like her mother, her daughter is like that, she’s like Gina, and she’s like that.
She tried to give everything she had, so the boy couldn’t help but feel rejected.
-She wanted to go on a school trip with Yoo Seon and play, but things didn’t go well.
-She thought it would be fun if she went to the same high school, but she keeps staying away from her.
-… I wanted to go to Meister High School… If I had known this would happen, I would have gone to Meister High School..
A lot of mistakes have been made about the problem. I like you like this – why don’t you like me..?
That kind of goseong went back and forth several times… The staff who put it around Jin-ah told me.
I’m going to step in and solve this situation.
Just when I was about to walk on my arms, I don’t know what kind of agreement the two of us made or what conversations we had.
Unlike her daughter, her granddaughter meekly shunned the boy.
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Going abroad, as if trying to forget that child. And I try to study hard… Of course, as you can see, the results are disastrous.
An immature child.
Since it was the first time, anyone can make mistakes.
Because there are moments when people get hurt and receive lessons from pain.
Jina is very clumsy about that part, and she is much slower than the other children.
So it takes time.
Wouldn’t it be possible to recover again if experts take care of it? A scab will form on the wound in your heart, and won’t it be possible to become a better child than yesterday?
It’s difficult right now… But I believed in myself that it would get better little by little when time passed.
When Jin-ah heard that she was working at Mirae Department Store, I finally realized that Jin-a had overcome her pain,
She’s about to step up again.
That… She had the slightest hope. Going through today made me rethink her thoughts about her granddaughter.
Jinah did not have the strength to overcome the pain of parting.