127 – Confinement
I first woke up to castles when I was in middle school.
I was so embarrassed when I woke up and checked that the blanket was damp.
I thought drawing maps on futons was after kindergarten. I checked, and it doesn’t seem to be urine…
Since it happened at dawn when people were sleeping, I hurriedly threw the blanket and underwear I was wearing into the washing machine… I wonder if anyone saw this? Could it be that he has some kind of disease? I was also worried
Again… I think he was confused because he had a very strange dream.
I still remember what I had in my dreams that day.
A scene where I present a school uniform to Jina Lee who does not have a school uniform, and Jina changes from her plain clothes to a school uniform in front of me. … I woke up just as I was about to pull up the clothes she was wearing.
At that time, it was a more socially conservative and s*xually strict era than now, but even so, it taught me about wet dreams, ejaculation, and how babies are born, so I was able to quickly notice that what I was doing was wet dreams.
So I felt guilty.
I was afraid that I had such thoughts about my precious friend, and I was horrified and sorry.
She felt sorry for Jinah Lee, but she seemed to have kept away from her for a while and controlled her desire with her exercise.
Discharge all of your body’s stamina so that you can erase all the thoughts and thoughts in your head.
I’ve always been an active person to the extent that I like to go out and play, but since then, I think exercise has become my hobby in earnest.
I ran healthily every day, did pull-ups, and did push-ups… The more I moved like that all day and the more sweaty my clothes were, the less I had a wet dream (personally, I thought it was useless).
After breaking up with Lee Jin-ah, I was able to enter a porn site through rumors, and I could have masturbated, but I didn’t.
Because it’s a nursery school.
It was easy to be ridiculed for doing such a thing in a place where personal privacy did not exist.
And I didn’t really want to see anything like that. So it seemed that I had a life that was not related to s*x in my youth.
I tried to sleep after eating, but I couldn’t sleep.
At first, I tried to sleep on the floor of the study, but the floor there was hard and there was nothing to cut my head against.
It didn’t take long for me to realize that sleeping in a place without even something to cover like a blanket entails bigger difficulties than I thought.
So I went back to the living room and this time I lay down on the sofa and got ready to go to sleep.
The sofa has no armrests in the middle and is long on both sides, so I could sleep with my legs stretched out.
It was a little uncomfortable with my head cut at the end, but I thought I could sleep enough if I wanted to.
The only downside was that there was no blanket, but since it was so warm, I didn’t feel the need to cover anything.
“…Ah…”
…The door to the room was still closed. Did you act too hard on Lee Jin-ah earlier?
I felt a little sorry and felt sorry for touching the beehive, but I don’t know.
There is no going back now.
But… I felt that if I didn’t do this at least, Lee Jin-ah would keep confining me here, and I also thought that I wouldn’t be able to rebel against such a problem and would continue to adapt and live like this.
It’s different from when I was in high school, but even now I was still being swayed by Lee Jin-ah.
I don’t want to use violence.
This is what I have felt in my life so far.
This house is completely closed except for the ventilation fan, and there is nothing that could threaten me.
Also, Lee Jin-ah was much smaller than me.
I could make Lee Jin-ah like tteokgalbi with one hand, but Lee Jin-ah did not directly harm me.
In addition to that, I hope you will keep the promise you made.
-Um…
It’s a night with a lot of thoughts.
I could feel the guilt running up my spine.
When I think of Lee Jin-ah, I naturally think of Lee Jin-ah.
I remembered first her light brown hair down to her waist, then light brown eyes, tired looking eyes. Pale complexion.
And I was able to get the feeling that I was skinny because of my well-gathered appearance, height in my 150s, and light weight of less than 50kg.
“…Ah…”
She lifted her head slightly to check my leg.
I thought I didn’t have this kind of taste. It was uncomfortable because there was blood on the bottom. Although Jina Lee is pretty. As a member of the opposite s*x, she did not find her attractive.
It’s not that she annoys me or that a lot of bad things happened to her when she was young, and that trauma doesn’t make her attractive.
Of course, there must be a reason for that, but personally, when I look at a girl, that… She’s tall like Yu-Jung… She has a good volume, and… She likes a woman like that. Certainly, Lee Jin-ah was lacking in that part.
-Koo-wook….
Pinched the inside leg. I was in pain and tears came out.
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I still feel like this situation I’m in is not real, it’s like a dream.
Like in a movie, the chase, Chairman Mirae interviews me, and I’m kidnapped and locked up in a room like this is like a midsummer night’s dream, but when I pinch it painfully enough to bruise, I realize again that this is a reality that I will never wake up from. I realized once.
…I miss Yoojung.
If it was originally the same, by now I should have been sleeping over at her house.
…. I think life here is more comfortable than I thought.
If I really feel like I’m going to die, I can’t think of anything about s*xual desire, I just want to sleep, eat, and rest. It’s because people don’t roll that much here.
Looks like you’re very hungry. It’s not about eating less or eating more. In terms of desire, I was experiencing severe thirst and hunger.
Blinking eyes and not conscious of breathing. I was in a similar situation, as if it bothered me when I suddenly thought of such a thing. To be honest, it piled up.
Kang Yoo-seon in her adolescence seems to have lived a more healthy life than anyone else.
He doesn’t live like a monkey in heat, he speaks with his mouth, but he studies and works out every day.
As I became an adult, things seem to have changed a bit.
They lived together, and… And that’s why a woman’s body felt so good.
Because I found out about that.
…I don’t know if it’s because the desire I’ve been suppressing until now has been released all at once.
I want to do it when I turn around.
If you have enough strength to lift a spoon, it keeps sticking to you.
At that time, Yoojung accepted me well.
When you vomit your cravings several times a day and fall asleep exhausted. Stand up again and do it.
I used to do that… To the point that the big box sold at the pharmacy would be gone in a week.
…I can’t do that here.
Will I be able to sleep tonight..?
I’m not stupid enough to drink seawater from the open sea just because I’m thirsty.
To be honest, no matter how hungry I was, I didn’t want to run at anyone like a monkey in heat.
The moment you touch Lee Jin-ah, it’s like having your nose pierced.
You know what happens when two grown adults stay in the same room.
And… This is my personal opinion, but I never thought that she would only have pure intentions when it came to Jinah Lee clinging to and hugging me.
Maybe she wants something from me too?
…
She thought she was fine now, but she seems to still have some energy left.
Since I was lying on the sofa doing nothing, I yawned, my eyes were tired… I started falling asleep.
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How many times did you cry…? It’s funny, but I was hungry. Come to think of it, I didn’t even eat earlier… Pangpang- I felt calm after pouring out my tears.
I don’t know anymore. Should I give up…?
If we stay like this, we keep hurting each other, and it’s only hard for me…
I thought the current situation was like the last supper of a condemned prisoner.
I don’t have any regrets about life.
I just wish I had the opportunity to apologize to Yoo Seon for all the wrongs I’ve done up until now, and to be forgiven.
If you think about it, we ate, walked, and took a bath together. …I want to be with you a little… A little longer… But Yoo Seon already doesn’t need my help. It’s starting to show that you’re deliberately keeping away from me.
… Just like the saying to leave when clapping hands, wouldn’t it be possible to get a better evaluation from Yoo Seon if I release it now..?
…I miss Yu Seon.
I was thirsty… I opened the door and went to the living room.
Yoo Seon is lying on the sofa. The light in the living room was off, but the moonlight shining through the window was shining on Yoo Seon.
-Smoothly.
I’m sleeping.
It’s a king size, so it’s enough for two people to sleep together.
It hurt my heart to see him sleeping with his head on the armrest of the sofa without a blanket.
…Looks exhausted, and also… Looks tired.
It hurts my heart to think that you are going through such hardships because of me.
…I don’t think I’ll be able to do it unless I release it soon.
…If you leave this house, Yoo Seon-yi will go back into her arms..?
That… I hate that… Yoo Seon is having such a hard time… He looks exhausted… I don’t think I can be of any help…
-Smoothly…
I looked at Yoo Seon who was sleeping soundly.
I put my palm in front of wired teeth for no reason, I checked to see if they were breathing properly… I even touched slightly parted lips with my fingers… Actions I would never have done normally.
Because Yoo Seon is sleeping now. I always did this a lot when Yoo Seon was sleeping.
Touch her lips, kiss her – stroke her hair, rub her face against her chest. …Although I know this is wrong.
But… I feel good and happy when I do this.
It’s strange to actually do what she’s been picturing in her head while working it out with her own hands.
…At first I was afraid that I would wake up… But since Yu Seon didn’t wake up well… I couldn’t help but become bolder as the days went by. …That… I did it by hand the other day, but it didn’t break…
I thought of something I could do to help Yoo Seon. No matter how much I think about it, I don’t think there is anything other than this.
Really… Right now, the only thing I can do… Yoo Seon seems to be having a hard time too, but during this short time we’ll be together… I also want to build at least one more memory.
So… I started pulling down Yu’s pants once again…