40 – Parents
1)
-Ah… Dad…
-Yoo Seon-ah, I am the director, not the father..!
-Then where is my dad…??
-Yoo Seon-ah. That…
I couldn’t remember what kind of expression the director was making. It’s too old.
Kneeling down, the director made eye contact with me, and he hugged me tightly.
-Yoo Seon-ah. Obviously, Yoo Seon’s father works hard..! For Yoo Seon-yi to eat well, study hard, and grow up to be a strong child without crying.
I will always be praying for Yoo Seon in my heart..! So, Yoo Seon-ah..! Until then, don’t be discouraged and work hard and grow well…?!
2)
“I’m not interested. That bastard”
They called and screamed all day and ran around all over the place.
“Yoo…Yoo Seon-ah”
“I don’t need it, I’ve never had someone like my father”
Pull the blanket over your head. To me, my father is like Santa Claus.
He said Santa would come if he did good deeds every day and didn’t cry.
Ogi is a piece of sh*t. I’ve never seen Santa before. And something like Santa Claus is a tactic of a bad company. That’s disgusting.
To grow up bright every day, not to frown, not to fight with friends, not to eat unbalanced, to go to bed early and to wake up early, to eat evenly and not to be unbalanced.
At some point, I stopped believing that my mom and her dad would pick me up after doing that.
It’s just that if I get into trouble, it’s hard for the director to manage me. While bringing up the story of my parents, he must have told me to please stay calm.
The director is a good person, but he is completely disqualified as an educator. Because he gave the child false hopes.
…Coming to think of it, I don’t think the director ever said to me that my mom and dad would come as substitutes. It’s just that I misunderstood myself.
“..That… But… He’s a father, aren’t you curious…?”
“……”
Actually, I’m curious.
What are you doing?
How could I have lived my life and left me at the front door of the orphanage when I couldn’t even walk yet?
Is he alive, is he living well now after abandoning his newborn baby in this way?
I hit a person like that. Does he have a decent job… Maybe he has a brother or sister besides me?
There are too many families like the big families in Heungbu and Nolbu, so they can’t even feed me.
Actually. When I meet that person, there are many things I want to ask. Actually. Okay. From elementary school until now, when I go on outings at the nursery school, I see a lot of things I have to see even if I don’t want to see them.
Children holding the hands of their mother and father and making bright faces. I fell behind Things you won’t experience when you wake up.
Me too… I went to the amusement park with my dad and rode a viking, went to the zoo and saw lions, went to the supermarket on the way home and ate ice cream,
I want to pass the time by lying in the living room without doing anything all day and watching flake clouds floating in the sky.
I have to study even if I don’t want to tell my mom and dad. How did you become a high school student and still haven’t grown up?
My mother’s friend’s son already buys carnations for her mother and handkerchiefs at the department store.
When will you grow up? I can’t live because of you
I heard you hit Taeyang again…? Stop bullying the kids It might sound like nagging to some people.
I am interested in that. I want to receive each one, but I can’t.
At night when it rains, I want to go to my mom and dad’s room and act like a child, and when I get sick, my mom stays by my side to take care of me.
A dream that I have longed for and longed for, but can never come true.
-Yoo Seon-ah. It’s late, but too late… I missed you.
-Mom, Dad, I missed you too.
I thought that if I grew up strong and happy without crying, my mom and dad would come.
So… I really put in a lot of effort.
My parents come to pick me up from this nursery school, and I’m about to get beaten up by other kids, and I’m such a dumbass who doesn’t know how to do anything… How I’d be disappointed..!
So I worked hard.
Some strange lady wants to live with me because she thinks I’m cute..? Even if she said that, she said I didn’t like it, and she said I didn’t like it even if a nice tall gray-haired man asked me to live with him.
Because I want to live with my mom and dad. I don’t want anything. I just need mom and dad.
I want to grow up to be normal like the other children, but happy. Mom and dad…
“They’re wormy bastards. I don’t need them.”
“…Are you crying, Seon Yoo?”
“Don’t cry”
Why am I crying…? Wash your face dry with the palm of your hand. I am so tired from lying in bed. My palms are a little damp.
Where in the world are such good mothers and fathers? If you are such a good person There’s no way I’d be in an orphanage. Probably not, obviously. It must be rotten garbage.
They are idiots who can’t even feed a newborn baby properly.
Yes, men must drink and drink, and women must cheat. Yeah… They’re obviously pathetic and lacking people who are only that much.
I’m sure they’re people who can’t afford to bring me from the nursery school.
“What, do you want me to go find you…?”
“No… Yoo Seon-ah, I just…”
“Then, let’s go. Let’s get dressed and go outside.”
“…Ugh”
Dad, I don’t want to see you..? You didn’t say this to get me out of bed..?
Rather, when I came out like this, Lee Jin-ah’s expression was trembling. I feel like I’ve eaten something new.
“Hey Yoo Seon-ah… It’s a little late today. Can’t we go tomorrow…? No no… I’ll go today… Let’s go today.
Because it’s on an empty stomach.. Porridge.
Whether it’s today or tomorrow, I don’t really care.
After looking out the window for a while, I don’t know how many days it is today, how long I’ve been lying in this bed, or how the time has passed.
Her head is blank, and she staggers to the kitchen to find white porridge. She scooped it up with a spoon.
The taste is bland.
“Do you want more?”
Jinah Lee took her white porridge from her pot and put it on my plate. I took it all.
You have to eat hard. Eat a lot to stay energized. I want to see it with my own eyes.
How deficient and pathetic humans are. I’m sure my stomach was rumbling, my teeth were yellow and it smelled like alcohol.
At least, he must be a scum who ignores those who are weaker than himself and speaks words that are difficult to say to the weak without hesitation.
So, to see such a pitiful sight. Push the white porridge into your mouth.
3)
I woke up early today. Looking at the side of the bed, the futons were neatly arranged.
“…Yoo Seon-ah, you woke up early..?”
Did I just take a bath? Lee Jin-ah’s brown hair was wet.
“…Move away, I’ll wash too”
I don’t know if I can wash it in a few days. In fact, I’m not even sure how much time has passed since her suicide attempt.
I grab her towel and go into the bathroom. As soon as she opened the bathroom door, the scent of peaches filled her. Got in my nose Because Lee Jin-ah was in here until just before.
Turn on her shower head and wash her body. Every inch of her washes her hair, lathers her body, brushes her teeth, and cleanses her face.
After taking her bath, she looks in the bathroom mirror. Before I knew it, my hair grew a lot. I also lost a little weight.
She puts on her underwear and puts on a gown. Then she went back into the room.
There was no Lee Jin-ah. She’s probably going to her room and getting ready to go outside.
She wears clothes to go out. She is full of clothes she has never seen before. The vinyl is also torn, and this time the tags are all cut.
I pick up almost any clothes and wear them. She goes outside, because she can’t go naked.
“Wow…”
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Wearing her clothes and going out to visit. Lee Jin-ah was waiting. Her clothes are thin
By the way, it’s been a while since I’ve seen Lee Jin-ah smile.
“Hey, Yoo Seon-ah…”
Lee Jin-ah sticks close to me, and she trims the way I dress. Sweet. Her scent of peaches hooks up.
“Ah!”
Did I forget something…?
“Hey, Yoo Seon-ah. Wait a minute. Wait a minute.”
She goes back to her room. Cudangtang- I hear a sound, and after a while, Lee Jin-ah comes out.
Her clothes have changed. A white karati, and a pink tennis hippo that goes down to her thighs.
“Doesn’t it look good?”
-Heehee
She laughs again.
Did you match the concept of her clothes ..?
Since I’m wearing bright cotton pants and a karati that’s easy to move in, it seems like Lee Jin-ah also has a lively concept in her outfit.
It’s pretty plausible. Who would see her as a couple?
“…Then Yoo Seonah, shall we go?”
She nods slightly. The door opens. Dazzle in the sun her skin is hot In a little while, it’s summer.
“Yoo Seon-ah, you gave me a ride to the station!”
“To the station…?”
Is it really necessary to go to the station by car? If it’s Lee Jin-ah, isn’t she just going all the way in a car?
“Hey, I want to go alone… I… So that’s…”
“Do it yourself”
Whatever it is, it just doesn’t matter. There is a saying that if you go to that moro garden, road garden, Seoul, you are good.
Take a car driven by a driver and go to the train station. I can see the electronic display board of the train station in the distance. Time is out.
Today is a weekday. …What about school? For a moment, I thought about it. Now, I don’t think it’s that important.
I haven’t been out in a while, but it’s about missing another day.
“Yoo Seon-ah, wait here for a while. I’ll pick up the train ticket for you.”
As soon as I got out of the car and entered the station, Lee Jin-ah ran to the ticket counter far away and started buying train tickets.