48 – A Girl’s Only Friend-complete
I like the air.
Because air can try again and again even if it fails, and even if I make a mistake in the previous round, it doesn’t have a big impact on the result of this round.
Every time, a new game. Air is my favorite because it gives me a fresh start.
It would be nice if a person’s life could have a new start every time like air, but unfortunately, I think life is like sewing.
If I can’t sew well at first, then I can’t fix it and it’s just a mess – and later I throw away what I’ve been doing and do something new.
You can do as many new needles as you like, but you can’t do that in life. Even me, my grandfather, and Yoo Seon-i, because people only have one life.
…I’m not sure where it went wrong.
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Did Yoo Seon hate me from the moment I forced Yoo Seon to go to Meister High School?
Or did I just think that I wouldn’t have money for the school trip and hurt Yoo Seon-i by being useless?
I just… I just don’t know.
Maybe when he entered Mirae High School, he was very angry that the strange sportsman said something to Yoo Seon-yi, and it could have given him fear that he took revenge instead…
To be honest, there were a lot of things I did wrong with Yoo Seon-i to be able to point out one thing and say that this is the cause.
Since entering Mirae High School, Yoo Seon-i has been getting more and more dry as time goes by.
Obviously, when I was preparing to go to Meister High School, I looked very bright.
The more I went, the more I couldn’t speak, and the less I acted… I felt that they were distant from me.
To be honest, when I talked to Yoo Seon before entering Mirae High School, I felt sorry for him at that time.
I made another mistake. Again – You inflicted a great wound on Yoo Seon-i. But I couldn’t help it.
I like Yoo Seon-i, but I want to get closer to him and get closer to him… But I wanted to hold on to Yoo Seon-i who keeps getting further away from me.
In my head, I knew something was wrong. Still, I couldn’t stop.
From then on, as if I was possessed by something… I kept obsessing over Yoo Seon-i, harassing her and making her unable to do anything. Poking with a fork, calling people to beat them, subduing them, burning valuables.
…….Yoo Seon said we can’t be close friends.
At the time Yoo Seon said that, I was already out of my mind.
Ah… If you can’t get along with Yoo Seon, you have to force her to stick with you.
I don’t know why… I thought that, but I just… I thought that if I didn’t do that, Yoo Seon would leave me forever…
I bought a house near the school, locked Yoo Seon in there, and kept hanging around with him all the time. I used Yoo Seon’s precious things that were still left as hostages to get what I wanted. ….
Just like the girls whose names I don’t know did in the past, the wired air blows into my ears, rides on my thighs, puts on my hands, sniffs them in my arms… And wears matching pajamas for a couple. , We ate together and did everything we could.
Honestly… To be honest, I was happy.
First of all… I could see that Yoo Seon-i’s inner side was slowly shattering… But still, I was able to do the things I wanted to do right now.
Yoo Seon’s inner side is devastated… But I still feel happy while doing what I want.
It’s really nice to be alive. Because I found out how good it is to be with someone you love.
…From now on…In the future, at university, at work, and until my black hair turns gray… I wanted to live like this.
I called Yoo Seon in his room, but there was no news.
You should listen to me unconditionally, but why not…? I need to give Yoo Seon a sharp education on this point.
While thinking that in my head, I opened Yoo Seon-i’s door.
-Kukkuk…
In the room, I saw Yoo Seon-i dying as a group by hanging herself.
I was surprised, I couldn’t think of anything.
How to cut off the rope strangling Yoo Seon.
I got on top of the boat and gave artificial respiration… I was relieved as I watched Yoo Seon-i slowly open her eyes.
I’m glad I didn’t die.
Thank you for being alive.
Obviously… I was planning to stab Yoo Seon-i in the room with a cane, but that thought has already melted away.
And then, I thought about how much I bullied and bullied Yoo Seon.
Wired said I did something wrong and he didn’t hit me or anything.
I didn’t unconditionally assert myself, but I didn’t break or burn my stuff because I didn’t use the stuff he gave me, and- I didn’t slap the back of my hand with a fork for no reason, and I used my friends around me. Didn’t even bother me.
…Yoo Seon never did that to me. Wait a minute, I wonder what’s going on with my mind.
At first, it was just… I was happy to walk around holding hands together, and reading books in the library. I could have been satisfied just taking a nap together while basking in the warm sunlight.
I only wanted to go back to my elementary school days, but after I got the power that no one can stop, I think my head went crazy for a while.
What is this… It only hurts Yoo Seon-i… This is why the snarky Jin-ah of the past is more helpful to Yoo Seon-i.
Because, at least at that time, there was no such thing as Jin-a pushing Yoo Seon-yi to the point where she made a happy smile, and also made an extreme choice like suicide.
What is Mirae Group and what is chaebol..? I can’t make one precious person happy…
I want to go back to that time. I want to go back to the old days. A big house like this, a spacious house, expensive luxury goods and a car – I don’t need any of that.
It’s just… I’ve never been envious of anything in the world as long as I had Yoo Seon from the old days… It sounds funny, but having so many things, I didn’t get Yoo Seon. Could have
Now… I don’t know… I don’t know. Even if I threw away everything I had right now, I wasn’t sure if Yoo Seon-yi would look back at me again.
I lost Yoo Seon-i because of the things I had, but paradoxically, that also became the strength to hold Yoo Seon-i by my side.
“…Do you know about my father…?”
Every time I see Yoo Seon-i getting thinner as the day goes by. I became impatient.
Because Yoo Seon doesn’t react to everything I do anymore, and he didn’t do anything. If I’m not by your side, Yu Seon might die. So, I need to stay by your side…
Then Yoo Seon-i doesn’t eat or drink anything… He’s just lying on the bed… I felt like my heart would break every time I saw him.
Since I gave a lot of indelible scars, Yoo Seon-i didn’t talk to me at all.
I’m sorry. Sorry. I’m sorry… I’m really sorry.
I’d rather you kill me. It would be nice if you did the same to me as you did before…
I wish I could give him a chance to atone for his sins by his side… Because Yoo Seon-i was quietly drying up… He was just dying without doing anything… I didn’t have time to watch him.
From now on, I have to find things that are precious to Yoo Seon-i and give them back to him… I felt like Yoo Seon-i would come back to life.
And from then on, I kept making mistakes. Sorry. If I apologize, wouldn’t there be an opportunity to atone for the sins I’ve committed so far?
I was looking forward to it… But my expectations were shattered.
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“…Yoo Seon likes me disappearing..?”
“Oh. I hope you don’t appear in front of me again.
Since there are karma I’ve done so far, this is natural- I think about it, but when I hear these words from Yoo Seon’s mouth, my heart feels torn.
Obviously, in the past, stories that were fun enough to make me fall asleep at night, ghost stories that were so scary that I couldn’t even go to the bathroom alone, words that always gave me courage, and trivial but unforgettable happiness came out of my mouth.
Now it feels like every word cuts through my chest with a knife. This wasn’t what I wanted…
I didn’t want this at first.
In a relationship now, a more intimate relationship. I want to clasp your hands, I want to hug you from behind, and I want to stop other girls from taking notice of you…
So I decorated it splendidly, and I didn’t want to get away from Yoo Seon…
So I brought her to the high school in the future… I wanted to share this moment with me… Buying her clothes and paying for school trip expenses… All of the choices I made turned into failures.
I like Yoo Seon the most. My love for Yoo Seon is second to none, but… The choices I make always make her feel bad, and to make up for that, I do bigger things- and Yoo Seon hates and hates me more. And – get annoyed…
Get on her knees, please don’t go.
I can’t be without you.
I’m going to die.
You will bite your tongue and die.
I love you. Love you. Love you.
I like it. I like you.
So give me one more chance…
I was wrong.
I won’t do that again.
From now on, it’s okay for Yoo Seon to do whatever he wants to do.
Please don’t push me away.
It’s okay to hit me, it’s okay to bully me…
Please…
Please…
I can’t be without you…
…But that’s not what Yoo Seon wants from me…..
Because Seon Yoo wants me to disappear from this world.
Just because she knelt down and reflected, I never thought that Yu Seon would like and love me again.
He still hates me, he hates me- I’ve come too far to go back to things that didn’t exist.
So… I… I… But I… In the end, as Yoo Seon-i wanted-
Yeah… Until now, Yu Seon has always moved me to the things I wanted to do…
So this time, will you let Yoo Sun do what he wants to do?
Ever since I was little, Yoo Seon hated seeing me crying like an idiot…
Yes.. So I smiled brightly and answered.
“…Yes! Got it! From now on, Yoo Seon will disappear forever in front of you!”
I wanted to remember Yoo Seon’s last appearance with a smile.
I don’t want to hurt Yoo Seon-i anymore, nor do I want to be hated. Yoo Seon-i said that my smile was the prettiest thing in the world since I was little.
So… I want to be remembered as the most beautiful person in Yoo Seon’s last memory… So… I forcibly raised my lips that didn’t lift well and answered brightly.
Forever… Yes… It will be gone forever. Because Yoo Seon is in pain and annoyed every time he sees me…
And I don’t want to stress Yoo Seon.
…Because I am that kind of person to Yoo Seon.
For Yoo Seon-gi, my existence is a big blot in her life.
So… I guess it would be happiness for Yoo Seon to have Yu Seon disappear right in front of my eyes…?
…
But… It was my first time doing something like that.
This was the first time someone else had come up to me and said warm words to me, had fun together, and it was the first time I felt protected from bad friends.
Also- It’s the first time I’ve ever felt that there are things I look forward to every day.
And this is the first time I’ve really liked and loved someone else… And also been jealous.
How much I love Yoo Seon, I really love her. I really don’t think it would be possible without Yu Seon.
I like white teeth that show up every time I smile
And the low-pitched voice is good to hear,
The body temperature that gets warm when you hold it is also good,
I like black hair, and I also like slightly tanned skin.
It’s good to have slightly focused eyes while studying,
The veins exposed during exercise are also good,
I also really like her personality for taking care of and taking care of Jin-ah, who has no prejudice…
I like everything about Yoo Seon.
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I don’t think I’d be able to do it without a wire…
But now I can’t see it.
I can’t see Yoo Seon anymore….
Because I can no longer meet all of the things that helped me to endure my difficult life…
From now on, forever… I’ll disappear. So, lastly… I’m asking you, so please, just one more time…
I want to be embraced by Yoo Seon. I want to hear that I love you, and I want her to hold me tight with her arms…
I’m sorry…
I’m really sorry… I want to shed tears.
I shouldn’t be like this. I had to let Yoo Seon go with a smile on my face, but my body was already running towards Yoo Seon.
– Knocked up!
With a sound, Yoo Seon pushed me down.
“…It’s okay..! I’m fine. Everyone, please don’t worry.”
…It’s okay… It’s okay…! It’s just… I guess my hair got a bit old.
I shouldn’t have expected that kind of thing, but I again- like an idiot, I hurt Yoo Seon-i’s heart again…
I’m ashamed.
And… I was so frustrated with myself… I couldn’t look up.
I couldn’t even look at Yoo Seon-yi’s face, so I immediately lowered her head, turned her feet, and ran out of her funeral home.
It was raining outside the funeral home.
I’m glad it rained heavily.
If it rains like a shot, you won’t hear the whimper…
I’m glad it rained.