49 – Funerals
“Hey! Stir-fry the meat!!!!”
“Ah..! Don’t do it… It hurts… It hurts!!”
“I’m hungry! Quickly stir-fry the meat!! I’m hungry! I’m hungry!!!”
“Okay, I’ll stir-fry it… I’ll stir-fry it… Stop pulling your hair… I’m in pain… It really hurts…!”
I don’t know why elementary school students are so strong.
I’m pulling my hair from the back, but it looks like all of my hair is going to be pulled out.
This never happened when Seon Yoo and I were at the nursery school together.
Ever since Yu Seon-i entered Mirae High School, whenever she sees me, she rushes over to each other, grabs my hair, and… It hurts so much.
It hurts so much. Really. They say they won’t eat it because they’re full if they stir-fry it, but they’re not telling me to stir-fry it because they’re hungry.
I thought maybe he wanted to see me in pain.
You are not allowed to use your cell phone during daytime hours at the nursery school, but there are many kids who secretly watch Mu-Tube on their cell phones unless the director or other teachers are present.
Because I secretly peeked from behind to see what they were looking at. A strange long-haired man wearing sunglasses and a woman who knows how to stir-fry meat at 3 a.M. Is a true wise mother.
She’s watching a video of her saying that, and again-kids, what’s so funny about that. I’m just giggling and rolling around holding my stomach. I think it’s like watching it and following it.
Mutube is the problem. These days, there are many people on the Internet who make money watching videos that don’t sound like that.
Because the more people watch their videos, the more money they can make.
That’s why a lot of more stimulating and sensational videos are created, and again- children watch a lot and copy the same…
-Sniff.
My head still hurts from being caught by them. I feel like I’m going to burst into tears.
…I thought that if all my older brothers left the nursery school, no one would say anything to me. That wasn’t it.
How can you tell the teacher or director that you are being beaten by your younger siblings? Even if you have the courage to say it.
-But… They are younger siblings who are 5 years younger than you.
I’m sure you’ll say that.
…These days, 12-year-olds know everything they know.
That… Seems to be stronger than me.
I’d rather not say anything if you frown and tell me to stir-fry the meat. I want to play hide and seek every day.
I also have to study for the GED, and there are many things I have to do. If I don’t listen to them, they get mad at me again, punch me, grab my hair, and bully me. Membrane…
To be honest, I’m really scared of them. I… I went up to the back mountain to take a walk at night. I just… Saw them get together and smoke on the back mountain.
I’m in elementary school now. I’m only in elementary school, so I’m not sure how I got cigarettes.
Calling the director’s and teacher’s names indiscriminately… Also, he stole money from the kids in the neighborhood. I just heard you say that.
…In the past, it wasn’t like this when Yoo Seon-i was at an orphanage.
Teachers are busy with too much work. I didn’t have the strength to correct the kids just walking out.
That’s why no one will stop you even if you install it recklessly. So more… It seems to be about to go out.
It’s scary that you’re already at an age when you enter puberty when you’re in the upper grades of elementary school.
Hado, they told me to stir-fry the meat, so I opened the refrigerator door to fry the meat in a pot.
-Tada da!
I heard a noise and turned around.
– Wow!
I felt someone hug me from behind.
I looked back… Taeyang was behind me. Brown skin, and… An eerie smile pervading his lips, and the faint smell of cigarettes…
How can this be a boy who will go up to middle school in a little while?
“Sister”
“Uh..? Uh uh… I want you to let this go.”
I want to scream in my heart. I was afraid that I would become a strange person again, so I held back.
This happened to me the other day… I was so shocked that I screamed. Rather, Taeyang was more startled. I ran to the teacher while shedding tears.
I didn’t do anything, but I was so scared that Yu-jeong noona shouted at me! He made me the bad boy… The teacher scolded me that day.
I feel unfair… Even if I tell the teacher that I feel unfair
-Still, I have to endure it because I’m an older sister.
I only heard those words, but nothing changed.
“Why- It wasn’t like this in the past~”
– Bandit.. Bandit.
It’s terrible. Why… Why is he rubbing his thighs against my thighs… It’s like bugs are crawling. Is it just child’s play?
No. How is this child’s play?
Even now, I’m just… Looking at my thighs… My face… And also my… Chest… My butt.
How can this be a prank that an elementary school student would do..? How is this…. That…
“…Will you make the flesh sooner?”
“Okay.. Please.. Please…”
You can’t win by force.
I want to shake it off, but I can’t win… So I have no choice but to get beaten. I’m really going to tell the director.
I can’t live like this anymore. Really… I think something will really happen if we go on like this. Already… There are many other things besides Taeyang doing this to me…
“I’ll be looking forward to it…”
The arms holding me tight loosened, and I walked out the kitchen door again. Also- I could hear them talking strangely among themselves.
“…A cow…”
“It’s a cow, a cow”
“..Hey! What are you looking at me now!”
“Why is this cow’s milk?”
-Silsil
The sun with an eerie smile. The child had a children’s book in his hand.
… A children’s book that is too childish to read for children who are about to enter middle school.
“Hey. You really look at this…”
“Why?”
Taeyang looks at me and smiles. I felt like if I got angry, I would become a strange person again.
Cow… It’s just real, they could just look at a picture of a cow and call it a cow… Of course, I don’t think so.
“…I’ll stir-fry the meat. Please be quiet.”
It’s just… It’s just… I’m so ashamed. Rather, if I react, it’s fun, so I think I’ll play more…
Ignoring it, I go back to the stove and try to fry the meat…
“Look at… And the milk carton.. That’s a big dog”
“…!”
Taeyang’s voice. When I turned my head and looked behind me, I couldn’t even find a trace of where I had already gone…
2)
I’m tired. Daily life that does not change. Rather, the intensity of bullying seems to be getting worse.
Aside from the teachers, I’m the only woman in the nursery school. It’s ambiguous to make a room just for me…
I share a room with the female teachers on duty. No one was on duty today – there was no one in the room but me.
The door handle is locked. No one can come in That… They haven’t entered the room yet. Because you don’t know what that… Person’s job is.
I have to be bothered by the kids all day, and I have to study… I think my hair has grown a bit thick, I have to sort the garbage, and I have to clean the bathroom… I’m exhausted and stretched out…
– Rumbling.
The moment I was about to fall asleep. The doorknob rattles and starts to move.
– Is your sister sleeping?
…The sun is the voice. That… If you’re awake again- please open the door. I thought I was going to say something like that… So I held my breath while holding my mouth shut with the palm of my hand.
It’s just… He’s a little weird. The kids who go to that facility are a bit rough overall, they have a fierce personality. I know that there are many such words.
Among them, Taeyang has an exceptionally… Unique personality… So…
-I see you sleeping. Not funny
Tears are about to come out.
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“…Seonah Yoo…”
This never happened when Seon Yoo was at this nursery school. Yoo Seon-i is strong, she is tall… And she studies hard and does everything she can’t do.
Even Taeyang couldn’t say anything to Yoo Seon.
The reason why Taeyang and other guys like that just went out was because Yu Seon couldn’t do anything in front of him…
At that time, she deserved living in a nursery school… I miss her. I wish Yoo Seon would come back to the nursery school.
So she wants to spend time with me studying at the library, reading books… Going for walks at night, doing fun things on the weekends… But I can’t.
Since Yoo Seon went to a very good school called Mirae High School. So she can’t come to the nursery.
The director said that maybe I could go to college right there and go to a famous private university called Mirae University.
Then, she usually goes out of nursery school after she’s 20. You mean I can’t see Yoo Seon at the nursery school.
“I miss you…”
I need to have Yoo Seon… I need Yoo Seon to protect and prevent bad boys like Taeyang from coming.
It’s only been a few months now, but I miss you so much, and I didn’t expect the vacancy of Yoo Seon to be this big…
Had she known this was going to happen, is she wired? She should have prevented her from entering high school in the future. She should have grabbed her pants crotch as she cried.
That… I’m like an idiot, but Yoo Seon leaves me. They bought me clothes, gave me pocket money… And that wasn’t the case.
I hugged the pillow next to me.
This is the pillow Yoo Seon used to use… Something. That… It’s a childish idea.
When you smell Yoo Seon who has cut himself on the pillow, it feels like Yoo Seon is right next to him. My mind is calm, stable… And I feel like the bad guys won’t touch me
From a certain moment on, it became a habit for Yoo Seon to hug a pillow while sleeping.
What will happen tomorrow? I think I need to get up early in the morning and be somewhere other than the nursery school.
Where would I feel comfortable?
Why… I don’t have a place where I can rest comfortably…
I felt like I was the most unfortunate, pitiful, pitiful person in the world.
-Tuk-tuk.
Someone knocks on the door again. I thought it was the sun, so I tried to ignore it.
“Yoojeong-ah, change your clothes and come out quickly. Something happened to Yoo Seon-i.”
It’s the director’s voice. Yoo Seon-i… What the hell happened to Yoo Seon-i..?
If something happens to Seon Yoo… How will I live in this world from now on…?
I quickly got ready to go out, got ready to go out.