70 – Sleep Out
“Yes, 5 weeks of training for new recruits. However, I am very satisfied with the completion of the training without a single casualty.
I don’t think I’ve ever seen a jockey as sincere and full of comradeship as this jockey while teaching trainees.
Therefore, the instructor made a special suggestion to the director of the training center that he could not go out after the graduation ceremony!
All members of the unit made suggestions to stay out overnight, and the warden also accepted the instructor’s opinion. Detailed schedule information will be spread by teaching assistants, not instructors!”
“As the instructor said, trainees do not go out until 17:00, the day of the graduation ceremony tomorrow, and then return to the unit!
The next day! You can return to the unit by holding this pass in front of the unit by 17:00. – Trainee No. 47, Don’t smirk!”
– Noisily.
But it’s a fact that I learned while serving in the military for a month, but it’s not something that can be stopped just by being quiet.
Because a day in society is a special law, not a day in the military base.
Of course, it has nothing to do with me. Because if you want to go out, you have to go out with someone else, but I didn’t have that kind of person.
So I didn’t feel that good just because I was able to go out for a day.
If everything goes out tomorrow, what am I going to do tomorrow..? No, I did all the completion ceremony, but I don’t think I’m going to do basic bottle training or something…
I didn’t want to march with heavy military gear on my back anymore. But I think it would be better to do physical training separately than I thought…
Life in the military was much more comfortable than I thought.
Originally, they say being isolated from society is the biggest pain when enlisting, but I don’t do social media, and I don’t drink or smoke well- I’ve never been to entertainment, and I don’t play games very much.
I was able to put up with it more than I thought, probably because I didn’t enjoy doing anything else.
Even when I was in society, I lived a regular life. I would get up early in the morning, go to the center to work, and after work, I would go to a nearby park for a short run after eating, or I would do casts and iron bars.
There was nothing different from the military.
So, I like the military. Because, they feed me, put me to bed, and clothe me- that’s why. You don’t have to worry when you’re here.
2)
The weather was nice today.
Finally, the graduation ceremony ended with a salute to the parents (of course… I didn’t have any parents to salute), and each of them met the people who sent the invitations and had such a time.
I was standing alone in the midst of the rushing crowd.
Invitation. I thought about whether or not I should send an invitation to attend the Shinkyo University graduation ceremony to Yu-jeong.
Yoojeong is right. I’m just a selfish bastard No matter how much I think about it, I’m such a pathetic bastard who only knows me, but I try to solve everything by myself, decide, judge, and think again… I hurt others like that.
Again – now that I’m needed – I didn’t have the confidence to ask Yu-jeong to come to Gangneung again.
A fool, an asshole, a peck, an idiot.
Actually, military life is not fun.
It was already the worst since Shinkyo University.
The food that was like garbage, the seat next to me smelled bad, and I couldn’t even sleep properly because I snored so badly every time I slept.
Also… I have to take a shower in 10 minutes, and I can’t go for a walk at night. Besides, I can’t even see Yoo-jung.
I am someone who has never known that I am lonely.
I am a person who can live well even if I am separated from others. I guess that’s what I was thinking…
Because I really thought I had been living like that until now. But it wasn’t true.
No one can do everything alone.
There comes a moment when everyone relies on others and leans on them. As I came to the army, and received help from various motives,
At that time, I realized how much help the director was to me and what a good person Yu-Jung was.
It’s dangerous to be with me. It shouldn’t have been like that.
At the very least, you shouldn’t have hurt Yoojung’s heart, and at the end – be honest. Whether it’s a problem that Yoo-jung can solve or not- I should have told you about the things I’ve been through so far.
I don’t want to make you worry, I don’t want to burden your heart, so I grit my teeth and go round and round – I don’t even think about revealing all the secrets I’ve hidden inside me, as if it were a shrine.
In the end… I regretted hurting Yoo-jung.
Honestly, I regret it. It was only a month ago, but I think I was too immature.
What’s so serious… It’s true, though.
That’s why these four months happened because I hid it and hid it. You can do it alone. You can solve it by yourself.
If you think like that, you should show it with your actions.
I live with Yoo-jung every day, and I can’t eat the food Yoo-jeong cooks or buy clothes by myself… A kid who can’t do anything by himself suddenly pretends to be an adult. .
“…”
I miss Yoojung. I want to see him sleeping in my arms and talking chattering all the time in the seat next to the bus.
And… I want to eat together and go for a walk. I just miss you… I wish I knew I would regret it like this. …I should have sent a letter to the graduation ceremony.
I’m like an idiot again… If I do something I’ll regret again…
“…Seonah Yoo!”
A familiar voice. I wonder if there is someone with the same name, so I look around…!
At least in my platoon, there was no one other than me who used the name Yoo Seon.
Besides, I’m already hanging out with people like my parents and friends around me…?
“Kang Yu-seon!”
-Tada da da da da!
Yoojeong was running towards me. But how did Yoo-jung come all the way here?
“Trainee. This assistant asked if there was anyone on the emergency contact network who could come to the trainee’s graduation ceremony instead.”
“- Mr….”
“If the people listed in the emergency contact list do not come to the graduation ceremony, then they are gathered separately, and the assistant cooks the meat and goes out overnight. Thankfully, that did not happen.”
“…Kang Yu-seon…!”
Yoojeong jumped into my arms.
And then she hit my chest and arms with her fists, and I was very happy, thankful, and sorry for her unexpected appearance, so I thought it wouldn’t hurt.
“Ah… It hurts… Stop hitting me”
“..You should be right! Selfish bastard..! Bad bastard!!! Seriously… I’m only going to see you this once..!!!!!!
I really wasn’t going to go, but that guy in the red hat over there calls and keeps asking me. Are you not going to the graduation ceremony? Really- you can’t do anything without me, as long as your pride is alive…”
“..Ah…Mr..”
“Mister..! Did our Yu Seon work hard during his military life?”
“Ah. Recruit Kang Yoo-seon usually takes good care of other comrades, has good stamina- especially received high marks in shooting.
So I was able to receive a good evaluation in the unit member evaluation, and the training performance was good, so this time the division commander was able to receive a reward vacation of 6 nights and 7 days and a certificate of exemplary soldier.
And this is sadam, but I would like you to use the honorific title of teaching assistant rather than the false title of uncle.”
I think he got a little angry when he heard that he was an assistant teacher.
That’s right, he just enlisted in the army a few months earlier than I did. When I was in my early 20s, I wondered who would like to hear the voice of the uncle… Especially, hearing the voice of the uncle from a girl my own age was a little shocking.
-Baduk…
I could see the teaching assistant biting his molars lightly.
“…Hey, Assistant. Thank you.”
When I had to send an invitation – I really thought about it a lot.
Should I send this to Yujeong and the director or not? I kept thinking about it for days and days alone and didn’t spend it – I regretted it so much when it was time for the graduation ceremony to end.
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I regretted it all by myself, and I almost choked on it. Thank you very much for being so considerate.
I am very grateful to my assistant for doing something I couldn’t even try. I shed a little tear.
“….Trainee! We don’t have time to be here right now! Hurry up! Get out of the guardhouse and enjoy a sleepover with your girlfriend! Do it!”
Is there anything wrong with staying out just now? I thought that to myself.
But now that I’m out all night, I understand. What I just thought was that those grapes must be grapes that we can’t eat – must be sour grapes. It’s just that level of thinking.
Just… Just stepping out of the guardhouse makes my heart pound so fast, I’m very grateful, moved, and really happy that there’s someone like that who can come out with me and do something for me…
“My mouth is about to tear. Hurry up and get a taxi!”
The corners of his lips, which had risen high into the sky, did not think of going down.