69 – Army
Watching Yoo Seon, who said I told her to leave, taking clothes out of the closet and putting them in her bag one by one, made me feel frustrated beyond words.
I ran out of the house and just ran here and there because my head would go crazy if I kept watching this.
I don’t even know the destination, I just go where I can see it. I just kept running like an unbridled colt here and there for as long as my heart could take, as far as Bill could get.
– Panting…
Then I kept running until I was really out of breath and it was so hard that I couldn’t even run. Then I stopped my legs and looked around.
Unfamiliar streets. Unfamiliar scenery. It’s still summer, so it’s hot even when I’m still, but after running – my head felt spinning – so I wanted to take a break.
I saw a park nearby, so I sat on a bench and quietly enjoyed the scenery.
I saw people who came to the park to play for a while to avoid the tropical nights.
Seeing the faces of those people smiling harmoniously, the emotions that had just bubbling deep in my heart faded a little, and I returned home just as I started to get annoyed at the buzzing insects clinging to my skin.
The sun was hanging in the sky when I ran out of the house. When I arrived at the house, there was a white moon hanging in the middle of the black sky.
-Stumble.
“……”
There was no one in the house.
The closets and drawers were neatly organized. Yeah… I was told to leave, so I left.
I fought like that – I kept telling you to get out, but if you still stay, that’s kind of funny in its own way.
“Ah!!!! I don’t know!!!!”
I told you I’ll help you – you can rely on me…! This is also sick If there is a disease that dies if someone else is burdened by it, there is no doubt that Yoo Seon-i is a stage 4 patient.
…Honestly, I thought I would reflect. Sorry. Wrong. I guess I said it wrong. Can’t you forgive me just once?
What is this even if it’s not enough to say that..? Pack your bags and go outside!
I didn’t do anything wrong! I’m not mistaken! I just want to help! What’s this..? Selfish bastard.
Kang Yoo-seon is a selfish bastard who only knows herself! A bastard who knows nothing about other people’s hearts!
“I don’t know, whether it’s getting shot in the army or getting hurt after being captured and dragged away…! What does that have to do with me!!!!!!”
Let it be whatever it is..! Even if you want to come back crying, I will never let you into my house!
My house is not even a subway station, so if you want to go in, go in, if you don’t want to go in, don’t go in.
Kang Yoo-seon has always been like that. Alone, she ran out of the nursery and swooped away somewhere else. And when she’s having a hard time, she swishes back and comes in.
Because Kang Yu-sun never tells me what happened there, and always does what she wants to do every day.
I never thought to understand the feelings of the other person watching it.
“…Cee…. Really… When it comes, it’s dead”
I’m going to hit you. I will seriously hit you. Yoo Seon-i was full.
Even though she lives like this, the director and I are always watching and worrying about her, so she doesn’t know how scary the world is and just wanders around alone.
You have to go to the army once and be shattered. How to live in harmony with others, and how to confide in others about their troubles and depend on them.
How to communicate with people. Have to learn that Yes… Yoo Seon-i has to go to the army and go through some hardships. You bastard – how could you say that to me..! Bad guy..! Bad boy..! I hate it… I really hate it!!
Whether or not Yoo Seon suffers, I will go my own way now. They told me to solve my parents debt problem by myself, and also to decide where to eat and sleep by myself.
Yes.. Yes. Well, because Yu Seon is really a doctor who can do anything by himself- Yes. I know how to make a living and live well.
I won’t care what Yoo Seon does! I won’t mind…… !
My body is covered with sweat from running in the middle of summer. He wanted to wash up a bit, so he went into the bathroom and turned on the water to take a shower.
“…Originally… That… Was it this cold…?”
He turned on the cold water, but was surprised when the water came out like ice water. Seriously… How do you wash in the winter when the cold water comes out in the middle of the summer..? I’m thinking like that…
When I was with Seon Yoo, I just went into the cold water with her… And it was okay to wash it…
…Wired. I do not need. Even without Yu Seon, I lived well by myself.
After biting my teeth and taking a cold shower, I was hungry and was about to eat, but there was fried rice in the pot.
…Come to think of it, he proudly told me that he had a meal today. I hadn’t eaten anything so far, so I was hungry, so I ate a spoonful. It was delicious.
“…Cee…”
Why is this so delicious? If it really didn’t taste good, I was going to throw it all away and prepare a new dinner…
The vegetables and ham were well-sliced, and the rice was well-fried.
He helped me prepare dinner several times. My cooking skills have improved so much that I can cook delicious meals like this, so I think I can live well even if I live alone.
“…A selfish bastard…”
I hate Yoo Seon. I hate you so much. Concentrate well, be nice, and there’s nothing I can’t do. He listens to what others need, but doesn’t tell others what he needs, grunts and holds on to himself, and tries to solve everything himself.
Yoo Seon is really trash. He’s the kind of trash that only knows himself. Foolish, pathetic bastard. Idiot, such an asshole… Bad asshole…
“Ah! I don’t know! I’ll take care of myself!”
Such a selfish guy who can’t even understand other people’s feelings should rot in the army.
He thinks he’s good on his own. He thinks he’s the smartest and most pitiful man in the world.
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I’m annoyed. It’s so annoying. Eating is annoying, and washing is also annoying. I lay down to sleep again, but the warmth of the wire still seems to linger on the futon, which is annoying!
I don’t want to bother. I don’t want to understand! I don’t want to remember, I don’t want to be reminded! Just! I am very, very ashamed that I liked and loved such a stupid and pathetic boy!
“…. Bad baby …”
2)
– Welcome to the active duty soldiers!
I was told to leave the house, so I left. Pack everything you can fit in a bag. After that, I got out of the car on any train that left the fastest for Chuncheon.
After that, I just go to any inn and eat and sleep there. If I’m bored, I watch TV… I eat snacks again and sleep.
Then, on Sunday, go to a nearby hair salon and get his hair shaved. When I said that, he shook his head without saying anything.
To be honest, I don’t know. I am enlisting in the army in 24 hours. It didn’t feel real.
Looking at his hair shaved short enough to show his scalp. Did I really do well..? Is this really correct..? I’ve thought about it dozens or hundreds of times.
… Everything that happened with Mirae Foundation, Mirae Capital, Mirae Group, Mirae High School, and Lee Jin-ah.
Is there anything that Yoo-jung can solve by telling Yoo-jeong about it..?
He said he would be of help, he said he would help.
To be honest, Mirae Group is too scary for Yoo-jung to be of help- so I had no choice but to deliberately push her away.
I was so scared. Did Lee Jin-ah really back down that day? Even when she was in nursery school, she seemed to be interested in where I was and what I was doing, periodically coming from the Future Foundation.
Again- After coming out into society, Future Capital sends people to do what I do. It’s like he’s trying to figure that out and put a leash around my neck.
I couldn’t stand it. First of all, no one is hurt right now, but one day Lee Jin-ah’s touch will be Yu-jeong-na’s director.
And because I’m going crazy with other people I like, she pretended to be okay on the outside, but in her heart she was always insecure.
When I was in high school in the future, several people were hurt and suffered because of the sin of being involved with me. I don’t want to see other people suffer because of Lee Jin-ah.
Now that several years have passed since I got away from Lee Jin-ah, I haven’t been hit, beaten, beaten, or threatened, but I still can’t let go of her carelessness.
Because something happened to me. That you have debts to pay off at Future Capital. I just listened to that fact – already my heart sank and sat down.
Lee Jin-ah is trying to torture me again. Her heart thumped for a while at the thought. It has been several months since she received word from Mirae Capital regarding her debt repayment.
In the meantime, interest that exceeds the legal interest rate cannot be received.
I learned that there are methods such as giving up inheritance without paying the debtor’s debts, or paying off the debt by putting the property up for auction.
Among them, I chose to give up inheriting property. There were many other ways, but it’s not like I’m related to my father that much.
Before enlisting in the military, that was the only quickest way to clear up debt…
Her debt was forgiven with the approval, but the thought that this might happen again made her heart tremble.
So I have to go to the army.
I would rather escape from this cramped reality and leave for another place.
I have to go to a place where no one knows me and the future group won’t touch me. In the process, I submitted an enlistment application at will, and Yoo-jung hurt her heart.
I couldn’t help it. Sorry. There is no other way. The words didn’t come out then.
If you think about it, Yoo-jung always understood me, but I made such a kind Yoo-jeong angry.
I’m sure Yoo-jung will curse and hate me a lot inside. Will I be able to shamelessly meet Yoojung again?
I’d rather have told Yoo-jung what happened between Lee Jin-ah and me… Wouldn’t there have been a need to worry about it now?
-According to the teaching assistant’s control- Please enter slowly one by one!
-Identification card and enlistment warrant in hand! One by one, one by one! Please enter the auditorium!
… I don’t know.
From the moment I stepped into this army with my own two feet, no matter what choices I had made up until now, and no matter what the results, I couldn’t go back to what I hadn’t had.
It’s no use regretting it already.