Chapter 41 – An Angel’s First Love Diary_2
There was a time when I was vaguely anxious that a day like this would come someday.
There were times when I spoke to her grandmother cautiously, but her answer was always the same.
“Are you dishonoring the elders?”
Even as I shook my head and said that it wasn’t true, it was true that I felt relieved despite such an ambiguous answer.
The supreme beings who inherited the legacy of the Vanir gods who assisted the goddess in the distant past were the gods called ‘Elders’ who gathered in this hut. It was also true that it was simply assumed that such gods could not harbor sinister thoughts.
Her grandmother’s words and the trust built up. I vaguely thought that I was different from outsiders who viewed me in that way.
I was definitely convinced of that until I caught the hem of her clothes.
“Elder… ?”
Freya asked in a stern voice.
The answer did not come easily.
Extremely dry hands. The power coming from his wrinkled hands, which had a slightly musty old man’s smell, was so strong that I couldn’t easily separate them.
“Baby.”
“Elder. For a moment….”
“I’ve been watching it for a long time. “Baby.”
“This… Please let go… !”
“Always… always… You looked lonely….”
“Let go! Right now!”
An alarm bell rang in my head.
Rough breathing and unfocused eyes. Even slurred speech.
Freya pulled her clothes hard, causing the sleeves to bulge and tear. As soon as we fell and landed on our butts, the elder started crawling strangely on the floor.
I even forgot to breathe due to the movement ignoring the joints that were bent in opposite directions. I sense that this is no longer the behavior of an intelligent being.
Freya, who had lost even the ability to scream, swallowed her moans.
“…… “Inhale!”
“Baby… It’s okay… Baby… Come here. “I will take care of you.”
The moment her ankle was suddenly grabbed, a terrible sensation as if bugs were crawling all over her body came over her.
Freya was horrified and strongly kicked the elder in the face.
A couple of times, a vivid and honest feeling is conveyed even beyond the shoes.
Fortunately, the old man’s body seemed not to be very strong, and the moment his nose and eyes were trampled, the elder screamed and easily fell off.
“Khaak!”
Even as blood poured out, clutching his crushed nose, the elder staggered to his feet.
He dyed the tips of his hair bright red as if he no longer needed to be judged, and began to rush forward with determination, engulfed in a madness consumed by lustful, primal sensuality and fascination.
“Huh… ! “Huh!”
The sight was like seeing a monster appear from a snowy field, so Freya reflexively took out a dagger from her bosom. The only weapon he had just in case.
My mind had turned white, and there was no time to hold thoughts for long. I held a dagger in my hand and threatened him, but it was no use.
I take a step back from him with trembling legs. First, I tried my best to block it by grabbing and throwing everything I could find around me.
Book, scissors, quill and inkwell. Candlesticks and lamps burning brightly. Paper knife. Pot. Kettle.
Even though candle wax fell on the back of my hand and it became red, I didn’t even feel any pain. I was so scared that I didn’t even have time to worry about that.
Nevertheless, the elder did not stop. He was simply expressing with his whole body that he was only focused on devouring Freya and attacking her. Aggressively, engulfed in carnal desires, and an old body weighed down by the curse, to obtain what it has longed for.
He turned to his side to avoid the hand, but was caught by his hair.
“aaah! Ah… green onion… !”
Freya screamed as his hand violently pulled her hair. She began to feel dizzy from the vivid sensation of her scalp being pulled.
She felt that she had reached her limit. Freya’s back touches the wall. There is no back. Holds out her hand. A dagger is raised. Rather than containing any intention, it was simply to stop the monster in front of us. Reflexively. He just stuck out his arm.
Puuk.
A vivid sensation travels through the spinal cord and tickles the brain. It felt like I was stabbing slightly loose leather, hard fruit, and dehydrated meat at the same time. I thought something hot was pouring from the blade, but it took some time to realize that it was blood pouring from the open side.
I quickly pushed the elder away.
The miserable body was foaming at the mouth, gurgling, gurgling, and rolling around on the floor like a drowning person.
It wasn’t that long. Only after the writhing movements subsided was Freya able to recognize the situation and let out her breath.
“……… ….”
Ah.
He died.
Killed. Who?
I am.
Killed. He was one of those who raised the elder,
Killed.
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Thump, thump, thump, thump. Underneath the frantic heartbeat, footsteps can be heard under the blood-soaked floor.
Freya knows well the owner of these footsteps.
As usual, her grandmother’s voice rang loudly from below.
“What’s going on!”
You must have heard Freya’s screams. Her grandmother, who usually hated climbing her ladder, climbed her ladder on a rare occasion. The whole time felt long until I found Freyja gasping for breath, holding both of her hands and trampling on her blood.
It didn’t take long to remove the body. It was an instant to drain the blood from her attic. Everything was done in silence. She couldn’t even control her shock, but her grandmother took a deep breath and glared at Freya with bloodshot eyes.
“… Wicked… “It’s a monster, that thing.”
“Be patient, Elder. The goddess listens. Freya too… “
“Sleazy b*tch… “
That was the first time I heard someone call me vulgar.
I looked through the dictionary several times to see if the word I understood was correct, but there was no way the letters in the dictionary would change. She was so shocked that she ended up banging her head on her desk, unable to do anything for a couple of hours.
Vulgar? Why?
She grew up following her grandmother’s words.
She groomed her face, trimmed her skin, always washed her body cleanly, and toned her body.
I poured more and more and more and more effort into my natural appearance, pouring most of my time into becoming more beautiful and amplifying my power of fascination.
“I was wrong…” ?”
A vivid sensation that rang in my hand. The terrible sensation of piercing through skin, muscle, and fat, and getting caught in the bone by the tip of the blade, flashed like a flash of lightning.
Even though I didn’t have much conversation with him, I never thought of him as a bad elder by nature. If he had harbored such a dark heart in the first place, he would not have been chosen as an elder.
That person tried to attack him in the middle of the night, and he ended up stabbing that elder with a knife.
The innate power of fascination.
Why on earth was I born with such strength?
Brisingamen.
If only there was a breathing game.
That necklace is said to absorb the power of fascination and make oneself ugly.
If you can wear it around your neck and be ugly, if you can stand alongside others,
If only I could have lived a normal life….
“Why…… I… “
I was able to control my surprise only after covering my eyes and ears with a sighing voice.
“So so… I was scared… “Huh!”
Even though I whined in a crying voice, no one listened.
Boom! Thud! I hit my head several times, but there was no one around, and even then, the lump on my head hurt and I was sad, so I cried and collapsed in exhaustion.
Then I collapsed from exhaustion and fell asleep.
It felt like I had a long, long dream.
In her dream, Freya was walking between tall buildings.
That world was a little different from the place Freya had lived so far.
Height is one hand taller than now. Slightly thick voice. Although he was slim, his body was still somewhat more muscular and stockier than it is now. The blood vessels on the back of my hand rose and pressed like jelly.
It was a typical male body.
Just blankly, Freya looked down at herself blankly.
Rather than a dream, it felt like I was reliving a vivid memory.
“This is me…” … ?”
A strange-looking train emerges from a dark tunnel without even emitting steam, and gently stops in front.
Her own face was reflected there.
I couldn’t remember the name, face, or age, but I was still confident.
That’s not me, but it’s no different from me.
Someone other than Freya………
No… Her self before becoming Freya.
The surroundings seemed to become clearer.
This is not a train, but a subway. I was able to read the language I saw in front of me with great familiarity. He had a cell phone and an mp3 player in his hands, and his large backpack was filled with reference books, including Korean and math.
Words I didn’t know, events I didn’t know, and unfamiliar objects… All my memories of my past life began to flicker one by one, like a gas lamp slowly lighting up.
That was the end.
Again.
Consciousness ceases.
Dreams remain dreams, memories remain memories.
The next morning, I woke up in the same spot.
I fell asleep on my desk and didn’t care about the long marks. I came down from the attic without even forgetting to straighten my messy hair.
There was an old woman there, tilting her teacup as usual.
“Grandma! “I was a man!”
When he shouted that out loud, the other elders who were glaring at Freyja in the inner room began to look in this direction with their double wicks raised.
“Well, I actually had a past life, in this world, I was a man… I was a student, but I got into an accident… !”
I can’t even breathe properly and continue speaking.
Was it just to prove himself?
I desperately spewed out the contents of a superficial dream, unable to remember names, faces, ages, or even family and friends.
“Mom, dad, and family were there…” ! So I… !”
“Are you saying you are from another world?”
“Yes! That’s right!”
“… It’s not common, but it’s nothing surprising. So what do you mean?”
“………… Yes?”
“……… ….”
Her grandmother’s eyes stared distantly at her Freya.
Freya had no choice but to step back without saying anything.
“I… man… So… that… crab…… “
But her grandmother was adamant.
“Go up. Tomorrow I will be able to wear Brisingamen around my neck. Don’t put her necklace up in the attic beforehand. “It’s okay if you wear it starting today, but the official wearing starts tomorrow, so just understand.”
It felt like I was covered in cold water from head to toe.
What on earth did you want to do?
To them, it’s just an old memory. It may have been nothing more than a reminder of a forgotten memory.
Her grandmother and other elders were the first to notice that Freya’s perspective, way of thinking, and ego had not changed significantly.
Did you decide that it was not something to worry about? If there were no restrictions on wearing the Brisingamen, I wouldn’t have even thought about it.
But there was something they also overlooked.
Something changed for Freya over the past night. The point was that I was able to look at my situation a little more objectively.
I decided that I could no longer live in this village.
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“Ha… ! Ha… !”
I don’t know how long it ran.
In fact, it was my first time running through the forest like this since I played with my children when I was young.
I feel that my physical strength is close to its limit. My legs are throbbing and painful. Although he was wearing a long coat, the scratches from the tree on his forearms were already stinging and gnawing at his skin.
I was so exhausted that if I stopped running, I would collapse like this. But even so, Freya couldn’t just stop.
“Freya!”
“Where are you, Freya?”
You’re already within close range. A pursuer dispatched by the Vanir gods. They were chasing Freya with terrifying force. Although her tone was infinitely kind, Freyja was not stupid enough to not know that there were many days ahead.
“It’s definitely around here…” Here! Freya’s feather has fallen! “This direction!”
I know it’s only a matter of time before I get discovered.
I was able to make a sufficiently objective judgment without having to look back at the situation calmly.
If they caught me like this, it was obvious what kind of treatment I would receive back in the village.
Rather than being scared, the first thing that came out was heartless laughter.
“I failed…… hahahaha… Life is over….”
I collapsed under the tree with a feeling of despair.
The damp sweat from her forehead ran down her thighs as she buried her face in her blood-dry knees.
It was nice to wear pants casually, but the only pants worth wearing for outdoor activities were cotton pants that had been in the closet for a long time. It’s been a while since I tried it on, and perhaps because he’s tall, it doesn’t even cover all of his thighs, and it draws a strangely suggestive line. It would have been healthier to wear nothing at all.
Anyway, my weakened legs were no longer useful. Even though I touch my legs, I can’t feel any muscles at all, and it seems like a miracle that I’ve even made it this far. Even if I get up again like this, I estimate how many more steps I can take.
“Should I just die…?” .”
Now that I see it, the way he speaks has become quite crude.
Did recalling memories from your past life have a huge impact on your personality?
I know very well that holding on to memories that are not clear is nothing but stubbornness.
Forcing out a dry laugh, he laughed and shamelessly mumbled.
“Ugh, I had a really boring life this time too…… “I guess it’s a talent, too.”
It would have been nice if I had remembered my past life a little earlier. If so, it would have been a little different. A little smarter. I could have lived a little more agilely.
“… …. It’s suicide again….”
Freya took out the dagger she had hidden in her arms and held it to the back of her neck.