I do not resent-7
“Would it be okay.”
Even if I recite the thoughts that pop into my head for a while, I remember that the question itself was wrong in the first place.
it can’t be okay If someone else recalls the memory Adrian saw, it will collapse by itself.
I was jealous. I had to see that I had a deep connection with someone other than myself.
He thinks he wished he was there too, but nothing changed unless he had the ability to intervene in the past.
He just focused a little more on the present, but he didn’t think he was the only one who would get his memories back.
Exactly what I saw through the coffin of memory, but if someone else gets their memories back…
There were probably quite a lot of parts to be painful.
It may not be Adele Ygritte, but it is certain that Miragen, who spent a lot of time with Robert, will collapse.
If you kill the person you love with your own hands, how many women can endure it?
After Robert came to the capital, many things had changed radically.
The things about the masked people, the things Crown Prince Keitel is holding in his hands, and even the dragons.
Now that no one is aware of the threat to the dragons, only Robert is moving in preparation for it.
Adrian, who heard that Robert had moved to the imperial palace, stared into space with a cold expression.
Sometimes it’s better to know nothing.
If he hadn’t read Robert’s memories, he wouldn’t have felt the loss he had now.
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Just like that, Mirazen must be feeling the pain in the name of memory by now.
it would be painful
Even if you dig out your own chest and get scars all over your body, it will be painful enough to not be strange.
If there was a relationship in this world, it would be okay to refer to the two, but as long as the emotions were deep, the return pain was not something to endure calmly.
I didn’t like it. situation you don’t know
That Robert and Mirajen, Robert and Adele share the feeling that only they know.
But can’t you just hate it for this reason?
One day, there may be a future where we can smile and face each other.
Even in this life, I can’t guarantee that they will be by Robert’s side.
Adrian was worried about one thing.
If Miragen collapsed to the point where it couldn’t rise again, and Robert wasn’t too sad about that.
It’s because you’ll be able to handle the things that will come later.
It may be that he harbors too many evil feelings as a person who worships a god.
Even if the divinity bestowed on him would disappear in the face of this denial, Adrian had no intention of abandoning his current heart.
From the moment I faced Robert’s past and saw my feelings recognized in it.
Adrian’s faith was changing little by little.
“It may help, but I will pray for you.”
I hope everything goes back to the way it was, the fate that began to settle back in time.
Please make Robert Taylor achieve what he wants.
As the rosary held in Adrian’s hand emitted light, the dark room began to be dyed with a vivid glow.
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The feeling of a weapon wielding oneself digging into the neck, cutting through hard bones.
Blood is splattered, flesh is torn, and a person’s breath is cut off. Ordinary human beings go crazy with that sensation.
Even if it was a knight, if you killed someone for the first time, you couldn’t forget the feeling and were swung around.
Recalling numerous memories, he was slowly getting used to the sensation.
A life without meeting Robert, but it is bound to be so intense.
The feeling of killing loved ones yourself. How can you be sane?
It didn’t take long to find happiness in old memories, and to feel the futility of everything dispersing like bubbles.
“ah.”
I couldn’t raise my head. He knew that Robert was in front of him, but it was because he couldn’t be proud the moment he understood the feelings Robert must have had.
He told him not to blame himself, but rather, those words bound Robert.
Unlike himself, who ended up dying once, Robert suffered like that for hundreds of years.
Can I say I understand the pain? Can I ask Robert to love me like I used to with just one word, sorry and asking for forgiveness?
It couldn’t have been. Red blood flowed from between his trembling lips.
It was to forget the rising memories, but the sharp pain made it more vivid to recall the sensations left in the hands.
He cut the throat of a man who laughed at himself. I loved her, but I didn’t know that memory, so I only killed her with resentment.
By the time his trembling legs were about to land on the ground, Robert, who supported Mirazen’s body, let out a small sigh.
“Are you okay?”
“…OMG.”
I’m not in a state where I can say sane words already.
The woman’s eyes were empty as she silently recited her sins in her mind that had collapsed little by little.
Since he realized that the delusions he had thought were true, he had no choice but to blame himself, even if Robert didn’t resent him.
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Just like Robert’s special feelings for Mirajen, Mirajen’s feelings for Robert were also special.
A man I met when I was always worried about my precarious status.
I don’t know if it’s because we met like fate and fell in love like a fairy tale, but the feeling of happiness when we first met was the most satisfying of all our lives.
Either way, life hasn’t changed as much as that.
Sometimes he came to the imperial palace to see Robert, who confessed to him, and like the first time, he met at a ball.
What Robert showed me was close to the ideal man.
Didn’t you get angry once, and didn’t you just see a smiling face if possible.
However, the Robert that Mirazen remembers in this life was very different from what he had seen in the past.
It’s dark, empty without any emotion. Showing more melancholy expressions than laughing.
There were times when I felt anxious because it wouldn’t be strange if I died right away, but in fact, it just felt like it was all my fault.
know.
The fact that Robert would not resent him was immediately apparent when he recalled the memories of meeting dozens of times.
However, when I felt the sensation of supporting my body, I couldn’t bear the feeling of being sorry.
When I forcibly held on to my spirit that looked like it was going to collapse any moment, I could only feel the cold blue eyes touching me.
The worry contained in it was conveyed so intact that he wondered if he could accept such feelings.
Mirazen, who had been moaning for a while, slowly raised her head.
Even making eye contact with Robert was painful, but avoiding any more was just running away.
“Robert.”
I have to say I’m sorry, but my voice didn’t leak out of my blocked throat.
When he met Robert’s eyes, it was as if all the past he had passed passed by.
The death that one person, Robert, had to go through, and the heart that watched it.
When Robert died from being beaten by Keitel, he always had to see the end.
To say he didn’t even resent a woman who didn’t even know that he was tortured and died without his knowledge, covered with a ridiculous false accusation of treason.
Should I call this person an idiot, or should I call myself an idiot who mischievously treated me without knowing a single thing like that?
“I-“
“It’s okay if you don’t say anything.”
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Just by looking at Mirazen’s eyes, I knew what he was thinking. When you look at yourself, you will reflect on the past.
I was worried from the moment I noticed that I had a hint that I had recalled a memory.
If it was Miragen, you would definitely blame yourself. That’s why I’ve said many times that I didn’t resent it, but I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable watching her collapse like this.
“You don’t have to apologize.”
To receive an apology, Mirazen did nothing wrong. Rather, it must be her own fault for trying to die to Mirazen.
If he had died alone, if he had cared more about Mirazen in the first place, he wouldn’t have been in pain like he is now.
“You don’t have to be sorry.”
I know that saying this doesn’t mean I can’t go back to my old relationship with Mirazen anytime soon.
Even in the middle of forcibly holding her so that she wouldn’t run away, the movement of trying to escape was transmitted intact.
I don’t know if this will backfire, but I wanted to make it clear nonetheless.
However, the distance is still far. Mirazen pushed Robert’s hand around her waist and said nothing more.
the heart knows If Robert doesn’t blame him, and here he laughs at Robert again. Maybe in this life I could go on like I used to.
“…Sorry.”
Will the voice recited with a trembling voice reach me? The already blurred vision was unable to contain anything.
The scene of Robert dying was repeated over and over again, and again, at the end of it, he saw Robert with his head cut off.
There was only pitch black darkness. Even reaching out to me seemed resentful, so Mirazen hesitated and avoided the outstretched hand again.
“Sorry. I am sorry.”
My feelings for Robert were still there. It grew even after we met in this life, but it became more certain after recalling memories.
That’s why it’s painful. How can I explain the feeling of killing someone I love with my own hands?
Hearing voices made his ears tingle, and unlike before, when he faced empty eyes, he felt like it was his fault.
died for himself
To meet myself, to meet myself.
She knew it would be harder to get closer the further she got, but Mirazen couldn’t decide if going to Robert was the right thing to do.
It took time. Pick up your heart, until you have the courage to approach again.
Mirazen, who had already stepped outside the door, quietly looked at Robert from afar.
I couldn’t make eye contact. If you run into those cold blue eyes, the cold will mix with this hot wind.
Little by little, the darkened world was getting darker to the point where it was close to darkness.
What kind of expression would Robert in front of him be making? I was afraid to even imagine it, so I couldn’t even raise my head.
A trembling hand brushed the air, then Mirajen, who closed her lips again, quietly lowered her hand.
It was because I was sorry to even talk. How long will it take for this mind to be sorted out?
It would probably take a long time, but as Mirajen stepped forward, leaving Robert, a small drop of water trickled down her cheek.
The bitten lips were stained white.
Her face was so messed up that she would ask what happened if she ran into anyone, but she just wanted to be alone and away from Robert.
I wasn’t sure if the day would come again when we could talk like before. I’ll probably be sorry for the rest of my life.
that buck
Hearing the unusually loud footsteps, he walked through the empty corridors.
Tinnitus was heard in the dizzy ringing ears. The beeping sound covered my ears, and I involuntarily walked on laughing.
The sobs seemed to grow louder the farther he got from Robert.
I’m sorry
No matter how many times I say I’m sorry, it’s something that can’t be forgiven.
Can you understand at least a fragment of Robert’s heart? Mirajen didn’t consider herself qualified for that.
The moment he killed Robert, he had already become a person who could not be forgiven for the rest of his life.
That’s what I was thinking. The body, which had been swaying helplessly, eventually completely loosened up.
I knew I was falling backwards, but Mirajan thought he’d rather fall.
As the memories returned, the pain that came to mind was too much to bear.
However, perhaps not allowing even that, he smiled slightly when he realized that his body had been supported by someone.
Perhaps it was an attendant nearby. You would be surprised if you saw his face, so it was the time when he hurriedly covered his face.
“You don’t have to cover it.”
It’s an exceptionally soft voice, a voice I’ve heard too many times.
When Mirazen opened her eyes, what she saw were blue eyes. The only difference was that it was not empty.
He saw eyes that were the same as the ones he remembered, mixed with a lot of emotions just like when they first met.
Shining like a jewel, like a sapphire mixed with a bit of water.
Robert slowly brushed Mirazen’s messed up cheek.
I thought about letting go for a while after seeing him leave, but it seemed like my heart was in a hurry.
If I let go this time, when will I see you next time?
I didn’t intend to let go. won’t let go
Now that I’m determined to end the regression, at least. He had no intention of letting go of everything he loved.
I had no intention of postponing it. Mirazen will be in pain, but it will probably be painful even as time goes by.
Should I call this feeling of wanting to be relieved by my side greed?
If so, Robert wanted to be greedy.
It was always weak against Miragen, but this time.
I had no intention of giving up.