103 – That’s not love… (2)
I don’t love the author?
Why is that story suddenly appearing?
A joke… It seems not.
The atmosphere is quite serious to say that.
“Don’t you love the author?”
“Yes.”
On what basis….
I felt a bit emotional, but I decided to listen to Grid for now.
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“Why do you think so?”
Grid slowly crossed his legs and raised his index finger.
“Brave. Love is neither an obligation nor a debt.”
“Huh?”
“The feelings you feel toward the author are more of a sense of duty or debt rather than love.”
Grid is obviously using Korean, but I didn’t understand any of it.
No, I don’t want to understand….
“Even though I am a monster, I think I know enough about emotions now.”
Grid continued his story with his arms crossed.
“Loving someone is an uncontrollable explosion of emotions. I think of him all the time.”
Grid untied his arms and thrust his index finger into my face.
“Do you think of the author every day? Do you think you want to see her every day, share her story, and dedicate yourself to her?”
I couldn’t say anything back to that.
“It was because I was busy, the timing was bad… There will be many excuses. But if you really love someone, the person you love comes to mind in the midst of war, right?”
….
“Because of your personality, you have never shown favoritism to anyone. You don’t know love, Brave.”
“… You know?”
“You know better than you.”
A guy who’s never tried it….
“You and the author are very close. Since the author likes you, you must have had a crush on him to some extent. But it’s too shallow a feeling to call it love.”
“Is it superficial?”
Every one of Grid’s words was sharp and sharp.
I think Grid’s words are wrong, but somewhere I think Grid’s words are right.
I don’t love the author….
“Is the author important?”
“It’s precious.”
“Can you risk dying for the author?”
“I can do it.”
“Then what about Yuna? What if she is in danger of Yuna dying?”
“… I can.”
“Yeah, you haven’t had someone on your mind yet.”
I noticed that the author liked me.
And I also learned that those feelings aren’t feelings that developed in a day or two.
I had quite a crush on the author.
As long as the author is nice and pretty, if you’re dating… She thought so
However, those emotions were not born out of the kind of earnestness that the author was indispensable to.
Just because everyone around me is dating, and they tell me to date too.
She puts the point on dating. She doesn’t put the point on who she will date.
Because he is close to me and likes me, we date him.
That was the mindset.
“… But she gets mad when the author thinks she’s going to someone else?”
“Are you comfortable with the thought that Yuna is kissing another man?”
“….”
Hearing Grid’s words, I instantly felt a surge of emotion.
“Yes, your expression speaks for itself.”
Exclusive desire.
As a man, no, as a male instinct.
I don’t want to lose a female close to me to someone else.
I have a little more special feelings for the person who loves me.
But that’s not love.
That’s what Grid meant.
What do you know about the monster?
I wanted to say that, but I couldn’t bring myself to say it to Grid, who had changed too much to be called a monster.
I’m usually calm, but I thought that these words might hurt Grid.
Grid, who was staring at me like that, untied his legs and stood up in front of me.
Then he started looking down at me.
I looked up at that grid.
That moment.
Took.
“Huh?”
Grid pushed me onto the bed and climbed right on top of me.
Then he put his hand on my chest with a look I’ve never seen before.
“Brave… Aren’t you afraid that I use feminine expressions?”
I couldn’t look at Grid’s face.
“You want me to act like a man, don’t you?”
“Get out of the way.”
“For me to suddenly raise my head to the author and repeat an unsuitable behavior… Is it because you feel a sense of danger to yourself who felt that I, the monster, was the opposite s*x?”
No.
“A coward.”
Grid put his hand on his chest as he said that.
“Because I’m not that resistant… What are you going to do if you fall for the beauty world?”
Grid very slowly unbuttoned his chest.
Those clothes aren’t real clothes, so they don’t have to be like that, but as if they’re showing it to me.
“Aagh!”
I put my hand in Grid’s armpit and lifted Grid up by slapping his waist.
“Ah!”
I slammed the grid on the bed, showing a startled reaction, and covered it with a blanket.
My heart feels like it’s about to explode.
And there….
“Don’t do it! f*ck this dog….”
I couldn’t help but curse when I met Grid’s eyes with his head sticking out of the blanket.
Ah, I’ve finally become a madman who is in heat even against beings like aliens.
“You are cute.”
I took a blanket from the bed next to me, threw it over Grid’s face, and ran to the bathroom.
I can’t calm down.
I think I’m going to lose my mind at what Grid said.
It was already late at night, so I decided to stay in the bathroom until Grid fell asleep.
What am I really doing….
***
“Stupid, idiot, dumb asshole.”
Grid scolded me and boarded my boat.
Even though the original was a monster, it was a light weight that only felt human.
It’s light, soft, and somehow warm.
This is a monster… ?
No, is it a monster?
“I am not a monster, Brave.”
Grid said that and brought my hand to his chest.
For a moment, my hand froze at the softness, but I couldn’t get my hand out of Grid’s.
“Now, can you feel it?”
Thumping.
I can feel it.
Apart from the softness of his hand, I can feel Grid’s heartbeat in my fingertips.
“Do I still look like a monster?”
As Grid said, a soft smile appeared on his lips.
Grid’s upper body leaned forward.
“I am Gloria.”
Gloria….
It was Gloria.
As Gloria slowly tilted her weight forward, her beautiful silver hair started tickling my face.
She felt her whole body stiffen at the scent of her hair.
This shouldn’t be the case.
Preferring someone means rejecting someone.
As if 13 victims were created by choosing the author….
Cemetery.
The moment the place came to her mind, she felt the blood drain from her face.
My heart, which had been pounding like it was about to burst, began to calm down.
Yeah, where can I afford that?
Am I a human who deserves it?
I don’t deserve it.
“Come out, Gloria.”
My cold words stopped Gloria from moving towards me.
Gloria put her hand on my chest and she just looked down at me.
Am I feeling the heartbeat felt in my chest?
You know, Gloria.
My heart has already cooled down.
The sight I saw that day pierces my heart every time.
If you try to forget it, the pain that started from the dagger spreads throughout your body.
I still… He is a human being who cannot afford to accept anyone.
Maybe I can accept it.
So many things have changed and I can’t believe myself being run over by circumstances.
There is also the recoil of the nuclear weapon used to bring down the terrifying monster.
My body was mixed with the factor of a monster.
It won’t be obvious even after a close inspection, but you can feel it instinctively.
That I have become a little different from before.
In such a complicated situation, you have to travel around the world fearing that Humbert will commit an incident.
The dangerous guys Humbert warned about may be targeting my acquaintances.
But I can’t show that weakness.
Because I’m not Jinwoo Lee, I’m the superhero Brave.
I am carrying a lot of thoughts that I can’t reveal from the outside.
Don’t tell me to shoulder the romance here.
That’s too cruel….
“Shh.”
Gloria pressed her thin, long fingers gently against my lips.
“It’s just the two of us here, Brave.”
Then he placed the finger in front of his lips.
“Listen carefully. What do you hear?”
The sound of your breath and the sound of your heart, the sound of my breath and heart.
Only that can be heard.
“Why are you so complicated?”
Why? .
That’s right….
“Look around. What do you see?”
I tried to look around at Gloria’s words.
But I couldn’t see what I wanted.
Because only Gloria’s beautiful silver hair, which hung like a curtain separating me from the world, filled her vision.
It felt cold, but on the other hand, there was a world filled with only mild silver light.
Gloria’s face got closer and closer.
“Close your eyes. What do you feel?”
I can feel Gloria’s presence.
And the faint smell of Gloria’s flesh….
Her heart, which had cooled off slowly, started beating again as if it were broken.
This shouldn’t be the case.
Something inside of me changes.
Such an instinctive fear was born.
But Gloria seemed unwilling to let me go.
Gloria’s hands touched the sides of my face.
I was completely enslaved by Gloria.
No more complicated things came to mind.
I fell into the illusion that only Gloria and I were left in this world.
“Do you want the author to kiss another man?”
“… No.”
“Would Yuna be happy if she embraced another man?”
“No.”
“I… ,”
Gloria let out her sneer as she ran her finger around my mouth.
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“… Is it okay if I leave?”
“No!”
As soon as Gloria thought she was leaving me, an unknown fear ran through her body.
My hands and feet trembled at the feeling that my precious half was falling away.
I held Gloria firmly in my arms.
“Don’t go….”
The author, Yuna, and Gloria… No one wants to let go
I want to make everything mine.
“Can I do that? Do you know how bad that is?”
It doesn’t matter if you know.
“I don’t want to hurt the person who likes you… That’s why you couldn’t treat it carelessly. This hurts both the author and Yuna.”
You can do anything.
“Are you really going to be okay with that?”
Every word spoken by Gloria’s hot lips began to invade my whole body like a curse.
Ethics, morality, values.
I felt like everything was shaking.
I know that my current accident is not normal.
But I… I am afraid that someone will leave me.
Don’t leave me.
Such earnestness moved my body on its own.
Gloria’s hot body was more closely attached to mine.
“Whoops.”
The moment I thought I could feel Gloria’s hot breath, my body and Gloria’s bodies were pressed into one.
The clothes I was wearing just now disappeared like bubbles.
“That’s it, Brave….”
Gloria’s soft, moist-looking lips slowly approached.
I could feel her hot breath on her bright red lips.
Drunk with that breath, I slowly embraced Gloria’s lips.
Wake up! Who the fk is Gloria! Lmao
Grid female form lol