104 – That’s not love… (3)
ㅡ Brave.
Someone is calling me.
This voice is Gloria… ?
No, more than that….
ㅡ Brave, wake up.
Who else is Gloria?
I looked down at my body.
The one I was holding… Who was it?
ㅡ Brave!
When I heard a slightly loud sound, I felt my consciousness slowly rise.
When I opened my eyes like that, Gloria was standing there with a stupid looking face.
“Uh… Gloria….”
“What? Is that what you decided to call me?”
Why are you talking like this again?
I was blankly thinking that, then I looked down at my body.
Wearing clothes.
I raised my head again and looked at the grid.
Wearing clothes.
This, no way?
Ha ha.
“Today is the day to return home. Hurry up and pack your things.”
After saying that, Grid walked over to the bathroom.
I looked at him blankly and then lifted the blanket.
“Whoa.”
Fortunately, I don’t think I did.
Do I have wet dreams with monsters like that?
If you did, you’d be suicidal.
I hurriedly tidied up the table and gulped down the cold water in the refrigerator.
I have to forget it, but the memory is so vivid.
I can’t erase the moment I was lying on that bed with a woman who calls herself Gloria.
That was a grid?
No, no.
In other words, Grid is like a pet with a second grade disease who wears a Brave belt and shouts ‘Transform!’.
Just… It’s just a dream in which I realized that I’m a piece of dog trash who has feelings for Jieun and Yuna at the same time.
I leaned back in my chair and let out a long sigh.
My teeth grind when I think the author is going to another man.
When I see Yuna with a man she doesn’t know, her fists tighten.
I have a possessive desire for both of them.
He’s an unscrupulous guy who thinks he’s mine when he’s not mine.
However, emotions such as shame and guilt are diminishing.
Since the old days, I didn’t really like being divided into dichotomy by taking someone’s side.
I want my close friends to be close to other friends as well.
I have always been that kind of person.
This time it just turned into a question of the opposite s*x.
I hope the girls who love me don’t hate me.
I hope you never leave my side.
I came up with such selfish thoughts.
Although I know that is the wrong choice, I arbitrarily conclude that they will only be happy if they are with me.
In the first place, what is the importance of the eyes of the people around you?
If they are happy no matter how you look at them, isn’t that the right thing to do?
If they’re happy, I’m happy too.
“No.”
Wrong.
This is morally….
Would you give up on the author?
I don’t like it.
I want to see Yuna smiling at another guy.
I hate it.
“I really am a bastard….”
Now I’m confused as to whether this feeling is a side effect of becoming a monster or if it’s my original values.
“Yes, Brave. You are a dog.”
A grid dripping from her head appeared, rubbing his head with a towel.
The wet clothes were slightly reflected in the water… Her face felt hot as she remembered last night.
“Are you going to wash?”
While saying that, Grid pointed to the bathroom, and I ran into the bathroom as if to escape.
Even entering the bathroom was a problem.
I’m sure it’s a part provided at the hotel, so my body must smell the same.
Still, it was strange to smell the scent.
Do you think he just washed up here….
Has my head really gone?
***
After spending a little more time washing and coming out, I saw Grid writing a letter.
“Ehh.”
Grid stretched and began tidying up the desk.
Did I finish writing my reply?
“Why is that?”
“No, nothing.”
How can I say that I had a dream of committing such and such an act with you at night.
No, but Grid can read my thoughts to some extent….
To get out of this hotel room, you must become one with the grid.
Then I’m sure you’ll find out what I was dreaming about.
Ah, that’s ruined.
It didn’t matter if I was tired or not in bed.
“Why is that?”
“Uh, since I think I’m going home now… In many ways, um.”
“It’s rare to find a place that welcomes you like this, so I guess I’ll miss it.”
Grid stroked the mountain of letters with his hand with a soft expression.
I was dizzy as that soft expression overlapped with Gloria’s alluring expression last night.
I can’t seem to calm down how this body has been eaten.
Now that I’ve washed up, I need to change my clothes.
As I was changing my clothes like that, Grid was looking at me with an interesting expression.
“Why?”
“No, nothing.”
Then I started to organize my luggage, including letters.
I was just staring at Grid, but I must be more conscious than necessary.
Yes, all of this is a matter of my insane libido, which is starting to go against moral standards.
Namu Amitabha.
After we finished packing up, it was time to leave the hotel.
Now the grid will enter my body.
It was a moment when I thought about what to do now.
Grid grinned, tidying up the hair on the side of her.
It wasn’t a healthy smile that seemed a bit mischievous.
It was that strange smile that reminded me of Gloria from last night.
“….”
Was it an illusion?
When she closed her eyes and opened them, Grid had the same expression as usual.
“What are you doing?”
“… My body is a little sore.”
Grid came closer to me and put his hand on my chest.
Grid’s hand began digging into my chest.
That was the moment when I became half-one with Grid.
“Being aroused by an attractive member of the opposite s*x is a human physiology, so understand, Brave.”
Grid whispered such a sound in my ear as if it were hugging me and disappeared.
Oh sh*t.
Did you know everything?
ㅡ If I masturbate while I am inside my body, is it a goddamn daughter or masturbation?
Please stop… !
***
Perhaps because she was tormented by Grid, her mind was devastated.
I just wanted to go back and rest.
But Yuna-san seemed to be in a very bad mood, so she was concerned.
ㅡ Now take care of Yuna too, Brave.
Don’t do it.
ㅡ While longing for it so fervently… !
Really behind.
ㅡ hehehe.
You can see the refrigerator full of pine needles.
ㅡ Garbage!
When Grid comes out, there’s nothing she can’t treat as Gloria.
But when I am in my body, a grid is a grid.
It’s a big deal to not be able to concentrate on fighting monsters because you’re too busy paying attention to the grid.
ㅡ Well, I agree with that. So now Yuna should pay attention too. Wouldn’t it be difficult to leave?
I had no choice but to agree with that statement even though I knew it was a trashy mindset.
“What’s going on?”
When I spoke to her, Yuna weakly shook her head.
I kept looking at him because he looked so pitiful.
Realizing that her feelings for Yuna were not that different from those of her author, I kept paying attention to each and every movement.
“If you need anything… tell.”
Nodding.
Ms. Yuna was still powerless.
That kept bothering me.
When I arrived at the airport, a government official changed my ticket into a boarding pass and brought it to me.
The factors were talking in a friendly atmosphere, and Yuna and I were sitting apart with a chair between us.
Something… In many ways, an awkward atmosphere ensued.
ㅡ Since the monster’s nuclear problem has been solved well, I believe that this will also be finished well, Brave.
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The core of the monster was solved by the author himself.
A core created by Grid while treating psychic syndrome patients all over Japan.
The author prepared in advance how to release the nucleus to the outside.
It wasn’t a very dignified way.
Because the monster’s core is an extremely valuable item, taking it out of the country was very limited.
To be honest, the moment I was most scared of in Japan was neither meeting Yewon, the owner of BT, nor fighting a monster.
It was to make sure that the nuke escaped safely without being caught by the Japanese government’s monitoring network.
Now that that has been resolved safely, my work in Japan is over.
How can I solve this delicate distance with Yuna-san?
As I let out the feeling that I was still paying attention, Ms. Yuna turned her head to look at me.
“Nerves… Is it written?”
To Yuna’s question, she answered with a slight nod of her head.
Then Yuna-san pointed to the corner of the lounge.
I’m guessing you’re talking about it over there.
There is still time.
I quietly got up and followed Ms. Yuna.
There was no one else in the corner of the airport lounge.
Ms. Yuna lifted her bowed head slightly and looked up at me.
“Mr. Jinwoo.”
Yuna called my name with a desperate expression.
As she looked at those uneasy eyes, she felt uncomfortable.
It must be my fault that this person is hurting like this….
“Yes.”
“Me too… I am a woman.”
“….”
After saying that, I looked at Yuna-san, who lowered her head.
Ms. Yuna usually has a confident and somewhat sophisticated feel, but the person standing in front of me now looked so weak.
Somewhere, he was overflowing with clumsiness, but is that person who was always full of energy getting hurt like this because of me?
… That’s not going to happen.
I put my hand on the trembling Yuna’s shoulder.
The face of Ms. Yuna, who was lowering her head, was slowly lifted.
I put my lips to Yuna’s ear, just as Gloria had done to me.
“I never thought of you as a woman.”
“… ?!”
Yuna froze with her mouth wide open.
Ah, something cute.
“If I didn’t like you, I would have kicked you out. You know how I was when we first met, right?”
The words that I could never say in the past came out smoothly.
“Because I’m not an idiot either… I know as much as I know.”
Yuna’s face started to turn red.
“Nonal….”
Are you referring to non-alcohol?
“I didn’t make you do it because I thought you were a child. I did it because I thought it would be painful if I drank too much because I ate too much.”
“….”
“I just can’t afford it because of that guy named Humbert, okay?”
It’s not that you don’t have charm, it’s just that I don’t have room in my heart.
I looked at Yuna-san with that intention in mind.
Yuna’s face, which showed weakness that seemed to be about to disappear just a moment ago, slowly began to regain her energy.
Ms. Yuna started walking out with the same elated expression she always showed.
Isn’t that what she always looked like….
It’s a robot-like movement where the right foot and right hand go out at the same time.
ㅡ Bugs, Garbage, Adda Bombers.
Call it what you want to call it.
Because I don’t know myself anymore.