79 – Because I Love the Woman Inside You (2)
In the end, Yuna was unable to break my stubbornness. She didn’t even try to do that in the first place. She simply added one condition.
If I have to go, I ask her to stay with me until then.
Only then did I catch a glimpse of youthful loneliness in her eyes. Why do raindrops always fall particularly harshly on solitary flower buds? In the end, the only ones who were hurt in this situation were the loners.
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She couldn’t help but laugh alone at the happy ending she had met at the end of her life, and she couldn’t possibly leave her behind.
So, we packed up a lot of money and left for Erendel. The neighbors jokingly asked if they were finally going on their honeymoon. I could only smile like I always did.
This trip was especially more arduous and difficult than the last time. Most of it was because of Yuna. There were several times when I had to stop midway through the day because I felt motion sick. Each time, Yuna apologized to me.
“I’m sorry, Ellen.”
“I’m more sorry.”
I had no choice but to respond to the apology with an apology. Other than that there was very little conversation. Except very occasionally, when Yuna says something like this.
“Hey, Ellen. There you are.”
“Yes.”
“If I really meet that girl…”
“…”
But the conversation never lasted to the end. Yuna always trailed off or ended the conversation by saying she would tell me the next time something occurred to her. Maybe I was worried about it the whole trip. If I really met her, what would I want to tell her?
In the end, we arrived at Erendel without the correct answer being decided.
It hasn’t been that long since I visited, but the appearance of the city has changed quite a bit. Now that the hottest season is over, the shopping streets have definitely become more lively, and merchants are busily soliciting customers. There was also a beautifully decorated tree erected for the upcoming harvest festival.
It’s still too early to prepare for the harvest festival. I shook my head and looked around with careful eyes. It was because there were people to meet when you came to the city. Yuna also cast her gaze out the window and searched for that person with her eyes. Immediately afterwards, I heard a voice calling my name from somewhere.
“Eren! Yuna!”
“I like the eyes too.”
I once again admired the amazing sight and turned my head towards the voice. But she was nowhere to be seen. There’s no way you can’t see that big thing. As I looked around in confusion, a surreal sight suddenly caught my eye.
The decorated tree I saw earlier was approaching this way.
“Hey Ellen! Here!”
“…”
That crazy bastard.
Yuna also opened her mouth in astonishment, probably getting a similar impression. Guerro’s appearance was that shocking. Sparkling jewels adorned all over the body. Hair that you don’t even know which expert you left it to. And the moment I saw my nails dyed balsam, I felt like my face turned bright red.
Reuniting with my best friend was literally the worst.
“Hey Ellen! Here?”
“Hey, can we stop here?”
“No. Please go to the end.”
“Hey!”
The moment I couldn’t bear it and was about to run away, a large hand slammed on the carriage window and grabbed me. I held my head, looking at my oddly trimmed fingernails. This is what you did for decoration. I sighed and scolded him instead of greeting him.
“…What on earth is that?”
“As soon as we met, this guy started nagging me. Back then, you gave me some jewelry. You used that money to show off. How about that? Do you look like a noble lady?”
“No. You seem crazy. By the way, what about Illya?”
“I don’t know. I can’t see these days. That’s why I came out alone. Anyway, how are you? Yuna. Am I okay?”
“Ah… That…”
Yuna stammered as if she was embarrassed and then lowered her head. Then she timidly opened her mouth.
“It seems okay, Miss Guero.”
“Ah, now it’s time to use polite language. You can just call me comfortably.”
“…”
“Yuna?”
Only then did Guero sense her seriousness and frowned slightly at her. She seemed to have caught the animal-like sense of anxiety floating around the carriage.
“…What happened?”
In the end, Guero recognized everything with just her eyes and asked in a serious voice. She had a reason to rely on this guy.
I had to meet him before I could do what I wanted to do.
I took a deep breath. And I answered in as calm a voice as possible.
“Let’s sit down somewhere and talk. We have so much to talk about.”
“…”
After the story was over, Guero could not bear to continue her words. In fact, she wasn’t sure if she even understood properly. Possession. Another world. Goddess. These were too absurd concepts to accept overnight.
Guero, who was in confusion, eventually turned to Yuna. After staring at her for a long time, Guero opened her mouth in a very heavy voice.
“Really?”
“…”
“No…Is this really true, Miss Yuna? All this time, you had someone else’s personality inside your body, and that person returned to the original world?”
“That’s right, Miss Guero.”
“But that can’t be…”
“If you ask me to show you evidence, there is no such thing. But that is the reality. The person who was inside me until now was a person named Kim Yuna, and that person left after changing my fate. So, in fact, I am with Ms. Guero. “This is the first time we’re talking about this.”
“Well…So…That…”
“Yes. That’s reality.”
“…”
Guero fell silent again. Even she, who had always overcome all her situations with the courage of a bull, seemed to have no choice but to remain silent right now. Guerro just tapped her tail for a while before finally opening her mouth.
“So, that means the Yuna I knew is no longer in this world, Eren.”
“Yes. That’s right.”
“So?”
“So what?”
“So why did you come to tell me this now?”
“That’s…”
“…”
I felt some hesitation. Even though the answer was already decided, strangely speaking to Guero felt very difficult.
But there was no benefit in taking time. After making up my mind, I immediately raised my head and spoke in a clear voice.
“I’m going to go look for her from now on.”
“What…?”
“I already told Yuna, but she thought you should know too. She has a favor to ask of you, and you will be mine no matter what anyone says…”
“No, wait a minute, you idiot. How are you going to go find him? I heard that the possessed person has already left for his own world in the first place. So how are you going to go find him?”
“It’s okay. There is a way.”
“So how do you know that? Ellen. I understand how you feel, but there’s nothing you can do here. You’re just an ordinary student. To be honest, you don’t have any great power or any great magic.”
“That’s right.”
“But how are you going to find someone who has gone to another world!”
Guero suddenly became angry. It was always like this when I felt like I was going beyond being stupid and acting out some weird nonsense.
I took a deep breath and looked at Guero’s angry face. Now that she’s gone, she may be the only person in this world who cares about me. That’s why she was very hesitant to reveal my secret now.
But I couldn’t hide it anymore. The past buried deep in my heart was finally preparing to take flight, flipping its heavy fin. Even the one who had been sleeping in the deep sea of memories now had to come to the surface. Because a tsunami is rising in my world. Because a storm has arrived.
I slowly parted my lips, feeling the pain piercing the back of my neck.
“Because Guero.”
“Please don’t do anything stupid…”
“Because I am also from another world.”
“…What?”
I finally brought out the last secret I had been hiding. It felt like my heart had been pulled out of my body. I wonder if I might hear the goddess’ words from somewhere. I listened quietly. But the next moment I heard Guero’s voice.
“What do you mean, Ellen?”
“Literally.”
“No, I mean, what kind of bullsh*t is that?”
“Have you never once questioned this? Where on earth did such a lack of common sense and fearlessness come from?”
“That’s just you being weird…”
“I’m not used to the monarchy system, so I always speak informally to nobles. I use strange words I’ve never heard of before and talk about common sense that I know to myself. This crazy guy even uses strange military martial arts that are not in the imperial military uniform. “Have you ever really wondered where you came from?”
“That’s…”
“Everything. It was because I was a human from another world, Guero.”
I glanced at Yuna. This was a secret I didn’t even tell her. Still, she must have guessed it to some extent, and ended up with a hint of discomfort on her face.
But Guero was looking at me with an expression of astonishment that went beyond surprise.
Just by looking at her expression, I could see that reason and logic were violently clashing within her. Even though I thought it couldn’t possibly be the case, the sense of discomfort I’ve been feeling must keep rising as evidence for what I said. Guero pondered my words for a long time and finally opened her mouth.
“Are you…Really from another world? Like that possessor?”
“That may be a little different. Because I was completely dead in the previous world. Fortunately, the goddess showed me mercy and I was able to be reborn in this world. She is like a mother to me. She gave me a second chance and brought back painful memories. “You erased almost everything.”
“You…”
“But you couldn’t erase everything. That’s why I suffered from the memories that came up from time to time. I couldn’t even tell you. I thought it was a terrible memory for you to understand. Of course, thinking about it now, it was stupid. You were stupid. “I would have understood it somehow, like always.”
“…Then Ellen.”
Guero suddenly interrupted me. And she asked me with a slightly trembling voice.
“Is it because you came from another world that you became friends with Illya, a deaf elf?”
“That’s not it, Guero.”
“The reason you got along with me, a beastman, without hesitation. Was it because you came from another world?”
“It’s not like that, Guero.”
“You matched my stupidity. Is that why you were able to do that?”
“…”
I kept my mouth shut. I wondered to myself whether I could really deny that it was not true. The agony of a prisoner that I did not know was shaking in Guero’s expression.
“…Ha. Damn.”
But it didn’t suit Guero to worry as much as I did. The guy immediately shook his head and started telling a random story.
“Miss Yuna. Do you smoke?”
“Huh? Oh…No.”
“Then take a break. I’m going to smoke some cigarettes with Ellen.”
Guero naturally stood up and nodded towards me. She said, ‘You don’t smoke.’ I couldn’t say something stupid like that.
So I just followed him. He was always the type of guy who would come up with an excuse to go outside whenever he wanted to clear his head. Huge footsteps clattered in front of me.
Soon, a clear sky stretched out before my eyes. It was late summer, and a lukewarm wind was blowing comfortably in a world where the sun had lost its momentum.
“Whoa…”
Guero sighed in the blowing wind. I couldn’t help but laugh at the sight of all the decorations shaking ungainly. In the end, I couldn’t bear it anymore and pointed it out.
“Where on earth did you buy that?”
“…I just bought it. I thought it looked pretty.”
“Buy something good instead of cheap. It makes you look even worse.”
“You idiot, you say cute things don’t suit my body. But if you buy something big, you can’t afford the price. So you’re just buying a fake.”
“If that’s the case, don’t buy it.”
“I didn’t know, but I have a tendency to spend money. It’s all because of you, man. You showed me how to taste money…”
I burst out laughing helplessly. Guero frowned at her and eventually she smiled and smiled as if she couldn’t help it. Our eyes turned to the swaying grass in the distance. It was so refreshing that it felt like cold dew would fall down just by looking at it.
“Until I first saw you, I was eating grass on the playground. Now I can’t eat it because it doesn’t suit my taste.”
“Do you know how surprised I was back then?”
“I guess there were no people eating grass on the side of the road in that world. For some reason, I was so surprised. When I thought about it, it was a bit strange, too. At the time, I just thought it was my first time seeing a beastman.”
“Well… Didn’t you get used to it pretty quickly? Considering you came from a different world.”
“That’s right, you idiot. Oh, then you just did it because it was common sense in that world to just touch your friend’s breasts?”
“Oh, that’s just me being weird.”
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“A truly pathetic bastard…”
The tail that was fluttering lightly tapped my side. I also hit the guy’s ankle with my foot for no reason. Of course, due to the difference in physique, it was not a meaningful hit. Guero shook his head and then spit out a swear word.
“You’re such a bastard.”
“I know.”
“Ha…A real pestilence…”
Sigh-like swear words continued to pour out. But little by little, the sadness on my face disappeared. Guerro quickly regained her peace, as if the sky that had been raining suddenly became clear.
Guero was that kind of guy.
“So. Are you really going to look for it?”
In the end, Guero sighed and turned his gaze to me. I gave her a sincere nod.
“Yes. Do whatever it takes.”
“Have you decided?”
“I don’t think I can live without her.”
“…”
“And that child can’t live without me anymore.”
“Is that so?”
Guero did not question. He added no objections. He simply nodded his head calmly. I don’t know what I’m thinking now, but I let those thoughts continue to chase me.
“… Well, how many women in this world would like you?”
But Guero soon reached a clear conclusion and put his hands in his pockets. Both him and me. I wasn’t really suited to having serious conversations. It’s just that if you think the other person is going to do something stupid, at least watch over them to the point where they don’t fall for it.
That was our way of proving our friendship to each other.
“So. Going to look for it means going to that world directly?”
“Yes.”
“Are you sure that it’s the same world she went to?”
“Okay, you guy.”
“So what does nobleman mean, you idiot…?”
That’s right. What did that mean?
Maybe it means that I come from the same world as Yuna.
Guero shrugged her shoulders as if she was tired of it. She then opened her mouth, pretending to blow her whistle into the air.
“Is it possible to come back?”
“I don’t know.”
“If you find her, come visit sometime. Because I miss her too. I really mean it.”
“I’ll try my best.”
Light speaking tone. Words thrown around like a joke. As always, Guero swept away her worries in just a few minutes. She then took a deep breath and said.
“Anyway. You didn’t just call me to talk about this. You probably called me because you need help. Isn’t that right?”
“I really wanted to talk to you one last time, but that’s true.”
“What if I refuse?”
“I brought a lot of money to give to you.”
“Oh my.”
Guero grinned as I took out her money bag. Then he asked in a much more relaxed tone.
“So. What do you need?”
When I saw his mischievous smile, I felt like my heart was becoming lighter. This is what it means to be a good friend. I tried to make the illusion sincere and said simply.
“Fire.”