“… … ”
After changing clothes and bringing him to bed, Lizzy fell asleep in an instant.
Ferzen, who had been silently watching her for a while, closed the door of the hospital room and went out.
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My body trembled with the wind blowing because my uniform was wet.So Ferzen walked to a sparsely populated place for a while and quietly took out a cigarette and began to smoke.
The complicated thoughts that are not disturbed by the smoke coming out of the mouth make my brain dizzy… …
For some reason, I have no desire to subdue them.
‘Loer, Cesar.’
The reason you guys worked so hard to save Lizzie wasn’t just family love.
If your intention was to harass me, what a success.
‘Be willing to raise the cup of toast in the underworld.’
But if it wasn’t that, he just wished for Lizzy’s happiness, even in the slightest bit.
‘… … Your death is not a sacrifice, but a cowardly escape.’
Ferzen threw the burnt tobacco on the floor, crushed it with her feet and moved on.
* * * * *
“… … ”
On the way back to the mansion after the execution of the death row inmate.
Laura looked at Yuriel in the carriage, and then turned her head out the window.
Since Yuriel’s condition doesn’t look very good, she doesn’t want to make eye contact as much as possible.
It wouldn’t change anything just because he comforted him in the first place.
Execution of death row inmates prior to going to war.
It doesn’t just end at the line hitting the neck.
To be precise, it was the most brutal way to kill.
In the case of knights, they cut off the target’s body little by little and watched the death row inmates struggling in pain.
In the case of wizards, hold the strands toward the exploding target’s body.
Undoubtedly, the battlefield creates countless scenes of even more horrific forms, otherwise the meaning of preparing in advance will not fade.
On the other hand, in the case of Laura herself, she was not harmed by the memories of her previous life.
To put it bluntly, he probably didn’t feel any excitement at all.
The number of people killed by his own hands was not small, and the devastation he committed with his family in the basement of the mansion is comparable to the horrors of war in some ways.
It would be ridiculous to tremble at the brutal killing of just one death row inmate.
‘… … Like this or that.’
After all, Laura looked up at the sky quietly, thinking that she was like a girl who grew up in a prestigious family.
If there is one thing that worries me a little, today is the day when the full moon rises.
If Yuriel wants Ferzen to comfort her, what should she do?
A light sigh leaks out of such anguish.
But, as if such worries were a luxury, Yuriel, who arrived at the mansion, hinted.
“Laura. He… … Please tell me when Ferzen returns.”
“… … ”
“For today, I don’t want anyone to come into my room.”
again.
Without hearing her answer, Yuriel, who entered the room, locks the door as it is.
“… … ”
Was this trying to convey to Ferzen his will to come to comfort him?
No, it certainly wasn’t, Laura thought.
There is no Euphemia here in the first place, so there is no need for Yuriel to do such a troublesome thing.
So, that’s because he didn’t want to show Ferzen the hardship he had by killing only one death row inmate.
‘… … You’re strong.’
In a different meaning from the feelings I had in the carriage.
After all, Laura thought that she was a woman from a prestigious family and stepped into her bedroom.
* * * * *
creak.
As soon as she entered her room, Yuriel sat down on the bed and grabbed her trembling hand tightly.
Alfred is a family that dominates the dark districts of the Ernes Empire, so he has watched the lives and deaths of people living in misery since childhood, but… …
There was a huge sense of disparity between simply seeing and experiencing directly.
It seems that the bodies of the prisoners that were still exploding by his magic are still burning in front of his eyes.
Fragments of organs clinging to the walls of the prison and wriggling minutely.
Bone fragments that I can’t figure out which part they belonged to.
It is so easy for just one person to become something that even a shape cannot be recognized.
The battlefield must be the place where not only Ferzen, but also himself has the potential to be like that.
“Ha, ah, ha… … ”
What the hell was he insisting on Ferzen that day when he was trembling because he couldn’t bear even this much?
However, to that extent, Ferzen, who is at the forefront, is deeply aware of the risks he bears.
In my mind, really.
If there is a disconnected world that no one can find, would you want to run away with Ferzen? …
Knowing all too well that it was a meaningless assumption, Yuriel only tried to refine her weak self in the mirror as much as possible.
“… … ”
Then, suddenly, I turn my head and look at the empty table, and I have a strong desire to borrow alcohol.
However, how can you force a child to grow up to see the most horrific sight in the world from the inside out to relieve his burden?
At that, Yuriel gently caressed her lower belly and closed her eyes.
‘baby… … ‘
After going through this difficult time.
‘For me and for you… … ‘
I will give you the most beautiful and happiest life.
* * * * *
4 pm.
Returning to the mansion, Ferzen wondered if Laura and Yuriel had not yet returned in an excessively quiet atmosphere.
But there’s no way the wagon parked inside the mansion would have returned alone.
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Moving on to him, in front of Yuriel’s room, Ferzen tried to knock, but… …“Oh, no… … ”
“… … ”
Kik, Laura, who opens the door and comes out, stops it.
“What do you mean?”
“Oh, today… … Ah, no one told me to take it in… … Ha, you said… … ”
“… … ”
Obviously, it doesn’t appear that Laura is lying to her.
After all, there’s no reason for her to lie to herself like that in the first place.
“Is that so?”
So Ferzen lowered her hand to knock, and quietly turned her back.
The reason why Yuriel doesn’t allow anyone to meet, including herself, must be because she doesn’t want to show any of her weakness.
… … In my mind, rather than respecting the will, it is because of that.
I want to be by your side and become Yuriel’s strength.
However, Ferzen herself knew better than her present self would not be of any help to her.
Yuriel, who is quick-witted, would rather try to give it to herself rather than seek comfort for her.
… … If the main guest becomes an evangelist, there would be no meaning in forcing the door to open.
“Don’t let me hear you in the evening.”
Ferzen threw those words at Laura and entered her bedroom.
* * * * *
red sunset
The sunset looking through the window signaled that night would come in a little while, so Laura left her bedroom and quietly moved to another room.
If he suffered from a eccentricity in his bedroom, all the noise that reverberated in the process would be heard even in the room where Yuriel was staying.
Ferzen wouldn’t want it either, so Laura entered the right empty room and began to prepare herself.
‘… … I don’t think it’s strange.’
It was a room with few furniture, but a large full-length mirror existed, so Laura, who stood in front of it, looked at herself and swallowed the awkwardness.
Originally, I tended to wear cheap clothes sold at the market because the clothes I wore during the process of suffering from eccentricity got dirty.
Now she is dressed like a wife welcoming her husband on the first night.
In particular, the light makeup that trims the pale skin that is not pure white reveals the charm of cuteness to her, and adds the charm of bewitching.
This is also a reflection of the desire to look good to Ferzen, but at least this night when the full moon fell.
It was because he wanted him to realize that he was not having s*x with a beast called himself, but that he was intermingling with a woman called Laura.
Laura, who had completed all the basic preparations, quietly waited for Ferzen, and gently looked at her reflection in the mirror once more and touched her chest area.
‘I’ve never had any dissatisfaction with the body I’m living right now… … ‘
Of course, there were many times when my fragile skin was bothered by the intense sunlight.
He had never felt sorry for such a poor body.
But now, Laura burst into laughter as she thought about what it would have been like to have a more mature woman like herself in a previous life.
How could it not be funny to see herself, no different than a female, who rolls her feet in hopes of being looked upon by a young man at least once.
‘I can understand how prostitutes with l*wd bodies that make you feel vulgar and needlessly high in self-esteem.’
From that point of view, Laura felt a strange displeasure, thinking that even Euphemia, with a low background, had only one thing better than herself.
click.
But before she could even ponder the subtle discomfort, as Ferzen opened the door and entered, Laura gave up her thoughts and lifted her head.
“… … ”
percussion.
Closing the door without a word, he walks to the chair in front of the window and sits down without even giving a glance.
Either way, I want you to spit out your feelings about your current outfit.
But before she could harbor such disappointment, Laura, who smelled the strong smell of tobacco and alcohol, carefully examined Ferzen’s mood.
… … What should I say?
It’s like watching a wolf wandering around in winter, exhausted from finding food.
Even though I wondered what the hell made a man named Ferzen so hard.
In light of his usual words and deeds, I thought it would be a little uncomfortable to show such a side to others.
‘ah… … ‘
Then, suddenly, Laura realized that Ferzen and her eyes met.
He is the one who will lose his mind after a while, so it would be no wonder to reflect such an image.
In particular, his red eyes that contained him seemed to be looking at the only prey he had found in the empty snow-covered field.
“… … ”
Yes, maybe Ferzen is trying to excrete all the emotions he has now for himself, who will soon lose his mind.
Laura, who vaguely noticed this, felt really shaky.
After a while, on this bed, he will be rolled into the emotional trash can of a man named Ferzen, and a s*men container that only collects its by-products.
But the one who reveals his weakest side and can be comforted by it is that he suffers from a eccentricity.
… … It was strangely disliked, but it was also good.
However, if there is one thing I regret.
It would mean that the clothes you are wearing and the light makeup you put on will be useless.
‘I wish I wasn’t ignorantly stabbed… … ‘
After all, he will ignorantly try to covet his body, so it is inevitable that a situation closer to copulation than mating is unavoidable.
As the sunset beyond the window completely disappears, a full moon that is brighter than ever before rises and decorates the night sky.