250─The Underworld
Ferzen, who had been walking for a while, stopped.
It is a separate area that exists on the first floor of the Underworld and belongs to the Underworld but has independent characteristics—a place where all beings in this world go through reincarnation.
Souls are punished here according to the karma they possess, and maintain their ego only during that time period.
At other times, he wanders around here as a lost ghost.
And after the process was over, I went back into the cycle of reincarnation and lived my life as a mortal cog in the cycle of life and death, determined by the providence of the world.
“…… “
Ferzen said nothing for a while as he looked at Lizzy’s spirit wandering around this place in front of him.
A warlock offering himself as a sacrifice.
Why would the monsters react immediately to that action?
This is because, among the karma accumulated during a mortal life, humans can only take the good karma that can be converted into karma, which subtracts the bad karma.
Therefore, it was possible for the human soul that flowed into the underworld through the relevant act to go straight into the cycle of reincarnation if it had not committed any evil deeds.
Other than that, I would just receive all the mistakes I made during my life as punishment, just like now.
Ah…… Ah……
Fersen carefully stretched out his hand as he saw Lizzie letting out an emotionless voice as she bumped into him who was blocking the path in front of the corner where she was wandering.
“It wouldn’t be pleasant for you to be reunited with me even after death.”
No, it would be unpleasant.
If you were one of the parts entrenched in mortal time, unable to escape the cycle of reincarnation.
But since she didn’t do that, even if she tried to awaken her ego, she would only feel extreme helplessness and frustration.
She sacrificed her own life, in effect using the worst means she could as the best means.
The moment you realize that it means nothing, is it even worth not despairing?
But now that she has come this far, does she really have to worry about that?
It was also funny that she felt pity for her situation.
How she wanted to end things with her here in the first place was even a question for Fersen.
He is here because he is hoping for an answer, but he has no idea what the answer he actually wants is.
No, there was an answer I was secretly hoping for.
Lizzy demands that all of César and Roère’s punishments, including hers, be ended and put into the cycle of her reincarnation.
Fersen was secretly hoping that this would bring this relationship to a clear end.
But apart from wanting, what is this extremely unpleasant feeling?
The question was short.
Perhaps this is the feeling of guilt that I have been ignoring all along.
During my time in this world, sticking to the shackles of a villain was the best way to survive, but now I know there is no need to do that.
That’s probably why she’s struggling with the guilt that she buried in a corner of her mind and didn’t face.
In a word, the emotion is not a one-sided balance, but a desire for a rational and equal balance.
However, the reason she does not want to accept it is because her initial steps were not her own will.
The reason I was reincarnated in this world through a human body was because it was a clear intention.
“…… “
However, the end point reached at the end of this terrible self-justification is that, like herself, she is also carrying an irrationality that she should not have to bear.
He says he receives compensation from the gods of the heavens.
Who can Lizzy receive in return for that?
In fact, it would be cowardly to even question this.
Because the only target will be yourself.
Her roots may have been them, but the irrationality she carries is ultimately a branch derived from herself.
Even though she was only a speck of dust for a short period of time, didn’t she learn while living as a human named Fersen?
Sin was sin.
No lame rhetoric can be added there.
To deny that fact would also mean to deny the life of a human called Fersen who was sent from this world.
Because ultimately, what she chose was to become a villain, living a life stained with bad karma.
‘If it was going to be like this…’ … ‘
She should have lived a little more shamelessly.
Did she say too lightly that she would pay for her sins if she died and came to the underworld?
Tuk.
With a self-deprecating smile suddenly seeping out, Ferzen lightly tapped Lizzy’s forehead.
* * * * *
As if hovering in a forest covered in thick fog.
As if she had sunk beneath her cozy abyss and could not even see the reflected sunlight, Lizzie trembled reflexively as her dazed mind rose to the surface.
Because what waited after this was a series of pains that I didn’t even want to think about.
“Ah…… “
But no matter how long she waited, the punishment was not carried out.
On the contrary, Lizzy lifted her head from her bowed position with a strange sense of relief at the warmth she had felt for the first time in a very long time.
“…… “
At the end, Lizzy is mesmerized for a long time by the sight of her man, Fersen, seen in her own eyes……
“Ha…… Ahahahaha…… !”
She started to laugh.
Is this the punishment being carried out this time?
“Ha…… Aha…… Ah…… Argh!”
No, I hope so, Lizzy cried loudly.
His warmth that embraces you.
The feeling of him embracing me.
If all of this is not a punishment to be executed, how far is this world willing to be cruel to itself?
“Lizzy.”
“…… “
“It’s been a long time.”
“Great…… hehehehe…… ! Huh…… ! Flaw…… hahahaha…… Ahahahaha!”
Lizzie doesn’t know how long she spent here, as she only regained her sense of self when her punishment was carried out.
Still, I knew very well that this scene itself made no sense.
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The good news was that since he was just a ghost, she could not show him tears, but since everything else was stained with misfortune, Lizzie laughed for a while, then lowered her head to the side and spoke in a low voice.
“Crazy, bastard…” … “
He said what on earth did he do so wrong?
He said he had committed such a mortal sin.
Do you mean to chase after someone who is already dead and follow them to the underworld?
“Crazy guy…… You are crazy──! “You’re crazy——!”
“…… “
“What do you want by coming here to visit me? Did you try to gouge out my eyeballs? Did you try to cut off my ear? Did you try to break my leg? If not, did you want to see me cry? Or even worse, pissing in front of you? Under…… Ahahahaha! It’s a shame. “I, who am only a soul, cannot give that to you.”
“…… “
“Yes, I can’t give it to you!”
“…… “
“So please go back…” … If only I could see myself so ugly and miserable even after I die! Just be satisfied with that and go away——!”
A voice filled with despair.
Purple eyes stained with frustration and despair.
Facing all of that in silence, Fersen stretched out her hands and gently cupped her cheeks.
“Didn’t you tell me?”
If you can, try to twist the laws of the underworld.
And didn’t I tell you?
“If I die and go to the underworld…… “Only then will I pay for my sins.”
I won’t say I’m sorry in vain.
Whether in this world or now, I had no intention of being forgiven.
You, too, will never have to forgive me.
Sureuk.
Lifting her right hand that was cupping her cheek, Fersen, coagulating her own karma, taps her forehead once more.
Then, along with her karma that he was carrying, the memories of part of her underworld and her life as a human named Fersen were passed on to Lizzy……
“Okay…… Ah…… ! Argh!”
It began to cause intense pain as if my soul was being torn apart.
Then Fersen carefully put Lizzy down from her arms, sat down near her, and slowly waited for her process to stabilize.
Since about half of the karma has been handed over, even if it stabilizes, it will not last long.
Also, although it is possible to consume it in any form, it cannot be radiated.
It was an inherent limitation of the human soul.
As a result, Lizzie will naturally realize through the memories she has inherited that she cannot destroy herself here.
…… Can this be called cowardice?
But this was the best worthiness and rationality she could show.
Isn’t this level of cowardice okay in the first place?
He was a villain.
‘So Lizzy.’
When I wake up and open my eyes, no one can punish me.
…… You, be the only scale.
I may have been the one who started the bad relationship.
You might be right about tying it up.