251─The Underworld
Can’t move.
Lizzy, who was contemplating the life of a hateful man named Fersen and feeling like she was trapped in a solitary confinement from which she could not escape, laughed out loud.
Because the memories of Lee Seo-jin as a person were excluded, there were rare times when I couldn’t understand the motivation behind his actions……
No, in fact, it was funny that he even understood it.
The beginning of a life marred by helplessness, frustration, and despair.
The unfolding of a life marred by despair, urgency, and unrelenting pursuit.
And the ending of life that ends in resignation and compliance.
Why do you have to “Understand” All of this yourself?
The reason he was able to understand in the first place was probably because the emotions he felt at that moment were also pushed through memories that were directly dug into.
The most disgusting thing among them all……
Uriel.
Laura.
Euphemia.
Jeremiah.
Raymond.
Elizabeth et al.
It was a process in which he realized his own happiness through his relationship with them.
That’s why Lizzy erased all those feelings through the karma handed over to her by Fersen.
Although there was some awkwardness in dealing with karma, there were no mistakes because I naturally became aware of how to use it.
Then, naturally, pure anger and hatred begin to fill the void.
I can’t sympathize with you.
I wonder what is going on inside that I cannot tell others.
Life is falling apart.
The family disappears.
My family left.
Even if you put your own life marked by that tragedy on one side, and your inner situation on the other side.
The scale shows a clear asymmetry and is simply tilted.
Although he knew the value of happiness through his relationships, he took it away from himself.
He was given unreasonableness that had nothing to do with his will, and he gave it to himself in the same way.
…… Even though he knew all that from the beginning, didn’t he insist on doing evil deeds at every crossroads?
If he thought it was for the best, he would have at least maintained that disgust until the end.
He was so disgusting that he couldn’t bear to take on such a trivial form of atonement.
Wow!
She slowly raised her body that was lying down, staggered towards the person who was looking at her, and raised his hand……
Wow!
I hit that cheek harshly.
It is possible to bend the causality by consuming karma.
Lizzy was furious because it was impossible to emit karma and physically hit him ─ consuming the karma he had.
No, it was possible to diverge.
That is only a handful of karma.
Because of this, the time it takes for one’s soul to collapse without being able to withstand this karma will be faster than the time it takes to release it all.
“Disgusting until the end.”
“…… “
“Don’t put the word atonement in that snout. Isn’t this just something you do to ease your uncomfortable feelings? “Are you telling me to block out everything that could be the worst for you and have me become your scale?”
Lizzy grabbed Fersen’s face with both hands and made him face her, chewing his lips roughly.
Because she was just a soul, no blood came out, but it is not difficult to guess how intense the resentment her distorted face was.
“I cannot open my eyes and watch you live a happy life as you return to this world, removing all the irrationality that bound you.”
“…… “
“Even if it doesn’t destroy you or prevent the act itself…… Okay. “What do you think about me being reincarnated as a child carried by a woman named Euphemia?”
If not that.
“Yuriel sister…… No, it would be funny to call her sister. “What if Yuri El can’t have her children?”
Again.
“What if Rosenberg’s daughter is forcibly raised to such a level that she can no longer be managed with your own hands?”
“…… “
“I guess it wouldn’t be a bad idea to become the wife of the Marquis Jeremiah, the only blood relative you care so much about. I will embrace him in the width of my skirt, corrupt Brutein, and then bring down the imperial family together. Yeah, this looks the best. “I’d like to hear what you think.”
Lizzy brings her face closer and mutters in a low voice filled with deep resentment.
“Say something with that proud mouth.”
“…… “
“Tell me——!”
Wow!
“Say it!”
Wow!
“Tell me——!”
Perhaps because Fersen was frustrated with her silence, Lizzy slapped him on the cheek several times and urged him to give her answer.
In response, Fersen lowered her head while holding onto her collar and opened her mouth to Lizzy, who was shaking all over because she could not overcome her anger.
“…… “If you have looked at my memories, you already know the answer best.”
Lizzie will not be able to harm her due to the relationships she has built.
No, she won’t exactly.
Because, rather than revenge, it would be an expression of anger at not being able to destroy oneself in this place due to the inherent limitations of the human soul.
And is it possible for her to completely follow the way of life of the person she hated so much, Fersen, who insisted on her evil deeds for her own purposes?
Her family leaves.
The family collapses.
Burying the cruel irrationality of her life being ruined not to herself but to others.
If this results in the person called “Fersen von Schweig Brutein” And the person called “Lizzi Paul Liana Clodia” Becoming equal.
…… At that point, it was as if she could ask no more of herself.
Of course, from Fersen’s perspective, Lizzy’s method would be the most painful.
However, from Lizzie’s perspective, it would not be acceptable for others to receive the compensation rather than Fersen himself.
“I…… I don’t think I can do it…… ?”
“If you really want to do that, I should kneel here and pray to you.”
When Lizzy said that she was going to use up the karma she had received in that way, she could easily have made up for it from Ferzen’s point of view.
However, the amount of karma consumed to compensate for it will not be small, so naturally, your position in the underworld will decrease.
Even if you hit the rock bottom, the moment you clearly realize that you have become weak, the monsters will try to climb up by inducing you to consume your karma.
Isn’t the previous owner of the Underworld, whose name has been forgotten, desperately showing what the end will be like?
Actually, if you really have to ask, that is a secondary reason.
No, it would be unfair to say that it is secondary.
Your position in the underworld becomes weaker when a long period of time passes.
It was consistent with the fact that the souls of Uriel and Euphemia, who had died, could not be held in the pantheon.
‘…… ‘
And when she confirmed her own purpose and her resolve again, Fersen couldn’t help but laugh inside her.
Because I found it fascinating that I was struggling to continue the relationship in this world to the underworld.
Even if the goal was achieved, there was no guarantee that the future would be smooth.
Just because it wasn’t subject to the flow of time, it didn’t mean it was eternal.
As the man whose name has been forgotten said, eternity is a utopia that no one can reach—a utopia where only dreaming is allowed.
But despite this, Fersen dared to get his hands on it.
Even if it is impossible to make a mortal immortal, it is certainly possible to draw a mortal that is infinitely close to immortality.
“Then kneel somewhere.”
Finally, when Lizzie raised her head and said that to herself, Fersen bowed his body without any hesitation.
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He bowed down to a mere human soul, a mere part of the order of the world.
Ferzen clearly thought that Lizzie would not choose to pass on her irrationality to others……
As long as there was even the slightest possibility, the obvious person at this moment was him.
“Is this all? I and my family know what it’s like to beg to the point of despair! That day──! I desperately showed you…… ?”
Lizzy, laughing and distorting her expression, forces Fersen to show further humiliation.
In response, Fersen willingly bowed his head at her feet.
“Ha…… Ahahahaha…… !”
And Lizzie, who was looking at her like that, trampled her Fersen’s head with her own feet and howled like a beast.
“It’s so easy…… “I can do it like this——!”
Why on earth is this happening, not at that moment?
Do I have to come now?
If I had done that at that moment on that day, this result would not have occurred.
What makes her even more angry is that she knows very well what Fersen’s motivation is for such actions.
Clearly, as he thought, Lizzy could not make such a choice.
The fact that Fersen does not receive the price for his unreasonableness is, of course, unacceptable.
Because she was so disgusted that as a result of such an outburst, she and he became the same.
No, aside from being disgusting, it was so unfair.
The perpetrator is definitely him.
In order to return the pain he felt, why must he, the victim, become just like him?
Why should I, the victim, bear the burden of bad karma?
“aaah!”
Lizzie stretched out her hands and let out a cry of despair, hitting Ferzen on the head and tearing out his hair, pouring out all her suppressed emotions.
She wants Fersen to return all the frustration, despair, and pain she felt.
For that purpose, he does not want to get his hands dirty and wants to remain a victim until the end.
…… Is this really a wrong wish?
No, that was clearly not the case, so humans would create laws to punish sins.
Maintenance of public order.
The human utopia that the nation desires for its people.
There may be various perspectives on the “Law,” But in the end, Lizzy thought that it was a means to eliminate the absurdity of the victim becoming the perpetrator in order to punish the perpetrator.
But neither the law in this world nor the order in the underworld dared to punish him.
In the midst of the terrible injustice that bound her until the end, all she had left was her twisted balance.