[Side Story] Lizzy Paul Liana Ruerg – Love and Hate
People often say that colds are the source of all diseases, but that statement is half right and half wrong.
Symptoms of most diseases all have the same cold-related symptoms, but they do not originate from a cold.
However, in the case of a child with a weak immune system, it was also a reasonable statement.
Is that why?
The doctor who was examining Lobelia, who had fallen unconscious, bit his lip without realizing it.
Fever blooms are red spots that appear all over the body along with high fever.
Could this really be meningitis, or even sepsis?
Well, what does that mean?
If the former is neglected, the child will naturally develop the latter as well.
‘…… High.’
When the blood of Lobelia is drawn and sprinkled into a long, transparent tube containing a specific substance, more than half of it becomes sediment.
Evidence that the level of inflammation in the body is extremely high.
As there were no medical records regarding the disease, the clinician, who went through a basic examination process before using antibiotics, soon injected the antibiotic into Lobelia’s skin—more precisely, the thin epidermal layer.
The world’s doctors have conducted countless clinical experiments using parasites that use human corpses as hosts.
Among them, there were quite a few cases where people died due to hypersensitivity to antibiotics, so skin reaction tests are conducted in advance in this way.
It takes about 10 minutes to know the results.
But looking at the child’s condition, even 10 minutes seemed dangerous, so I gave him fluid mixed with fever reducers and turned his head back.
Lizzy was there, trembling from the shock that never went away.
“Looking at the bloodshot eyes, it is highly likely that it is meningitis. “As long as you don’t have a hypersensitivity reaction to antibiotics, you can get better within a week.”
“If I come out…… “
“The only way to do this is to consistently administer fluids mixed with fever reducers, control the fever as much as possible, and then hope that the child will overcome it on his own. If the child’s body does not improve and it continues for a long time, sepsis will spread to the child’s body, and in the worst case, surgery will be inevitable…… As you know, the survival rate for pediatric laparotomy is not high.”
Most doctors tend to avoid pediatric surgery, even in modern times where civilization has developed much further.
Even if there is sufficient skill, if the person undergoing the surgery does not have the stamina to keep up, the result is table death.
No matter how advanced medical science is, what meaning does pediatric surgery have in a place where it is only a relative standard?
“So irresponsible…… !”
“Yes. From the moment they go beyond the scope of medical practice, they have no choice but to become irresponsible to their patients. “The best we can do is to let them leave without suffering, or to stay by their side and sentence them to death.”
Looking at Lizzie’s face, which was stained with sadness, shock, and anger, the congressman answered in a calm voice and then clenched his fists.
A variety of teachings are basically given to doctors, but the most important thing is to first give up what made the patient sick.
However, this is the most difficult element to realize.
Alcohol.
Early of the year.
Drugs.
Even if we were told not to do those typical things, how many people would follow them?
If you broaden your perspective, there are many more things scattered around, but in a class-based society, it is difficult to even make such a remonstrance.
Even now, the lawmaker agonized over whether or not to say the words that were rising to the top of his lungs, but he eventually made a decision and continued speaking.
“Why is it that children who are always speechless and able to have conversations? What is that? “I live with this saying.”
“…… “
“Also, unlike adults, they purely express what they feel and the emotions they harbor. “I don’t like it, I like it, I’m hungry, it hurts.”
But.
“Seeing as how a child with a mild cold has reached this point…… I don’t think he said it hurt. Isn’t it?”
“…… “
“What made your daughter sick was the environment that did not even allow such expressions for a child who was speechless.”
The doctor turned his back on Lizzie, who couldn’t say anything and her lips were trembling.
Fortunately, he did not show hypersensitivity to antibiotics, so antibiotics were mixed into the fluid that was flowing in.
“…… If you want to cut, cut as much as you want. “I will stop by again at lunch.”
If we consider Ruerg’s status, which is different from the past, he said something that a mere member of the National Assembly should not have said.
But I thought I had no regrets.
Is it true that a doctor can only prescribe medicine, give injections, and cut flesh?
Medicine began with the purpose of treating pain.
The lawmaker, who thought there was no specific category, soon opened the door and went outside.
Finch!
Then, the person who greets him is the owner of Ruerg, standing quietly next to him.
“Did you hear everything…… “
“Why can’t I hear when my ears are pierced?”
The congressman’s entire body was shaking as he looked down at the oppressive red eyes, but he still did not utter an apology until the end.
And Fersen, who looked away with a grave expression on his face, opened his mouth.
“Let’s go. “If you had said you were sorry as soon as you saw my face, I would have thought you were being shallow, but it seems that wasn’t the case.”
“hahahaha…… “
In fact, he is a member of the National Assembly who was trembling with fear from the moment he saw Fersen and wondered if he had said that for no reason.
However, when he saw Fersen letting him go without saying anything, the congressman actually burst into laughter.
He was just too stiff to say he was sorry.
‘Did you mistake the fact that I didn’t run away because I didn’t have the courage to think I had courage?’
The lawmaker who was walking was overcome with a deep sense of self-destruction.
“Thank you.”
However, at Fersen’s next words, he stopped walking and looked out the window where the sun was shining.
It was not the belief, but the shame of oneself for holding that belief……
He felt fortunate.
* * * * *
After opening the door and entering, Fersen looked down at Lizzy, who was shedding tears with a haggard expression next to Lobelia.
Did he not care about himself, or did he not even feel like he was popular?
He is busy stroking his daughter’s haggard cheeks with his thin hands and tidying up the hair stuck to her forehead.
“Lizzy.”
“…… “
“Is this what you wanted?”
“Get out…… “
“This is a request I cannot grant.”
Before coming here, Fersen, who was holding the diary he found in the child’s room, handed it over to Lizzy.
“Ah…… “
「 August 19th. 」
My sister was sick.
My dad and my sister’s mom looked friendly.
Would I be like that if I got sick?
「 August 27th. 」
I caught a cold.
Will the relationship between mom and dad get better now?
Your father will be with you on your birthday now, right?
.
.
.
「 September 1st. 」
I have a fever!
The relationship between mom and dad will get better for a long time.
Sloppy sentences made up of crooked letters that are embarrassing to even be called handwriting.
But on the contrary, Lobelia’s feelings contained in the diary were felt directly and without any lies.
“Lizzy. “I had doubts once in a while.”
“…… “
“If you want Lobelia to grow up through Ruerg’s discord, why don’t you directly show me abusing you? Of course, I kept that question to myself until now. “Because there was no benefit in provoking you for no reason.”
Even if there are many excuses that it will be a shock beyond simple trauma to a child who is still young.
There was something clumsy in Lizzy’s method, and Fersen responded in a shallow way without even bothering to point out that point.
Because I could have immediately avoided being seen as a completely wrong father to my child.
But after reading Lobelia’s diary, Fersen changed his mind about her.
“You and I are just putting on a trivial, third-rate play.”
“…… “
“If it weren’t for that, Lobelia like this wouldn’t have existed.”
Fersen, who pulled out her chair and sat down next to her, confessed her true feelings a little more honestly.
“I definitely expected that you would be held back by maternal love. In the sense that you don’t necessarily want to take the same approach as me…… “Because you were a soft woman.”
Lizzy, moved to tears by those words, roughly raised her head and glared at Fersen, but for some reason, the corner of her trembling mouth could not utter a single word.
“In fact, your clumsy method and my shallow response led to this result. “I believe you won’t be asked what to do.”
Ferzen holds his hands together and repeatedly applies and releases force.
“So Lizzy. I will kick out your shallow response based on the thought that you will bend one day. I will treat you more harshly, both to the child and to you. I will look like a perfect tyrant so that you can never have such hope. But…… “Can you get rid of that clumsy way?”
“…… “
“Before Lobelia was born, you definitely told me. “My position as my wife and my child’s mother cannot take priority over wishing for my misfortune.”
The more stained by her misfortunes and tainted with malice, the sharper Lobelia will be forged.
But what is Lobelia like now?
It was too blunt and dull to stab myself.
“If what I said that day still holds true today…… Don’t be clumsy and definitely use her child as her assistant. Even if it is a twisted path, it would be better for Lobelia to not be confused. A dull blade won’t penetrate her skin in one go, so she has to stab it several times. The more it happens, the more the day gets damaged along with it. “Does she really need to increase the pain?”
“Ha. Ahahahaha…… “
After Fersen finished his long speech, Lizzy laughed and lowered her head.
“Uncharacteristic of you, why don’t you use a method of speaking that puts all the guilt on me…… “
“…… “
“Are you really going to wear that hypocritical mask until the end?”
“I have no intention of neglecting my responsibility as her parent. And I have never been hypocritical until now.”
It would be unfair to even call her hypocrisy since she only used the kindness she once gave her as the most efficient means of inflicting pain.
If we had to be serious about it, could the act of giving away part of the karma be said to be hypocritical given that it was assumed that Lizzy would break down because she was caught up in motherly love?
But if you look at it closely, it would be closer to deception rather than hypocrisy.
“I have never been hypocritical…… “Have you forgotten the day she said she would apologize to us for all her pretense?”
“It was sincere. But it wouldn’t be unreasonable if it seemed like hypocrisy covered up with pretense. “Maybe even now I will be seen as lying in a bad way.”
“Aha. Your life is so easy. “You can customize it to your taste.”
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“Given that his sincerity was not accepted, the best thing for me was to not hesitate to do the worst. Because I wasn’t a saint enough to quietly leave you alone as you prepared to hit my head with repeated apologies that might not work. In fact, since that day, has there ever been a time when I did not exist as a villain in front of you?”
Lizzy.
“You are free to think that I am being hypocritical. Because I don’t want to beg you to believe that. But if you really believe that I’m a hypocrite, then you don’t want to be like me…… “
Why are you acting hypocritical?
After saying that, Fersen slowly got up and left the room.