In the name of God (10)
Leonhardt let out a faint sigh when he saw the trembling hands that gripped the hem of his clothes pitifully.
She shrewdly did not miss the fact that he had stopped at her pleas.
“what’s the matter.”
“If you go, if you go, I think it will disappear.”
“what?”
“… this time… I think Leonhardt will disappear.”
A light laugh flowed from Leonhardt’s mouth as if the wind was escaping.
Neftam hugged her soft body, her face burning bright red with shame.
And kissed her in the eyes, on the cheek, and on the lips.
Neftam took his kiss like a mere docile doll.
As his lips parted, Neftam let out a sigh of regret.
To beg for more, it seemed, would somehow offend him.
Resignation was something she was not used to. But now it has become more familiar than anything else.
“Do you want to be with me?”
At Leonhardt’s question, Neftam hurriedly nodded.
She learned a lot.
One of them was that she had to receive when she gave, as much as she could not ask for.
He was very happy to see her acting like a well-trained puppy.
Leonhard held her with his strong arms.
Her body lifted so lightly that whenever it did, Neftam was a little scared. It was because I felt like it was a cheap thing.
“Then can you go wherever I ask you to go?”
Neftam trembled, then responded quickly even when he was afraid.
“yes.”
“okay? Even if I ask you to go to the bathroom?”
Neftam hesitated for a moment at his quivering words.
But even scarier than the bathroom was his disappearance. He disappears and this time ends. Losing his warm body temperature.
There was nothing scarier than that.
Neftam’s needs were very closely linked to his survival needs.
The priorities of the fears embedded in his brain were clear.
The hesitation was brief.
“Yes Yes. it’s okay.”
“okay.”
What if you really go to the bathtub?
Even after answering, she felt a surge of regret and wrapped her arms around his neck.
Neftam’s warm cheek touched the nape of Leonhard’s neck.
He looked at her with dark eyes and kissed her head lightly.
It wasn’t the bathroom where Leonhardt headed with her in his arms.
A large dining room with a long table appeared. Considering that it was Abyss, it was a very sophisticated and wonderful place.
He sat her down on a chair at the table.
For some reason, she seemed to be in a place where she shouldn’t be, so she looked at Leonhardt anxiously with her hips moving.
“Why are you so restless? Stay still.”
Leonhard scolded her.
Only then did Neftam forcefully stop moving and naturally apologize.
“I’m sorry… sorry.”
The words were so familiar that she didn’t even hurt her pride anymore.
It was only natural to be sorry.
“Close your eyes for a second.”
Neftam hesitated for a moment at his command, then slowly closed his eyelids.
He caressed Neftam’s soft, thin body here and there.
As the hand touched her lower abdomen, Neftam’s knees twitched briefly with tension.
does he want himself?
But it wasn’t a movement driven by lust.
It just seemed like he was trying to confirm something.
“okay. I should eat. I need to buy some with points. Okay, open your eyes.”
When Neftam opened his eyes, there was food on the table.
It was all soft food that was easy to digest.
I couldn’t figure out what had happened. Did you use magic? You won’t be able to use it in the Abyss.
However, as soon as he smelled the fragrant aroma of the food, Neftam felt a rush of hunger in an instant.
Come to think of it, when was the last time I ate proper food?
Neftam twitched his fingers with hunger, but looked at Leonhard.
His eyes, which seemed to be always wet from fear, were trembling.
“You are really gifted.”
Leonhardt looked at her and said, tidying up the loose hair and putting it behind her ear.
“You can eat it.”
Neftam picked up the tableware that was lying on it and hurriedly put food into his mouth.
However, her strength was so low that her hands trembled as she drank the soup.
Anxiety, anxiety, and finally an accident happened.
Soup dripped onto her white thighs, exposed under her long shirt.
“Oh… ”
She let out a small moan at the rushing feeling.
As soon as it loosened, the loosened tear glands reacted immediately, and large drops of water were caught in the corner of the eyes.
Leonhardt lightly wiped her thighs with his hand and licked the soup off his hands.
Neftam’s face turned red.
“it’s okay?”
“… yes.”
“I didn’t get burned. It’s stupid. Give it to me.”
Leonhardt snatched her spoon.
Then he opened her little lips and pushed food into her several times.
Whenever that happened, Neftam ate it happily.
I was hungry, so no matter how much I ate, I wasn’t full.
“under.”
She puffed out her cheeks and squirmed, blinking her eyes at his short laugh.
Thinking she did something wrong, she hurriedly gulped down the food. Then my throat got choked and I coughed.
“I’m sorry.”
“what.”
“Mo, I don’t know… ”
“It’s because I like the look.”
Neftam’s face flushed and he lowered his head.
He put the spoon down by the time she finished eating.
The amount of food was slightly more than her original amount, but the fullness felt good.
Leonhardt touched her unusually narrow belly again, only to remove his hand after confirming that it had become plump.
“let’s go. You should rest now.”
Neftam grabbed Leonhard’s hand and rose again.
I was a little sad that he didn’t hug me this time.
It was because it was best to keep the whole body in close contact.
As she held his hand and left the restaurant, she saw a mirror placed next to the door.
Looking into the mirror, Neftam stopped for an instant.
“ah.”
The person in the mirror had the servile eyes typical of someone dependent on someone.
Even so, she blushed shyly with a relaxed face satisfied with the little happiness he gave her.
A gloomy atmosphere unique to someone who had been taught somewhere in her life was flowing through her.
She had seen that face somewhere.
It was the face his younger brother, who depended on me, often used in the past.
Relying on it, clinging to it, fearing that it might be abandoned. Hungry for the affection and happiness that person gives.
He was making that face now.
“what are you doing.”
At Leonhardt’s call, Neftam reflexively averted his eyes.
Thoughts faded as if the wind had blown, then disappeared as if they were scattered.
Instead, I had a different idea.
“Am I going to die?”
Leonhardt’s words were floating in my head. That I never owned her.
right. I was never owned by him. Having never been possessed, he could abandon himself at any time.
It’s not even my thing. She realized that her situation was even worse than that.
He was a human being who could do that, but he was still curious.
He was a man who could kill himself at any moment. At the same time, he was also the one who forgave himself.
“why?”
Leonhard asked languidly as if he had expected the question.
His eyes glowed coldly. Terribly frightened, she let out a terrified, shrieking breath.
“I… ”
“Look me in the eyes and tell me.”
“I’m sorry.”
He rubbed her slender wrist, which he had locked in his hand. It seemed that if he applied force, it would break apart any moment.
It was quite nice to see her forcibly raise her eyes at his command, even though she was trembling with fear.
She shrugged her shoulders and pursed her lips for a long time.
“I am not yours.”
“… Do you want me to have you?”
At that question, Neftam’s heart skipped a beat.
There was only one answer.
“I don’t know why you ask.”
After all, she has no rights that he doesn’t grant her.
He’ll decide everything.
Leonhardt smiled deeply.
Then he wrapped his arms around her slender waist and pulled her tight.
His hand gripped the back of her neck tightly.
Leonhard’s tongue forced her dry lips back and pushed in.
His tongue found her timid little tongue hidden shyly and coveted it.
A pink tongue slid in and out between her lips, making a gurgling sound.
“yes… oops… ”
Neftam choked and felt a moment of fear. It seemed that his hand would choke my thin neck at any moment.
At the same time, she was euphoric as she received a kiss in a place where no one else’s lips had ever touched, in a sense of fear.
Unfortunately, even this euphoria was learned, which he taught her.
She now clearly realizes that she cannot go back.
Some experiences change a person permanently. Clear enough to never come back.
Life here, the experience changed her.
So now, I couldn’t live without this person.
She deliberately stopped looking in the mirror after that.
He probably has the same expression as the many people who wished for his love before. You must have the same face as your brother.
Maybe even more than that, I didn’t know. You might be looking for him more desperately. So you should stay away You should pretend not to know and cover it up.
It was useless to know.
After all, I am his.
“Have you reflected enough?”
He parted his lips and asked her who was out of breath.
She frantically swallowed the silvery thread that stretched from her moist lips to answer.
gulp. and his spittle ran down her throat.
“… yes.”
The watery, misty eyes indicated that she was truly sorry.
By becoming like them herself, she truly repented of her sins.
“I’m sorry.”
Her apology, mixed with miserable love, obsession, and guilt, was now even filled with longing.
Leonhardt kissed her again, covering her light breath as if giving him a reward.
[Additional settings for Neftam are added.]
[Accordingly, some of Neftam’s basic settings are affected and changed.]
[Neptam’s tendencies are blooming.]
Leonhard turned off the system window.
Looking at her blushing face, it was all things that could be known even without the system.