In the name of God (14)
hard. up
The sound of fingernail biting reverberated throughout the room.
Inside, considering her status, a woman dressed without dignity was biting her nails.
Tousled hair, puffy white clothes that bulged because of her large breasts, and bitten nails. It didn’t look like a god at all.
Even now, she was frantically biting those tattered nails.
Of course, it wasn’t just her fingernails that Yuan was hurting.
The silk that had been draped to cover the bed was ragged and like a rag.
The room was cluttered with chairs with broken legs melted by poison, fragments of broken mirrors, and broken trinkets.
Even dust was piled up in the corner of the room, probably because it had been like this for a long time.
“How the hell am I supposed to get revenge!”
Yuan, who finally exploded in irritation, threw his temper and kicked things on the floor.
“Ouch!”
Then an unfortunate thing happened.
My toe bumped as if there was something hard under the garbage pile.
Yuan groaned and grabbed his throbbing feet.
If there were followers, he wouldn’t have been hurt, and now he didn’t even have the least amount of strength.
“eww… Why only me… ”
It’s unfair. why only me He lives well, but why only me?
Yuan staggered over to the bed and crawled under the covers. Then, as usual, he fell down and buried his face in the pillow.
Even if I covered myself with the blanket and curled up like that, I didn’t feel comfortable.
Only bad memories kept coming back. It was a feeling that the memories flowed into the fountain of emotions and gradually pooled.
No matter how much I discharged it to the outside, I did not know how to reduce the sticky emotions that had accumulated and become cloudy.
Even if I tried to drop it, it felt like it was getting tangled together.
“It’s bad… everything is bad… Neftam and Elin… Everyone is just using me… ”
A sobbing voice flowed from the pillow.
Unhappy. As I thought so, the water began to spread anew on the pillow that was already stained with water stains.
It’s been like that since I was young.
He was beaten for unfair reasons, then had an accident, was swung by Neftam at will, and eventually burned to death. Then, when he gathered his faith and thought he was resurrected as a constellation, he now says that he is an evil spirit. The child chosen as a saint betrays herself.
Everyone was trying to wield them to their liking. If not, betrayed.
Everyone is using me. It’s because I’m stupid and complacent.
Yuan sniffed for a while, then wiped the tears from his eyes with the back of his hand.
My vision, blurred by tears, cleared after a while.
For a moment she stared at the darkness in the messy, dirty room.
Then, all of a sudden, the silence became frightening.
“… I need to see Sungwoon.”
Mumbling to herself, she turned on Nebula Net.
She roamed the Sungwoon.net community leisurely, and giggled after reading some posts.
Then, again, I felt sorry for myself. In Seongwoon.net, even the Constellations who look so pitiful must be living a better life than themselves.
“Ugh… ”
Suddenly feeling so miserable, Yuan tried to cry again, but sighed sadly.
With that, I could barely not cry again.
If you cry too much, you shouldn’t cry because you don’t have enough stamina these days.
“Oh, right.”
Yuan turned the screen like a habit, wondering if Gaunis might have turned on the broadcast.
Contrary to expectations, all I could see was a black screen. With the phrase “waiting for broadcast”.
Even after refreshing it several times, it was still the same.
Yuan, brooding over his regret, entered the Gaunis broadcasting community, which had already been sluggish.
As the topic has already cooled down, even the community, which used to boast of fiery firepower, now only has a few articles posted.
Even that gradually disappeared, leaving Yuan feeling a little lonely.
[When will Gaunis come back? I hope you come back]
Yuan, who wrote a short message containing his small wishes in the community, looked back at other posts.
[When will he come back?]
[I guessed why it suddenly disappeared]
[Did he tell you how to turn on the broadcast?]
[It’s not fun and it’s noisy, but it’s good that you can’t see it]
“What?”
After seeing the post, Yuan quickly entered the post and started writing comments.
[It was just fun, but don’t be fooled, just care… ]
The writing finger stopped. Even if he told me, he wouldn’t care anyway.
[comment posted]
Yuan, who saw a notification that a comment had been posted on his post, quickly went to his post.
[I miss you too]
“Ah, I was interested. Ehehe.”
Yuan was happy with that one comment. In particular, I was more than happy to see comments that agreed with the opinion.
It was sad because there were many times when the writings he wrote didn’t get attention for some reason.
It must be an anonymous site, but maybe everyone knows that I wrote it.
‘Maybe I’m the one who’s really being cheated on.’
Yuan restlessly buried his face in the pillow.
‘I was happy when the broadcast turned on.’
Watching the broadcast, at least I didn’t have bad thoughts.
At least, the room filled with silence was filled with sound. It felt like someone was talking next to me, so I felt a little less lonely.
In addition, if you sponsored, you could receive a thank you note.
Looking at Gaunis smiling at him on the other side of the screen, he felt as if he had made a friend.
Thanks to that, it was a problem that I started to use more and more sacral stones. It stands out because I write more than others. Still, I wanted to be interested.
I couldn’t chat directly because I was shy.
It was a bit of a regret now.
It would have been better if we communicated through chat.
‘I want to watch the broadcast again… .’
I think that would cheer me up a bit.
“Shall we really send it today… ?”
Having gained some courage, Yuan went into the mail and opened the temporarily saved mail.
There was a long message that was written a long time ago and never sent.
[hello! Gaunis (*ˊᗜˋ*)⸝
I am a loyal listener who enjoys watching Gaunis’s broadcast!
First of all, let me tell you that I love you ( ⁎ᵕᴗᵕ⁎ )❤ and support you♥♥!
I love Gaunis-nim’s broadcast so much that I keep watching it again even when he’s not coming!! It’s so fun every time I see it, so I watch it over and over again!
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But I wonder why you haven’t come recently (๑´╹‸╹`๑)!
I was worried that something had happened or that my health had deteriorated… ㅠㅠ I want to know the latest situation too!
And if you really really don’t mind, I want to watch the broadcast again so please send me an e-mail like this!! It’s okay if you don’t reply if it’s burdensome!
Bye then! Thanks for reading!! (*ˊᵕˋ*)ﾉ]
Yuan pondered several times whether or not to press the send message button.
I felt like I would be ignored even if I sent it for some reason, and I felt ashamed. Wouldn’t you laugh there? Someone like me sent an email… It doesn’t look like it will ever come back.
‘Aww… send? Don’t you?’
It was when Yuan’s finger wandered over the send button for a long time.
“yes?”
Yuan’s downy hair stood up at the unfamiliar sensation he felt for the first time.
The feeling of a powerful force forcibly twisting open one’s abode.
“… Hee?”
Yuan lifted his head, wrapping the blanket around his body as a shield.
My forebodings were never wrong.
At least, Yuan thought it was always like that in his life.
“Is it here?”
And this time, too, the hunch came true.
The space in the center of the dark room was distorted, and someone forcibly broke into his dwelling.
‘I, man… ?!’
Yuan’s breath stopped at the sight of the man entering.
He was a very familiar man with black hair and golden eyes.
“Who, who… ?!”
The man gave Yuan a charming smile.
oh. I was handsome… For a moment, Yuan was agitated by his face, but immediately came to his senses.
It was because the man was slowly looking around the room.
“It’s a little worse than I imagined.”
The words that came out of the man’s mouth instantly heated Yuan’s face.
A messy, unmaintained room exposed to strangers.
Is it correct to mention only the room there? No hair, no face…
“Wait a minute! don’t look! don’t look! no!”
Yuan hurriedly stepped back, pulling the blanket over his head.
I was so taken aback by the situation that I couldn’t think of any way to respond.
The thoughts in my head were messed up, and my heart was beating so fast.
And only then did Yuan remember him.
The man who seduced Elin. In addition, the enviable warrior candidate chosen by Gaunis. was the enemy
“Le, Leonhard?! Everything, how are you, uh, in my room… ?!”
But the surprise didn’t end there.
Someone walked in after him.
Fluffy white hair reminiscent of sheep’s wool. Unlike himself, a beautiful face that seems to shine brightly.
It was Neftam. own sister.
Neftam looked around the room blankly.
Soon after, she found Yuan wrapped in a blanket on the bed.
“ah… ”
With Yuan in her eyes, Neftam let out a small sigh of unknown meaning.
“hi. yuan.”
She slightly raised her hand and greeted awkwardly.
For Yuan, it was more than a thunderstorm.
Why is Leonhard here? Also with your sister? how did you get in Are you trying to kill me?
“I’m sorry I came in on my own. Let’s talk for a while. I don’t mean to hurt you.”
Leonhardt smiled and stepped towards Yuan.
Even with my sister.
“Oh, don’t come! You shouldn’t come!”
Yuan trembled and stepped back as if in a fit.
Then, not knowing that I had reached the end of the bed, I fell backwards and fell.
“Wow!”
Yuan fell to the floor and crawled like a slug under the blanket.
As I fell, my head throbbed from the wind that struck me from the back of my head.
“eww… hurt… ”
“it’s okay? It was very loud.”
Leonhardt walked in front of her and held out his hand.
Yuan looked at the hand, shook his head, and trembled.
I was so scared that my eyes quickly filled with tears.
Why the hell does this only happen to me?
Unreasonable. It’s unfair.
“Sah, save me. sniff.”
“What are you talking about. I didn’t come here to harm you.”
Leonhardt saw her crying in a pitiful way, and smiled softly by pulling the corners of his mouth.
“I came because I have something to say. Really.”
For a moment, Yuan was almost relieved by his smile and soft tone, but immediately shook his head.
‘No, no, what’s the plan!’
The person who approached him surely did.
Besides, how could I trust someone who came with my sister?
“Hey, don’t lie… Three, three! lie! Liar!”
“I know it’s hard to believe.”
“Nana… Please leave.”
Yuan said in a hoarse voice.
And I thought that perhaps I might have been in a bad mood because I was forced into it.
then it might hurt
“please… ”
So I added a small request in a tone that seemed to be asking.
It was a huge humiliation. Just a human, Leonhard.
And to be humiliated like this in front of my sister, who is my enemy.
Yuan sadly wiped away the tears with the back of his hand.
Leonhard’s hand touched Yuan’s cheek.
He wiped his wet eyes with his thumb and said soothingly.
“okay. Just say something and I’ll be leaving soon. Calm down for a moment.”
Leonhard said while looking at Neftam next to him.
“Neptam. Did you have something to say?”
“yes… ”
With trembling hands, Yuan gathered the blanket closer to her body and looked at her sister.
My older sister who always guided me. And the person who destroyed himself more than anyone else and made him suffer was standing there.
The older sister who was always majestic and shone brightly like the sun.
And now, that older sister was making a strange expression toward herself.
It was a frustrated, guilty expression.
Now she was wearing the look she used to make on Neftam.
All too suddenly, Yuan heard what he should have heard a long time ago.
“yuan. It’s been painful all this time.”
From then on, Yuan’s ears began to hear Neftam’s voice far away.
“I was so wrong. All my faults I’ve done so far… I will apologize for everything.”
Yuan did not understand Neftam’s words for a moment.
Suddenly, he forcibly opened the door and came, receiving an apology that he would never hear in his lifetime.
Yuan touched the back of his head.
He wondered if his head was hurt worse than he thought.
But except for the throbbing, the head was fine.
Next, Yuan looked at Leonhard.
Because this boy was the only one he could think of as an uninvited guest in his relationship with Neftam.
“She is sincere. Now, you have to show your sincerity.”
Leonhard said quietly.
“yes.”
Neftam responded as if he were obedient to Leonhardt’s words.
She knelt down and bowed her head deeply toward Yuan as she continued.
“You don’t have to forgive me. I’ll do anything you really want I’ll take everything if it’s a punishment. sorry. yuan.”
My sister felt a little strange. Is it really the older sister I know?
Obediently obeying the man’s orders, and the appearance of being somewhat intimidated, it felt very strange.
‘I’m not kidding or teasing me… ?’
It was so unreal that it seemed like a dream.
Yuan wrapped herself in the blanket even tighter, gasping for breath as she looked at Neftam.
I could see Neftam’s elegant eyes, which were moist even to the eyelashes. like a normal woman.
She had never looked so shabby. Now she was like herself. No, I didn’t know that I could be worse than myself.
It was the first time in Yuan’s life to see such an older sister.
I heard a faint euphoria.
Finally, Yuan’s lips, which were wet with tears, moved softly.