He was afraid of not knowing why he liked him.
If I had told you that I fell in love with you because of your looks like everyone else, if you had told me that you were attracted to me because of your prominent body features, if you had told me that you liked me because you were nice to me at the very least, I would have been able to understand.
I was anxious because there was no way to know his true intentions, who reached out his hand again even after being hurt countless times while feeling the slightest bit of warmth.
But in retrospect, it must have been the same.
“⋯⋯ Yes, Dojin-ah.”
“yes.”
As we talk, leaving enough space for one finger to fit in, the breaths from each other’s mouths tickle all over our faces.
Dasom, unable to bear the strange sensation, decided to bury her face in Yudo-jin’s chest.
There was a desire to relieve the shame that was constantly springing up, but most of all, I wanted to confirm that his words came from his heart, not his head.
“You⋯⋯You couldn’t skate very well.”
“Yes?”
“I thought it was a mannequin, not a person, who was posing in the studio. It’s so awkward.”
“That’s because my sister made a strange request.”
“His expression on the roller coaster is really funny. My runny nose is running.”
“Look at me.”
“no.”
Suddenly, someone’s face appeared in Dasom’s heart.
Black hair, a tall nose, soft, thin eyelashes, protruding bright red lips, and pale skin that accentuates the color.
Is this face Lee Da-jun or Yu Yu-jin’s?
I do not know. Because they are so similar.
However, the way the face moves, that is, the expression on the face, tells a different story.
A fierce expression when meeting the unexpected. This is Yu-Jin’s face.
Da-Jun Lee never makes such a stupid expression. Because he was a very smart kid.
⋯⋯No, Yu-Jin didn’t even make that kind of expression when we first met.
Like Da-Jun Lee, he was also a person who tried to carry everything on his own, quietly, without panicking, no matter what happened.
So, why did Yu-Jin change?
yea, because he’s alive To live is to pass time, and as time passes, living things change.
Even if you plant a seedling of the same species, it will grow to a completely different size and shape later on.
Yes. It was completely different.
The person I liked was someone who had so many different things.
“It was fun.”
I was making excuses.
It was for the stupid reason that if I didn’t do that, I wouldn’t have the courage to approach.
“It was really, really, really fun.”
I went away because I couldn’t be honest. obsessed with getting away. I broke down because I was obsessed.
“Because Dojin is with you⋯⋯.”
It is nonsense to assume situations that will never happen. There is no if in the world.
He had no choice but to be curious about him, and he had no choice but to have the same feelings for him.
The important thing is that the person he likes right now is Yu-Jin Yu.
It really is. It’s cute that he has a slightly stern side unlike his physique, but he’s trustworthy that he still has a reliable side in several places, he’s happy through conversation, he knows a lot of interesting movies, he has a lot of affection, so he worries a lot, and he thinks other people are his too. it’s nice to do
Now, in this place, this man who affirms the existence of idasom.
It’s unbearably good.
No, it was possible to like it.
He was able to open his heart because it was him and not someone else.
“Dojin-ah.”
Dasom said.
“yes.”
“I was scared.”
“me too.”
Dasom continued speaking with her face still buried in Yudo-jin’s chest.
“We are really stupid.”
“I know.”
The stillness came again. Only the beatings of the two of them were slowly passing through the middle of the quiet room.
“Dojin-ah.”
“yes.”
“I want to quit.”
“What?”
I know the truth, but Yoo-jin decided to ask the question. Because he wanted to speak directly with her mouth.
“Just, everything. I want to make it all nonsense.”
“all?”
“Yeah, I want to go back to normal.”
“You can’t do that. It’s impossible.”
“I see.”
As soon as the words were finished, Yu Yu-jin’s chest began to sting with a damp touch.
This is also the last time. Finally you have to make
Yoo Ji-jin, who had organized her thoughts, opened her mouth.
“You can start over instead.”
* * *
As we got out of the car and climbed up a little along the unpaved dirt road, several elongated headstones were revealed.
Da-Jun Lee was buried right there.
Dasom, who looked at the monument for a moment, took out a bunch of azaleas from the bouquet she was holding and set it down on the table.
“That kid liked it.”
said Dasom, who was kneeling and stroking the surface of the tomb.
“I only drew this every day⋯⋯.”
Come to think of it, there was a rhododendron in the picture that Dajun Lee first showed him. To be precise, his face with an azalea in his head.
Dasom raised her head and looked up at the sky.
That day, the same gray sky as when Lee Da-jun left her side spread over her.
When he was yawning at the never-ending class and complaining about the color of the sky, what was Da-Jun Lee thinking while looking at the sky?
At the last moment, what were you thinking?
“⋯⋯.”
Dasom raised her body, opened her fist, and checked the top of her palm.
There was still blood on his palms. Blood was red and sticky enough to frown, running down the back of her hand and soaking her whole body.
Perhaps this blood will never be wiped away. So I won’t even try to wipe it off.
I will live as if it were buried from the beginning.
“Dajun.”
A determined voice rang out.
“My sister⋯⋯.”
A single tear streamed down Dasom’s cheek. I decided not to cry, but when I put it in my mouth, I couldn’t stand it.
“I love my sister very much.”
At that moment, the wind from somewhere wiped away the tears from her cheeks. Now was the time to go.
“⋯⋯Yeah, I’ll come again next time.”
After saying that, the two went down from the mountain.
* * *
“You have come.”
As I opened the door and entered, my father’s heavy voice pierced my ears.
Father, who was sitting on the sofa watching TV, opened his mouth with a strange smile.
“If I had known it would be like this, I would have done it without having to empty it.”
“That’s it.”
Mother came out of the kitchen and put down the plate with apples and said, There was a childish curiosity in those eyes that glanced at him.
“Hey, Dojin-san.”
“Yes, mother.”
Mother wiggled her fingers, then smiled shyly.
“No, nothing else⋯⋯He, you know what I said yesterday, right? Photo⋯⋯.”
“Oh, yes. I took a picture.”
“Oh, my, my, my, my!”
The heat from the boiling kettle poured down my face.
“⋯⋯Can I take a look?”
“Of course we should see each other. Why do you want to see that good thing alone?”
The more I looked at the smiles of the two, the more I felt like my heart was being ripped to pieces.
I could hardly open my mouth thinking about the words I had to say in the future and the expressions on the faces of those who were going to unfold before my eyes.
I have to do it though.
I caught my breath, looked at the two of them, and slowly opened my mouth.
“Before that, there is something I want to tell you.”
In an instant, a scream that resembled a scream resounded throughout the house. It was my mother’s voice.
“Child, why are you screaming all of a sudden?”
“No, you don’t look like you’re screaming right now? Oh, my, my, my, my, my ⋯⋯!”
“Ah, so why are you doing this?”
“Child, really. Think about it. If two men and women who came in overnight had something to say to the elderly with such a serious expression, wouldn’t there be only one?”
Father, who was listening to his mother’s story with his chin crooked, suddenly opened his eyes.
“Stand, it is you⋯⋯!”
Father, who was about to continue speaking as it was, was blocked by his mother, who rushed to him.
“Baby, why are you trying to be angry? It’s what you’ve always wanted! yes, what There are times in life when things don’t work out the way you want them to, and there are times when you just make a lot of mistakes. It doesn’t matter though. What matters is the result. As long as the results are all right, that’s it. right? Where, what, what should I do first? So, from the ceremony hall⋯⋯No, first of all, I have to meet Dojin’s parents. No, before that, we have to decide what we’re going to name our baby first.”
Me and my sister quickly waved.
“Well, it’s not like that.”
“uh? Then why⋯⋯?”
I opened my mouth again with a serious expression.
“The ⋯⋯ were all lies.”
“What?”
“yes?”
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“It was all lies ⋯⋯ that Dasom liked her older sister as the opposite sex, that they were dating, and that they were living together.”