101 – Impoverishment
“… Jin-ah… Jin-ah… I have to get up…
“…Ah… Ugh… I’ll cut it a little longer…”
“And then again- I’ll be lying in bed all day. We were supposed to hang out here and there today! Don’t you remember?”
“…Ah…Right…Isn’t it…?”
Ah, I did. …I haven’t been able to sleep lately because I’ve been so excited about going to play with Yoo Seon from a few days ago.
If I couldn’t sleep or get proper rest, the back of my neck would get stiff… My arms and legs would tremble so numbly that I couldn’t move…
So I have to slowly relax the muscles in my arms and legs while slowly applying strength to the tips of my fingers or toes…
-Jomuljomul.
… Yoo Seon reached out her hand and gently massaged the back of my neck.
When someone massages my body like this, the stiffness in my arms and legs quickly loosens up.
…Still, not just anyone can touch my body.
There is no other person in this world who can touch the back of my neck with Jomuljomul.
Yoo Seon-i’s hands are warm, so it feels good to feel the heat spreading all over her body just by touching her like this.
My limbs, which used to be shaking numbly, have improved a lot, and except for my slightly dizzy head, I am able to get up and walk around.
“…Yoo Seon-ah… I’m cold…!”
It’s March now, but the weather is still chilly at dawn.
That’s why I got entangled in Yu Seon’s arms.
It’s warm and soft.
Thumping- I can hear the slow beating heart in my ears.
I also like the touch of Yoo Seon who quietly strokes my hair without saying anything.
Worries and worries disappear when Yoo Seon-i strokes her like this and holds her in her arms again.
Actually, I think it would be fine without going out to play.
I’m happy to be like this all day with Yoo Seon leaning her ear against my chest.
“…Yoo Seon-ah, let’s continue like this..? Huh?”
“…Just 5 minutes”
Your eyes narrowed slightly, but it was nice that you listened to me.
Slowly, Yoo Seon stroked my hair.
I like to run her fingers through her hair, starting at the top of her head and going down to her waist, as if you were combing it.
I have long hair, so my hair falls easily on the floor, and the drain is clogged, so there are many inconveniences in my life.
Still, Yoo Seon said that my brain is good. She said that long hair down to her waist suits me, so she wants to keep growing her hair.
“… Shall we eat now? What do you want to eat?”
“…Fried rice”
“Okay! Then, let’s eat whatever Jina wants today!”
Yoo Seon got out of bed and went to the kitchen.
I don’t know why it feels so empty that I’m the only one in bed now.
It’s strange. This doesn’t happen once or twice – why…? Will tears suddenly come out?
-Sseukseuk
Wipe your eyes with your sleeve. Are your eyes burning with fried onions?
Today is Yoo Seon’s cooking day for me… I want to eat delicious food quickly!
The weather was still cold, so I watched Yoo Seon-i from behind as she wrapped herself around the blanket like a do-rong.
Tak Tak Tak –
You can see Yu Seon cutting carrots and onions with a kitchen knife, then taking out rice from a rice cooker and frying it in a wok.
My house is small, so we only have one room and one bathroom.
Since it’s such a small studio, the size of this studio, including the bathroom, is approximately two-thirds of my room..? Because it’s so wide…
…?
…..Strange. I’ve never had a ‘room’ of my own.
Slightly dizzy. Did you dream?
I think I haven’t woken up yet.
Do-it-yourself like it’s raining – I can hear the fried rice stir frying for a few minutes, and then I’m ready to eat.
Golden fried rice.
It looks appetizing just by looking at it-
I enjoy eating the rice that Yoo Seon-i made with a spoon. It’s delicious… It’s really delicious.
“Uh..? Jina, why are you crying all of a sudden..?”
“The fried rice is delicious…”
“Okay, here’s a tissue… Wipe away some tears.”
I wiped my tears with the tissue Yoo Seon gave me.
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…It’s just fried rice, which I eat every day- I don’t know why it tastes so good today.
I felt like I was having the happiest time of my life.
It’s just an ordinary daily life… Why do tears keep flowing?
…I grew up in an orphanage. I don’t know what my parents are doing.
Just from the moment I found out who I was, I was already in an orphanage…?
So, since I was little, I was bullied by the bad kids in the neighborhood.
I always tease him for being squeamish, and again- I tease him for not having a mother or father. Throwing spoiled milk, and again- when they see me, they’re about to cut my hair with scissors…
That’s why it was so hard- Every time I was bullied, there was someone who helped me. Of course, that person was wired.
…An apostle of justice who always defeats evil villains like a prince on a white horse! And I’m not a princess, I’m just an ordinary girl.
To be honest, I can’t even say that I’m an ordinary girl…?
I’m not good at sports, I’m not good at cooking, I’m not good at earning money, and I’m not good at studying. I was the kind of kid who didn’t know how to do anything.
It has changed since I met Yoo Seon.
We cook together, also- we go to the park every day and take a walk, study at the library- again… And also work part-time together.
Thanks to Yoo Seon-i, the things I know how to do have gradually increased.
Since ancient times, we have always been together.
Same elementary school, same middle school, same high school!
Even if the class is different, the one who finished early always waits for me when I leave school, goes to school together, and eats together..!
Yoo Seon is a girl who is popular with other girls-she always has chocolates and love letters when she opens her locker or something, but I… I didn’t do anything for Yoo Seon.
Because I didn’t have money, I didn’t even have money to buy chocolate like the other girls did…
All I can give to Yoo Seon is love.
I like you, I love you. She always wants to be by her side. After giving it away, I have nothing left.
I’m short, I can’t study, and I have a small physique… I don’t like myself. Yoo Seon-i always took care of me.
Even when the other girls clung to me, they didn’t abandon me.
Yeon Seon always takes care of me first, takes care of me, and takes care of me.
And whenever that happened, I could feel that I was always in Yoo Seon-i’s heart.
“…Seonah Yoo…”
After eating, Yoo Seon hugs her tightly. Scared.
I’m afraid.
I’m very afraid that one day Yu Seon will leave my arms.
It’s good even in a small alcove.
It’s okay to eat the same fried rice every day, and it doesn’t matter if you wear tight clothes.
I can do anything as long as Yu Seon is by my side.
I’m learning how to cook, and I’m learning how to talk to other people.
Now my legs don’t hurt even if I keep walking.
Hurry up- I want to help Yoo Seon.
Because I want to live in a wider world with Yoo Seon-i, so I don’t get in the way of Yoo Seon-i, I want to help Yoo Seon-i so that I don’t fall behind!
That’s why I’m working hard.
I’m working hard not to hold on to Yoo Seon’s ankle… I hope Yoo Seon continues to walk at my own pace like now.
I want you to walk side by side with me without leaving me. Forever and ever like this…
2)
“Are you all crying now?”
“…Don’t make fun of me…”
…Yeon Seon still teases me when he sees me because I cried out loud while eating.
I’m a little shy.
Why did I cry so much…?
Even before I went to elementary school, Yoo Seon and I were together, but all of a sudden, Yoo Seon acted as if he was going to leave somewhere..?
I don’t know.
Today I decided to go to the lake park with Yoo Seon.
I have to take a bus to go to Lake Park from my house.
Fortunately, the seat for two was vacant, so I sat by the window, followed by Yoo Seon-i by the aisle.
The bus leaves… Yoo Seon checks the Internet news on his cell phone for a while-
– Corporate culture must be innovated. Director Lee Yu-jeong’s speech at the Board of Directors-
Oh my god, you’re the same age as us, and you’re giving a speech in a place where there are so many people..!
How much ability do you have to be able to rise to the position of director of a huge corporation…?
As far as I know, this person. She is said to be her grandfather’s granddaughter -…
…? Grandfather…? Whose grandfather…?
“…Jinah, are you okay…? Are you sick…?”
“..! No, it’s not like motion sickness! Yes, it’s okay! I can ride all the way!”
My head is a little dizzy. It seems to be a bit wobbly…
Get off the bus and go to Lake Park.
The weather is very nice today, and the wind is cool, so I don’t think it will be hot even if I keep walking around.
“…”
As soon as I entered the promenade, Yoo Seon held my hand first.
With my two arms- I held on tight… So that I couldn’t escape, and then slowly walked around the lake park.
A cute squirrel is climbing up and down the tree, and a little sparrow is sitting on a tree branch and singing.
Unknown fish were jumping up and down in the lake, and everyone was enjoying a leisurely stroll around the lake with bright expressions on their faces.
“…Coming here. It’s good, isn’t it..?”
I sat down on the bench and leaned my head on Yu Seon’s shoulder.
…Yoo Seon’s shoulders are broad, so I can lean on him alone. Touch Yoo Seon-i’s arm, who is holding onto it tightly.
Yoo Seon’s arms are strong and thick. Because Yoo Seon-i works out every day- Maybe that’s why his arms are so thick..?
The other day, I tried to hang Yoo Seon on his arm as if he were clinging to an iron bar, and Yoo Seon easily lifted me with one arm.
“What do you want to eat…?”
“… Rice! What to eat…?”
There are many restaurants near the lake, but they look expensive.
There are times when you grill steak, and there are times when you make pasta- but Yoo Seon-i hates Western food- so you don’t have to eat here…
“…Let’s eat pasta!”
“…Huh? Uhh… Got it!”
Yoo Seon wanted to eat pasta.
“You like that! No..!?”
“Yeah…! I like pasta!”
I like it… But why…? Why… Do I feel strange?
After we had a delicious meal, we went to the store to pick out clothes.
I’m trying to buy clothes because Seon Yoo said there were no clothes she could wear… But I’m a bit unsure.
Because Yoo Seon bought me clothes the other day, but I didn’t wear any of them.
At that time- I walked around the department store 100 times without lying- I didn’t wear the clothes I bought you…
“…Jinah..? Jinah..?”
“Uh..? Uh… Yoo Seon-ah..!”
“Are you okay..? You don’t look very well today..?”
“…I’m fine…Uh…?”
When I came to my senses, we were outside. Why..? We must have been choosing clothes at the store…?
– Hiccup!
I can smell alcohol from my mouth… I feel dizzy.
When did I drink like this…? I don’t know…
“…We got a lot drunk today- let’s go home and rest, okay..?”
“…No…! I can play more…!”
I want to play more, but I still have a lot to do with Yoo Seon… It’s a pity the day ends like this!
What should I do…?
Shall we go to the arcade and play games together? Or watch a late night movie? It would also be nice to take a walk at night.
I think it would be okay to go to a 24-hour manga cafe… I didn’t really want to do anything like this… As I was thinking about it, I saw a twinkling light in front of me.
“Yoo Seon-ah… I want to go over there…!”
“It’s a motel…?”
“…I want to rest over there… But can’t…? Let’s go over there, watch a movie, order chicken, and rest for a bit..! Huh..?”
“Do you want to go there…?”
I said it first, but I guess Yoo Seon wanted to go with me too.
….Go into the motel, pay, then go into the room.
Since we are adults- we did it as soon as we left nursery school and started living together- So, there is nothing to be ashamed of.
“…Do you want to wash first? Shall we wash together?”
“…Yoo Seon, wash me…”
Originally, these things are led by men…
Yoo Seon’s big hand slowly started to lift up the knit I was wearing…